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weird that blue lock fans think Shidou is the dumb one in the relationship and Sae is the smart one.

Because I'm pretty sure Shidou is a sensitive intellectual who likes art and philosophy and thinks deeply about everything.

Whereas there's literally nothing in Sae's head except a soccer ball, bouncing around the empty space.

When it hits a corner, he experiences a thought.

When talking abt Rin’s and Saes meeting after four years, I don’t see a lot of people talk about what Sae said to Rin about Spain

Sae changed his dream to being the best midfielder, him being the first to use the comment that he was “half-baked” and that Rin didn’t understand what it was like beyond Japan.

Sae is made out to be bitter and cold to Rin, and I agree that what he said to Rin was harsh, it’s clear from the flashbacks that Sae is very protective of Rin, so it wouldn’t make sense for him to switch on a dime.

Sae doesn’t want Rin to have the same dream as him, even saying in response that he should quit if his passion for soccer was reliant on Sae and him being the best.

The impression I got from Sae is that he doesn’t want Rin to follow his path, to live in his shadow because something happened in Spain that changed Sae and he doesn’t want that for Rin. Sae is saying not to follow him, to make his own path, that the one he’s on isn’t one he wants for his brother.

(Think of Itachi to Sasuke it feels like the exact same doomed sibling dynamic)

Sae is pushing Rin away, pushing away his soccer dream bc he doesn’t want him to do it for Sae, to do it in his shadow, because the path he followed isn’t one he should see.

And when we think about why Sae teamed up with Shidou and not Rin, the simplest way I can put it is it’s bc Shidou matched Saes freak. Shidou, for reasons we don’t know yet, is just as fucked as Sae (TRUST, they r the same freak different font)

Anyways….Sae isn’t a complete asshole, I mean yeah, he’s said some rough things to Rin but I think ppl r focusing on the wrong things in the reunion of the two brothers

Either way tho doomed siblings r gonna ruin me

According to the government, I don't exist

"Those government bastards may tell you that your existence is a crime. But no matter how dangerous you may be, just being alive, just being who you are is never wrong. What you do is your choice, there's no right or wrong in who you are." Franky, One Piece

The government may not see us, but we see ourselves, we see each other <3

It’s so strange

I can never fully express what it’s like living with a tbi and the recovery, nothing ever sounds right, all the words feel wrong.

It’s like I’m transcribing a language dead and gone, all the words I have to say you don’t understand, you don’t have the words for what I felt, you don’t have any conjugations or phrases that equate to my grief. so I’m just left saying,

“It was bad”

My friend making their fursona:

Yeah I was thinking of just calling him dog, ya know? It’s cute and funny and it matches his silly little face and paws 🤗

Me:

They will be called The False Prophet for they are a fallen angel that has been banished into damnation for deceiving god and not trusting his wishes. I will dress in sacrilegious attire with horns and a torn back to showcase where my wings had been ripped.

Hey gang, I learned this cool fact so you don’t have to:

If you have POTs and you’re getting a filling or anything that requires a local anesthetic— ask them if it contains epinephrine

Epinephrine, ie—adrenaline—DOES NOT MIX WITH POTS

It’s not common knowledge for most dentists and doctors so give them a heads up so you can get an alternative

Bc the result is the worst POTs flare ever….trust me

My bpm went from 95 to 165 after the injection and it was NOT a cool, chill time

In conclusion:

POTs + epinephrine = NOT A FUN TIME

I'm not trying to read into things that aren't there

BUT,

House md playing Delicate by Damien Rice at the end of s2 ep3 where its a slow pan outwards of House looking contemplative out a rainy window and Wilson looking at him with longing eyes while you hear the lines:

"We might kiss, when we are alone,

Nobody's watching, we might take it home"

not trying to overanalyze but this did in fact drive me insane and I fear I will never recover for the look in Wilsons eyes was devasting and filled with love

People see me with my cane and compare me to Viktor when they really should be comparing me to House.

I’m just as insufferable and even more mentally ill

And unlike Viktor, I don’t regret my attempts of ascending into godhood, I actually embrace my grandiose thoughts and ideas with open arms.

And more than that— the homoerotic relationship I have with my rival/partner will NEVER be gentle nor healthy

Arcane has had me thinking about this dynamic of what I'd call "found siblings" or something like that.

The trope of "like brothers" or "like sisters" I feel is often translated wrong, or ends up becoming more romantic than inteneded is what I think is the neglect of the tie that makes siblings, siblings.

siblings are tied together by a large, fundamental simualrity that forever will tie them together, regardless of what life brigns them. Sharing the same parents intertwines two indivudals, as well as growing up in the same home, regardless of if you are related or not. This tie is a shared expeircne that shapes a persons deveolpmental years.

Also, what always makes me laugh a bit when I hear the line "they're like my brother/sister" or "We're like siblings" is the fact that most of the time, they NEVER act like siblings.

If you want to have to characters have this "found sibling" relationship, they need to be able to express anger, frustration, and a childish annoyance at the other. Siblings know that regarldess of how much they can be angry and hold a form of hatred for the other, at the end of the day, that person has been in their life so long that there are some things that that person will only understand. It's being close because this person knows too much about you, it's sometimes a resigned love. It's not talking to this person for weeks or months but still knowing every intimate and embarassing detail about how this person's tween years.

Now, I'm speaking from a biased standpoint, I'm not close with my sibling in the way in which we talk with one another every day and are best pals or something. But, they're someone I can call at the end of the day when I need help. We won't talk for a month but if I'm stuck in the ER again because of my chronic health condtion, they'll hang out with me the entire time just so i don't feel lonely.

To write characters that percive one another as siblings, they need to be characters that will always help the other out at the end of the day. They can hate one another, but still come when called. They argue, maybe they don't see each other for months because life just got in the way, but when they see one another, they go back to bickering like six year olds. Sibling dynamics are held together by the fact that they know far too much about each other to stop being friends without it being a liability.

Overall, I feel like what creates a great sibling dynamic is the resigned love both characters hold for eachother. It's an eyeroll and a sigh while reaching out a helping hand. It's disagreeing with all of their choices, but reluctantly saying yes to helping them anyway because at the end of the day, you know them too well, you've seen them at their worst and walking away just isn't an option.

I cannot relate to people who dislike female characters for “being manipulative.” She’s literally creative problem solving before your eyes. She’s literally just using her words. Maybe the other blorbos should be less pawn-like for her beautiful hands hmm

The fact that Viktor, a scientist, tested every possibility in the universe and found that it was only Jayce who could save him. The man who saved his life and set it on the path to destruction. The man that Viktor both saved and damned.

They are the self-replicating and self-annihilating singularity.

I like to think that Jayce and Viktor where just flung into another timeline and in that timeline they get to live out their domestic, inventors in love dream where nothing bad happens and everyone is happy

Born to write fanfiction and scholarly articles

Forced to focus on only one at a time

*Sobs realizing that zolu fanfiction isn't getting me a masters degree*

"you can't ship those characters they tried to kill each other!" sounds like someone can't appreciate the inherent eroticism of violence 🙄

I want this tattooed on my brain NOW

“Those two things can exist at the same time. Like you said, it's all—it's all tangled up together, you and me.”

double page spread for one of my favorite luzo fics of all time, poly philtatos (the most beloved by far) by my good friend - @swordsmans!

I knew I wanted to do a double page spread the second I finished this fic and I drafted abt a dozen ideas before landing on what would ultimately become this. There were so many snippets and moments I wanted to illustrate but I ended up doing more of an abstracted version of the fic as opposed to 1:1 drawings of scenes 

funnily enough while the fic itself is told in zoros pov this spread is framed mostly through luffy’s eyes - his tears literally frame comp for their reunion, the moment he loses zoro, and the centerpiece of the first page which is this weird abstraction of him on the beach seeing zoros corpse-not-a-corpse in the waves just beyond his reach. 

gyro put the crane wives’ never love an anchor on the playlist for this fic which i heavily used as inspiration in picking ornamental things for the spread (the anchor, the fleet of ships by luffy, and the nautical rope splitting the second page). also just like. overall really heartbreaking lyrics guys 

there are smaller elements throughout the spread that are 1:1 references though (all i will say for these is if you know, you know hehe) i wish i had more time to do a lengthier piece for fanart for this fic bc it's one of the few luzo fics that have been rattling around in my brain forever now - once again please please please read poly philtatos if you haven't. gyro is a masterful writer and they deserve all the love! ok byeee

the worms in my brain won today, here's a sukume sketch based on this reference photo

zoro is so funny cause he's all like 'i'll stand 10 toes down on my self philosophy that no gods exist' and is the epitome of the opposite of a pious man then luffy barges into his life and suddenly worship is all he knows

Glad Sanji isn’t real bc they wouldn’t be able to handle seeing I Saw The Tv Glow without at least 4 mental breakdowns

Having pots is crazy bc I’ll be sitting in the ER with a bpm of 160, just chilling, occasionally slumping over and losing control of motor skills but then going right back to joking—

MEANWHILE the nurses look at me like

When I said I needed pots, THIS WASN’T WHAT I MEANT

Martingale by Searows just scratches my Zolu brain bc all I can think abt is Zoro yearning over Luffy when I hear these lyrics

I am starting to resent myself

I’m watching you across the room

And I am powerless to stop myself

From slowly turning into you

There’s a satellite above my house

I think it watches over me

If it could know me from the inside out

You’d be the only thing it sees

I love to headcanon that with modern zolu, Luffy is always filming, they give me late 90s early 2000s home video vibes. From birthdays, vacations, home renovations, holidays—to when Luffy just thinks Zoro looks pretty—he’s gonna film it.

hi guys, can I ask what's your current favorite zolu headcanon?

Something I have noticed is that so often in media and in real life, is that we push around this narrative that having a “dark side” or being someone who “you don’t wanna see mad” is a good thing.

If you have a “dark side” you’re dangerous, someone who could hurt others and be cruel, and that makes you strong. That being good in a fight, having the ability to be scary when your angry, those are things that push authority.

I don’t get it.

Why must being benign be seen as a weakness?

Being harmless does not make you fragile.

Violence and strength have been so interwoven to the point people mistake one for the other.

Being violent does not make you strong, and being strong does not mean you have to be violent.

One of the greatest ways to show strength not in a character but in life in general is to choose forgiveness (seriously, like watch ATLA and see how Aang shows great strength by forgiving others instead of lashing out).

Anger is a valid and real emotion that you are allowed to express, but it is not one that should be wielded as a weapon. Anger is a secondary emotion, morphed from pain and sorrow.

Anger is like fire. It’s okay to light a fire, as long as it is safe and contained. You can keep a fire in a fire pit going for as long as you want, just don’t burn a forest.

Do not fear your anger and do not use it to strike fear in others. Being kind does not make you weak, being forgiving does not make you soft.

Generosity, honesty, fragility with your emotions—these can bring you strength. To be open with who you are and how you feel is a tremendous feat.

It takes courage to cry, to ask for help, to forgive.

Know that being loving is not a weakness, understand that forgiveness takes strength.

It’s easy to kill a fly, but it takes effort to capture it and bring it home.

Couldn't fight the lesbian urge to draw Boa Hancock fawning over a a random OC

The marineford arc can easily be summed up as

“Oh, Ace is THE losing dog, and he’s got too many ppl betting on him right now….”

Timeskip Togachako because I needed to put them TOGETHER 🩸🪐

booger boys

Long hair zoro to insta request

cannot believe that back in Alabasta when they were wondering around in the desert Zoro told Chopper that a new purpose had emerged for him but he wasn’t really sure how to explain it whilst staring at Luffy. and i’m just expected to be normal about that.