you’re a stupid girl who is bad at life, so i control everything in it and make all of your decisions for you. you appreciate it and happily do exactly as you’re told, always.
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i’m falling back into it again. i just feel like i’m missing out on so many good things, i’ll never get the high school experience again. why do they make it so hard me ? or maybe i’m not trying hard enough .
The Cat has its Heart on the Outside
Available as a fanzine in Swedish with a translation note here.
Darling isnt it wonderful that we have met each other?! Am I not what Youve always wanted?!! I will always care about You! Ill always love You!! Youre always my priority!! Cant You see Im perfect for You?! You dont want anybody else right?? You cant belong to anyone else!! Cant You see? Nobody will ever love You as much as I do! Im the one who gives You happiness am I not? Say it. Say Im the only one You want.
Youre aware its hard for me to function when Youre away.. Even breathing becomes a task,, I constantly fear that You might leave.. I dont want us to be apart,, ever. Sometimes I worry You dont understand how much I actually need You in my life.. Without You I wouldnt exist.. Please,, just love me like You havent loved anyone before.. I need to be important to You.. Im the only one who treats You well,, right? Am I a good boyfriend? Please say yes.. Please be mine forever..
I will make sure that Im the only one You have eyes for.
i wish so deeply for someone to love me. for once, someone to love me with my best interests in mind, the same way i have been selflessly loving others my whole life. love me like a person, not a concept. love me like a person, not a toy. love me like a person, not a distraction. love me like a person, not a buffer for the in-between. love me like i love them. with all their heart.
you told me you needed space. soon enough, you'll realize how much you need me, darling.
♡ 19 | vent blog | tw suicide, obsessive love, stalking, gore | diagnosed bpd she/her
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