Sound_of_coups Ig Update 092424

end of results

crazy how i literally got the whole continent of Europe but they said they can't anaylise it and will need time to since Europe was often buried up back in time

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

happy juneteenth 💖

i need to rant and please don’t ignore all my posts, please pay attention to them.

warning : // homophobia, bullying, r4p3, assault, and a few things.

1), i feel like people don’t understand that i have a hard time liking men and being w men. when i say, i can’t get used to it, they think it’s a joke. they think i’m “joking” when i say, i cannot feel comfortable around them. every time i always think they’re gonna hurt me or beat me up.

2), i also feel like no one is listening to me. i can’t feel attracted to men. i can’t imagine myself having a boyfriend. i can’t picture myself being friends with them. i can’t do ONE thing without thinking negatively. i know not all men are like this and i am NOT generalising them either, it’s just that since i’m severely bullied by most of them, i get really scared thinking they’ll hurt me.

3), due to issues, i don’t understand the difference between sexual attraction and romantic attraction. i know this is stupid but im really confused and i have hard times understanding stuff so im just really ugh. i am sure i identify as aroace bc i just don’t like the attraction and it feels disgusting to me.

4), when boys have a crush on me, i get a ick really quick. when most boys would go up to me and say they got a “crush” on me, i fr cant tell if they’re being fr or lying. most of them don’t even say they’re serious but next thing I know, they talk shit and say horrid things about me. and most of that counts as s3xųal bullying (?) cause they harass me everywhere, hurt me, give me bruises, etc. this is why i cannot imagine myself w a man. i’m frightened.

5), when they act all sweet or when i reject them. if one comes up to me and i say no. they get all angry and start saying “you’re so [remark on how i look]” or “i never liked you anyway [horrid name]”. most of them call me that cause apparently i identify as neurodivergent. even worse. they knew about it somehow???”

6), i HATE how i can’t be w men. i get sometimes board when i only like girls and wish I can ditch labels but I don’t FEEL like that. yesterday, I went hotel and saw this white boy who was attractive. lesbians can find men attractive without wanting to date them right? you know when the realisation hits you cause you can’t feel like that cause that isn’t who you are.

7). i want male validation ofc but i identify as sapphic cause i only like women. but how to become friends w a man without having to feel like you wanna date him but that’s truly how you don’t feel? yeah. pain. comphet is getting my ass 😹

8). i am currently planning to stay single forever. i literally cannot handle myself being scared w men. what happened to me? i used to feel so comfortable w them but the bullying... 😕 + i’ve seen how women get abused and rap3d which scares me even worse. i’ve been sexually touched before by a man and at that same night, i dreamed of being rap3d. for no reason. deadass.

so when that my irls be saying, “you turned yourself gay”, “your fault”, la la la, it ain’t my fault. fuck them and tell them to fix up.

but end of my rant, thank you for listening to all that racket 😹 .

the v app just shut down today #kpop

hi people of tumblr, any recommendations for stim toys? you may have seen my previous post a month ago about them but those were from somewhere else and because of how we got into a fight and they were mean, they took it away.

help an autistic adhd person out please.

what type of stim toys do i need to make sure that everything’s okay and doesn’t go wrong?

oh wow i was literally UNAWARE my results came back 2-3 days ago and I was not aware of it

curiously i decided to go check my dna to see if it came back and it DID i just never knew

coincidentally i mentioned that my great grandfather from my mom's side was a jewish man from germany and apparently they picked it up???? my 4-5-6-7-to 12 generations were jewish. but more jews from poland, belarus, Ukrainian, Lithuania, romania, Moldova and hungary. I KNEW i was jewish but then that would mean I have to convert to be considered jewish. it came from both grandparents both maternal and paternal so thats good

crazy realisation, COINCIDENTALLY on shabbat (on Saterday it was still shabbat) i got my results and seeing the jewish was shocking

and most of my dna came from my dad because he was african. he even had capr Verde walking there like theres so much of it and i just found it all shocking. bro then a huge block of British and irish popped up in there, and its ofc connected since i was BORN in britain. ties w scotland. then I got ALL scandinavian dna fully, danish swedish finnish iceland and norwegian was there on MY TEST. like do u know how INSANE that is?

and European, I got italian, greek, Spanish & Portuguese, Bulgarian, romanian, Moldovan, and a few more.

then I had unassigned. my mom is arab ofc as u guys know but this time more uncovered. she had iraqi Azerbaijani Turkish Iran on her side including Georgia yemen and a strong NORTH AFRICAN jews on the side. she also said yemeni ties and Egyptian.

suprisingly, chinese showed up on my test, viet, thai khmer indonesian and myanmar, malaysian, Japanese & more. then Russian as well.

but then. I got south asian dna from my MOM because where she is from has a strong south asian population, so I got bhutanese (from bhutan), indian, pakistani, sri lankan, Nepali, and 3 more. EVEN KAZAHSTAN LMFAOOOO

and lastly, just thought my mom was just the country she was and my dad was from the caribbean and that was it. no. few more popped up. im apparently barbadian, trinidad, descendant of the cayman islands afro population, AFRO LATINA (afro cuban??? that was shocked me more), and tbh it was fun to know everything but I was just so shocked.

it made me laugh how I stopped checking my dna and then randomly, decided to check it again and it came on jewish passover JUST to be suprised w jewish ancestry from mh ancestors on shabbat (shabbat is Friday evening to saturday evening but its passover so it may be a clash??? so yeah don't attack me.)

im just super happy rn because now I can continue learning about new traditions cultures more food to try more countries to visit, music etc

thank god im multiracial and im thankful EVERYDAY im mixed

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

yesterday i found 3 stripes of rainbow.

Someone shouted “omfg a rainbow!!” and i FREAKED out

then on my left, 5 stripes, my right, another 3.

at the back behind me, i saw 2.

then it faded away.

although + at lunch, i found 2 again then at home to leave, i found 2 at the window, and another one at night.

IT WAS RAINING THAT WHOLE ENTIRE DAY YESTERDAY LMFAO

lately i’ve been listening to lesbian | sapphic music and I certainly feel like it suits me and my sexuality. i’ve been identifying as lesbian for a while and i’ve discovered a girl called hayley kiyoko and she’s a queer icon according to society and fans and girl in red, fletcher, etc queer artists and lil nas x, and i became obsessed w her and her music and im sure i AM a lesbian bc like i listen to gay songs like girls in bikinis, girls girls girls, i wish you liked girls, i wanna be your girlfriend, and im just so happy that i found my people <3 💓

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNJIN

this made my day because

i went to this restaurant and i saw this nice ass manager and he was really friendly and basically offered anything we needed and while my family was talking to him, they had a few of piercings including lip ring and loads of badges, and they use he/him pronouns!!!!!

AND THEY TOLD ME IN SIGN LANGUAGE THAT THEY WERE A NON BINARY (gender) ARO (aromantic | romantic orientation) LESBIAN (sexuality) AND USES HE/HIM PRONOUNS (thank god my family doesn’t understand what was happening) and i told them i was nonbinary/trans who uses he/they and explained my sexuality to them since i was questioning and used queer as an umbrella term and HIS SMILE OH MY FUCKING GOD

THEN THEY GOT REALLY FRIENDLY AND MY FAMILY DIDNT NOTICE ANYTHING

when we left, we took each others numbers, AND I USED HIS PRONOUNS AND HE WAS SOBBING LIKE HE WAS GETTING ALL EXCITED AND HAPPY NZULSMSKQ

and he was super friendly to Me and my family and my family was really nice to him (even though they’re extremely lgbtqphobic) but like,, we were just really happy together

I found my queer peer !!!! LETS GOOOOO