Just Learned About Dopamine Decor And I Feel Crazy

my top hobbies are shame and embarrassment but i also occasionally dabble in envy

the curse is lifted! you are no a beast no more! congratulations! but you'll never forget the way they looked at you, will you.

on some level i am proud of me now but all the youngest versions of me are not. it’s okay though because they don’t know what we went through

i found out im a mid bitch with terrible vibes

solo

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Ah yes, time to return to a singular moment from the past, standing like a boulder at the edge of my memory shore

Assuredly I will be able to revisit it always. What could possibly do away with so solid a thing as this? The gentle lapping of the sea of time?

things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

girl you have to stop mythologizing that one really good few months

has tumblr heard about the saga of raefarty yet