“Where Do You See Yourself In The Future”

The fact that you're feeling sick but your mother still forces you to go to school because it's friday

“Omg, I’m finally healing”

(It’s been one second without my mind self sabotaging and I’ll have one of those thoughts within the next second)

It’s crazy to me that there are people out there who never thought about killing themselves even once where as I think about it 24/7 every single day

Stop acting like you know everything about me.

fuck. suicidal and in a bad place again

I wanna cry, but i am at school what do i do?

The feeling of emptiness when you're with people.

The gut wrenching feeling when people are happy.

The feeling when people ask the heart pounding question "Are you okay?".

The feeling someone is looking at you even at your own home.

The feeling when someone ask what's wrong with you.

The feeling of waking up.

The feeling you'll never recover.

Living just keeps getting harder by the day, I don't know if i can keep going like this. I hate going to school. The way people look at me is so suffocating. The way people talk about me. Why do i have to suffer like this? Is liking someone a crime now? Just because i liked a guy? School isn't fair, they only got off with a warning. I can't even bring myself to look at people anymore, i feel like i am the one at fault, and not the victim with the way people look at me.

I hate highschool.

When will this misery end?