DAY 28

DAY 30 youhouhou

For my stats I won’t have my real CW right now BUT

Wa!st~ 71-72–> 65

@rms~ 30–> 26-27

CW~ 56–> 53

My reality check is that maybe reaching 60 around my wa!st in 2 months was a little bit to much lmao (I still have two weeks but I don’t now if it’s humanly possible)

And my @rms always been the most difficult part so for now I am happy that’s it’s not going up (BUT PLEASE GO THE FCKING DØWN OMG)

I’ll update the CW on Sunday :)

Overall I’ll feel happy and miserable at the same time so it’s kinda weird lol

Oh and my cøll@rbøn3s are visible now and my h!p bøn3s just starting

Okay soooo, didn’t do it. I tried, really… I even ordered some føød but I don’t know if I’ll be able to eat it. I really wanted to achieve that but I feel so sick right now

Wanna know the funniest part? Even with this potential diner I wouldn’t have reached the 1800...

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💫

… well yeah

Anyway the usual

Bowl: 3 pieces of fried tofu: ~200 Kimchi (about 2 tablespoons): ~20 Bean sprouts (about 1/3 cup): ~10 Sambal (1 tablespoon): ~20 White rice (about 100g cooked): ~150 → Bowl total: ~400

Plate: 3 pieces of fried tempeh: ~230 Papaya (~100g): ~50 Cucumber (~60g): ~10 → Plate total: ~290 kcal

2 Green tea: 0 1 ice Americano: ~10

Total of the day: ~700

'Why do you always add random numbers in your notes app'

-God forbid a girl has hobbies 😮‍💨

Little thing that can help (eventually?) First of all this is a daily reminder that one day that you consider bad will not mess everything up, don’t give up just for one day IT’S OKAY 💚💚

Tonight I indulged myself to have a snack, 3/4 of an apple and 15 vegetables crackers with a little bit of chickpeas left from my dinner.. right after I started to freak out, saying to myself that it was way too much and that I ruined everything I was genuinely scared and felling like a 🐖 I tried to take a step back after some time and decided to see how my bødy would react to this (NOT AT ALL) b!nge I just had. Like wtf girl 300 is not that bad when you only had no more and probably less than 1300 during the day CALM THE FCK DOWN And you know what? Turns out my bødy was just hungry haha :) I feel good, satisfied and not bloated at all So to anyone out there that is starting to feel really bad because you choose to 3@t something more than what you planned for the day it’s gonna be okay <33 + if you’re like me you probably over counting/estmating anyway haha It’s okay to have a little snack once in a while even if you already had a m3t@bday, maybe you were just hungry and this snack won’t make you bloated

except if you stressed it out to much or you let yourself have an B episode because of it… it will only make things worse

Hope it reassured the people who needed to hear it 🧚🐞

TW: fck3d up 3d thoughs

Every single month, when the cramps hit, I dream about the early menopause I can create with 4n4 and I whisper “maybe next month I’ll be s!ck enough”

This is not very “mentally stable” of me

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt Lunch~ roasted chicken with mushroom pepper sauce and steamed vegetables + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ protein salad + green salad, 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1300

What a great day

Sh!t I’m constipated

ANYWAY GOOD DAY EVERYONE 🎀

Kinda proving me that I’m not 3@ting enough for my bødy to let go of any c@l I give him hehe

DAY 24

If a m3t@bday count as a ch3@t day then yes

I do it because I don’t want to go back to the mentality state that I was 5 years ago but it’s actually really hard for me to 3@t so much in 1 day

DAY 14

Working on my thesis

Working out

Working on my mindset

Working on my projects

Working

Haha