mari-0910
"You loved so deeply that even in moments of doubt, pain, uncertainty, all you thought about were others, not as much as giving yourself a second glance."
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Apparently this needs to be said so
Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!
You're not a bad person if you...
forget things quickly
forget people
can't remember entire stages of your life
can't remember important things
can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time
can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests
forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc
forget to reply to texts
remember things and immediately forget them again
can't remember birthdays, events, etc
frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions
can't retain new information
forget things you used to know
only remember things when it's too late
have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories
depend on others to know how an event you were in played out
have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa
... and anything else I might have missed!
unfortunately, I'm very much still alive and kicking.
Is it possible to feel so lonely despite being around people?
Mental health getting so bad, I'm self sabotaging and ending all of my remaining friendships.
- I Guess the Old You is a Ghost (#589: June 25, 2014)
The feeling of emptiness when you're with people.
The gut wrenching feeling when people are happy.
The feeling when people ask the heart pounding question "Are you okay?".
The feeling someone is looking at you even at your own home.
The feeling when someone ask what's wrong with you.
The feeling of waking up.
The feeling you'll never recover.
i need to (remembers that suicide jokes only hurt yourself and those around you) fag it up
I really want to end it all right now, its so damn tiring. What's the point in living anyways? I can't even bring myself to seek help anymore, why bother asking for help? I should just end it all, why i am hesitating? I am already tired, i don't see myself getting better either.
having access to things that can kill me is so comforting
Living just keeps getting harder by the day, I don't know if i can keep going like this. I hate going to school. The way people look at me is so suffocating. The way people talk about me. Why do i have to suffer like this? Is liking someone a crime now? Just because i liked a guy? School isn't fair, they only got off with a warning. I can't even bring myself to look at people anymore, i feel like i am the one at fault, and not the victim with the way people look at me.
I hate highschool.
I thought that everything was going great and i was getting better, then everything started to go downhill again.
why is my mind trying to kill me
its a genuine illness to be living and simultaneously battling the other half of myself from self destructing
will someone end my life PLEASE
I don’t want to be another mistake in someones live.
the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day
they said it’d get better, it’s been years and it’s still the same
I wanna kms already
I need to keep telling myself it’s not normal to look at sharp objects and wonder how it would feel to cut my skin open with them
I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.
I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.
fuck. suicidal and in a bad place again
fighting the urge to skip my classes and relapse in the bathroom
I’ll always be the ugly friend, the friend that nobody ever finds attractive, the insecure friend, the depressed friend, the friend with social anxiety, the dumb friend, the always left out friend, the useless friend.
anxiety has taken away all my happiness.
Can someone take one for the team and shoot me in the fucking head thanks
I can’t wait to sleep 6 feet under, that will be peaceful
Stop acting like you know me.
Yk it’s getting really bad when you want to get worse than before.
begging god to tell me why he made me this way
im just so fucking tired
i dont wanna do this anymore