Lispenardlover - Hope

i will literally never shut up about Een Klein Leven but I'm doing a rewatch (again) and holy shit I will also never shut up about Ramsey Nasr's acting. The face he makes when Brother Puke tells him they're a couple now (yall know what i mean) is absolutely HEARTBREAKING

that is an EERILY childlike expression holy shit I'm about to throw something. he said 🥺

AND THEN THE FACE OF HEART SHATTERING ACCEPTANCE OF THE INEVITABLE

RAMSEY NASR WHEN I GET YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

x = x, he thinks. x = x, x = x.

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i took this photo today whilst visiting Lispenard Street <3

*sees a man in a grey suit" omg jude st francis cosplay

guess where i was today

june 12 today. i wish jude knew how loved he really was

my new advanced higher english teachers fav book is a little life. it’s going to be a good year i fear

joobie st frankie

your ALL fanart is so good i want to just submerge myself in it

Thank you, kind anon! This ask made me happy so I made a bashful young Jude sketch to commemorate.

i am so fucking high and i can’t stop thinking about jude st francis

october 22, 2023

I just read the first chapter of the “axiom of equality” part of a little life and dude I’m really reconsidering the way I view life as a whole.

x=x, yes Jude, I feel you so fucking much, all my life I felt like I wouldn’t surpass this feeling of being wrong, the wrongdoings of my childhood, my mistakes and mistakes of others done to me haunt me every single moment of my days, maybe If I were funnier, maybe I if worked on my weight a little harder it would disappear, what did I do to deserve so much hate from others as a kid? to experience the heavy bullying? why should it stain my memory like a wine stained carpet? (you get used to it but it’s never really clean, this metaphor worked in my head so please bear with it). and Caleb, man I’ve met so many fucking Calebs in my life, people i trusted at first sight, thought it could work just to be utterly disappointed at the outcome.

“you’re not your past”, easier said than done.

it’s 3:15 a.m where I live as i’m writing this and I doubt i’ll be able to afford a good night of sleep due the mental state i find myself in. I haven’t cried once while reading this book, maybe it’s because I see so much of myself in these characters that I’m just perplexed and angry, at myself, at others who made me feel like a complete piece of shit my whole life, at the JB’s, cause we all have that one friend that, at some point, made fun of our insecurities and left us feeling like garbage.

read “a little life” by Hanya Yanagihara, i promise it’ll change you and the way you interpret life and others (and i haven’t even finished it yet)