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Daily blog #11

[Wednesday, 21 June 2023]

I did some cleaning today as my classes were off. A while ago , I saw this post about having a diary to write and keep all the things you like, like your favourite quotes, stories, poems, movie posters, postcards and so on. I have been wanting to make one, so I did. In the evening, I had some free time so I took out all my supplies and made this folder kinda thing. I didn't want to use a diary cuz it'll swell up making it look ugly and all. I am pretty satisfied with the results tho.

Signing off

User_liztical

saying and regretting is better than the regret of never saying all that stuffed in the lungs

@huzaifawrites

I feel like I need to tell u something that I never told u before,but I can’t bring myself to tell u, I wrote messages many times but I either never sent them or erased or deleted them out I am just waiting for the right time but it never comes and my words remains unspoken.I just wish that something I haven’t told u before u are just good at reading eyes.

Daily blog #6

[Friday, 16 June 2023]

It was my cousin's 1st birthday, so I went to his house, a Lil while after I came back from classes, to help with the decor and all. It was pretty fun and pretty boring, I really enjoyed the food though and the cake was delicious. Nothing much really happened and yeah I def didn't study again. At this point I am not even procrastinating anymore, life is getting more and more stuff to do instead of studying. Hoping to prioritise my study.

Signing off.

User_liztical

thank you, opportunity 

At times, I think I am my life's biggest paradox. The way I think, the way I act, the way I speak, my whole existence is like a paradox to me.

I love nature but I also don't like rain and I am afraid of thunderstorms. I love making friends but I don't want to tell them my problems. I tell my friends it's human to make mistakes but my tiniest mistakes eat me away. I am extremely ambitious and love the things I do, but then, I am extremely lazy too. I am a hopeless romantic, very hopeless, but I am afraid if I fall too hard for someone I might lose my own self. I am very confident about myself but it won't take me the slightest moment to get insecure when someone better read, better dressed shows up. I love myself, a lot. But, there are times I look in the mirror and don't like the way I am looking. I am an over-sharer(if that's even a word, but you get it) but I also have some major trust issues. I don't care about what others think but I also want to be likeable. I am really sensitive but I am also really tough. I am very happy but I also cry a lot.

Even my thoughts. At times, I'd think people don't really have bad intentions, it's just a matter of perspective but then I also judge a lot of people for the one thing they did wrong to me. I'd think honesty is just so very important but I also think a truth that might hurt someone shouldn't be said unless necessary.

There's so much of these things that this list could go on forever. But, then I think our lives are a little too long to hold on to just one personality, just one perspective, just one ideology. Wouldn't it be too boring to live such a predictable life?

MY DEMON 마이데몬 dir. Kim Jang Han (2023-2024)

i hope i find someone who won’t get loud and aggressive just because they’re mad