No but I hot chocolate fudging HATE when I'm upset with my marks in some exam and then someone else is like, "Oh my gods that's not bad I got * insert even trashier score here*!" and then I have to assure them that their marks are good (even tho I probs do not think they are good) when all I want to do is dig a hole, crawl into it and eat ice cream in there until I die.
I AM SOBBING ๐ญ๐ญ THIS BOOK
In my mind palace/alternate history to the alternate history, Robin goes home with Ramy.
He travels with him all the way to India just to meet his family, to enjoy their hospitality, and to explore Ramy's home through his eyes. It is joy, because they never imagined that this luxury would be afforded them. Freedom. Solitude together.
Escape from Oxford doesn't exactly change their relationship, but it somehow magnifies it. For all that they know about each other, there are parts they can never quite see clearly, living in a city where Ramy is always performing, and Robin is always hiding.
Mischief, stubbornness, native tongues, old songs, memories, irreverence, childhood passions they laugh to remember, it all bubbles to the surface.
It is the first time Robin understands the word home in a very long time. The lightning and thunder between them rumbles. It transforms. It explodes into fireworks that Robin can hold in his hands, for just a moment.
In a quiet moment under a banyan tree, Robin scoots close to Ramy and says softly, without looking at him, "If I ever lost you, I don't think I could go on".
Ramy says gently, fondly, "There's no need to be morose, Birdie, we are young and free, which means that we are immortal," and he slings his arm around Robin's shoulders.
Robin wiggles closer, against his warmth, and insists that he means it. He can't say what he means, but inside he knows that he has lost so much, he truly thinks that his soul is too damaged, he wouldn't be able to weather it. Ramy is the embodiment of love, the very definition. He is home. He doesn't say it, though. He sits tongue tied. Ramy was always the brave one, not him.
Ramy looks at him quizzically for a moment. Then he promises with a gallant grin that even if he ever dies, he won't leave. He will haunt Robin in his dreams. They laugh, and somehow Robin is reassured. And then after a moment of peaceful silence, Ramy leans over and kisses him.
Brave Ramy.
Beautiful Ramy.
It is Robin's first kiss. Ramy's too. It doesn't matter that it is wobbly and awkward. It is soft and warm and it is love.
Today in History: December 14. The Bush shoeing incident
people have gotten frustrated at how the show has softened kazโs character. heโs not *quite* as ruthless and stone-cold as he appears in the book, but the audience also canโt hear his internal monologue thatโs just him loving inej 5000% of the time with a bit of revenge and kruge sprinkled in
itโs kind of impossible to translate book kaz with his level of emotional depth while keeping the disparity between his internal/external character intact
โ Weaponry
โ Hypnosis cues
โ Causes of death
โ Poisons
โ Paraphilias
โ Diseases
โ Chest injuries
โ Broken bones
โ Torture methods
โ Genetic conditions (common)
โ Illnesses and disorders (common)
โ General worldbuilding (...systematic abuse? ๐)
โ Types of therapy
โ Manipulation tactics [potential ableism tw]
โ Types of abuse
โ Trauma disorders
โฏโฏ เญจโกเญง โฏโฏ
Lainey Molnar
I relate to Dorian Havilliard because I too love books and Manon Blackbeak
forever thinking about these
This is a picture of my friend Becky. She used to be a happy, popular girl until one night she snorted marijuana at a party. She died instantly. Please, donโt do marijuana. Itโs the most dangerous drug out there. Please donโt wind up like Becky.
KAZZLE DAZZLE: The fandom nickname for Kaz Brekker, due to his sparkling personality.