I Really Want To End It All Right Now, Its So Damn Tiring. What's The Point In Living Anyways? I Can't

Hating yourself is so draining.

why is my mind trying to kill me

its a genuine illness to be living and simultaneously battling the other half of myself from self destructing

“Where do you see yourself in the future”

Bb I don’t. I do not. I do not see myself. There is no future.

begging god to tell me why he made me this way

I thought that everything was going great and i was getting better, then everything started to go downhill again.

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

Living just keeps getting harder by the day, I don't know if i can keep going like this. I hate going to school. The way people look at me is so suffocating. The way people talk about me. Why do i have to suffer like this? Is liking someone a crime now? Just because i liked a guy? School isn't fair, they only got off with a warning. I can't even bring myself to look at people anymore, i feel like i am the one at fault, and not the victim with the way people look at me.

I hate highschool.

please just make it stop