So when Agatha woke up and realized Nicky wasn't next to her, that the thing she'd been dreading all these years had finally happened. How many times was it the reverse? How many times did she fall asleep to nightmares of just that scenario, of him just suddenly gone like he never existed, completely out of her reach, no way to stop it or even say goodbye. How many times did she have that nightmare only to wake up to him still tucked up next to her, his warmth and his scent still there, her still able to pull him closer and feel his heartbeat?
How many times did that happen? And when it finally happened for real, how long did it take for Agatha to fully accept that this wasn't another nightmare, that she'd never wake up next to him again, never feel that relief she'd felt every day for 6 years when she realized he was still there?
How many times after that did she wake up and still reach for him in those first moments when she's still more asleep than awake, still reach out for him and say his name only to open her eyes and wake up properly, and be trapped once again in a reality where her son's been gone 5 years, 10 years, 100 years, 200? How many times over the centuries has she reached for him in those first moments of consciousness only to realize that she's alone again, still, always?
*whispers* imagine steve waking up the morning after that knife fight with a hand-shaped bruise around his neck.
most important part of the writing process actually is when you loop a single song on max volume and stare at the word document and imagine the characters doing things for 14 hours. this is known as getting in the zone
the day we stopped crying
“No, YOU move.” By Tom Hodges. Prints available here.
My question is: what is Steve Rogers’s body count? … We don’t talk about that a lot because he’s an American Hero ™ and American Heroes don’t ever actually kill people even when they’re, you know, soldiers in the actual fucking Army. The American Hero has to show mercy and give everybody a second chance and any time the Bad Guy dies, it has to be because he made a mistake that lead to his own death. The hero can never actually just fucking murder him in our stories because that would be wrong and a true American would never do something like that.
So, like, has Steve Rogers ever shot a dude in the face? Has he ever snapped anybody’s neck? Has he ever been struggling for his own life and used his shield to take a life?
If you have either canon comics knowledge or just Opinions and Feelings, please feel free to share. Because, like, dude was a soldier in WWII on the European Front fighting Nazis, kicking open doors with gun literally blazing, so he’s obviously killed people, but we never discuss this. How does Steve reconcile killing? Does he feel guilt? Is he comfortable with his actions? Has he killed people since he got pulled out of the ice? How does he feel about taking human lives? Does he talk to anybody about it? Does he just internalize it and let it eat him up inside?
honestly steve deserved to be a little meaner in civil war
“steve you have to sign the accords”
“oh right i totally should sign my rights away to a government who i exposed to have been infiltrated by nazis for DECADES. i’m sure nothing bad will happen if i do that”
“i should let the government dictate my life when all i’ve ever done is save the world by going AGAINST the government. sounds like a great plan”
like t0ny stans love to say he was being horribly selfish and mean in civil war, which he… wasn’t, but i think he should have been