The Urge To Die And Become Nothing Becomes Stronger Every Day

I’ll always be the ugly friend, the friend that nobody ever finds attractive, the insecure friend, the depressed friend, the friend with social anxiety, the dumb friend, the always left out friend, the useless friend.

Yk it’s getting really bad when you want to get worse than before.

they said it’d get better, it’s been years and it’s still the same

please just make it stop

I should've stayed quiet.

fuck. suicidal and in a bad place again

god i want to end it all so bad

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

Stop acting like you know me.

I hate living, but i don't wanna die because something is holding me back, but i don't know what it is and it's killing me.