Is The Version I Love The One I Made Up In My Head, Or Maybe The One You Showed Me For A Bit? Sometimes

Drowned head to toe, Left breathless, but still filled with it. It’s like the feeling I have towards you, Slowly, gradually, consuming the cells, consuming the air.. Used to the pull, Didn't try to swim away, Until I forgot I was drowning. My mind floats high, My soul drifts weightless, Until suddenly— The water disappears. Was it ever here? It’s your hands, Reaching through the surface. Maybe I was never really drowning, Maybe it was always you I was submerged in, And yet my hands choose yours, As a way to survive this.

Everyone in your life will have a last day with you, and you don't even know when it'll be.

It’s funny how some friends acting like a crazy ex is worse than having an actual ex

My mind is full of you.

I’ve had thousands of conversations with you in my mind, loving the version of you that no longer exists. In these conversations, you’re still the person I once knew—warm, caring, and easy to talk to. We talk about things we never got the chance to say out loud, and somehow, everything feels right again. In this other world, we exist in a space where time doesn’t change us. It's a place where the version of you I love is still alive, untouched by the passing of time or the distance between us.

You're Safe

It's just thoughts.

I realize this love isn't a fleeting thought, but something that only grows stronger with each passing day. It's not just a feeling—it's a commitment, one that has no end in sight. No matter how much time passes, day by day, I fall for you anew.

I'm either empty or completely in love with you.

Not valuing human connections & relationships isn’t a flex—it’s somehow a lack of humanity itself

احلم بأني أحببتك وأننا عشنا من التعثرات سويا ما ثبت قدمينا ارضا جنبا إلى جنب ،

أحلم بعيناي مفتوحتان وما أن انتهى الحلم أغمضتهما لأستيقظ بأرض أخرى تميل قدماي عن سِواها وكأن ثقل مشاعري ليس بكافيا لاثبت فوقها،

ولمَ الثقل ؟ تراني حملت قلبينا معا في طريقي إلى هذا العالم ؟

لقد كنا دوما كالفراش خفة حتى ظن قلبي يقينا أنني واحدة ، اليوم أنا بشر يتعثر بطريق في ارض لم يرها قبلا ،

أم انه واقعنا الذي حُجب - بيديك - عن روحي؟

احتاج سحرا كقصتنا لأمضي به ، ولكنني أقلب الدفاتر والاوراق سنينا ولم يشبه حرفا واحدا منها لحظة منّا،

لم تنبهر عيناي بمشهد ما ان لم يكن عيناك ، ولازال عقلي حائرا كيف رآك حيا هنا إن كنت حلما لم يكتب له النزول للواقع يوما...

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