Mikayuumouse - Mikayuumouse

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I have "fanfic writer" in my desc but I don't even post about my works oml 😭

Anyways here's an old sskk two part oneshot I wrote;

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60111337

It was where Atsushi and Akutagawa were sent on a "mission" by Dazai to a nightclub and then romanticisms happen (because of course they do). it's a smut/fluff

Pat the catboy 🐅

@mi1ikan Bsd analysations are scary but also amazing

Doing my usual "lets go back and read random BSD chapters" and I can't help but notice how different Fyodor is now to when he was first introduced.

I've made a few posts pointing out how Fyodor and Dazai have similar panels, but I'm starting to think he's actually mimicking Dazai's mannerisms on purpose now.

I don't have a lot of canon proof other than, ~a feeling~, I get looking at him, so consider this a headcanon rather than a theory.

Warning Manga spoilers under the cut!

Like, Fyodor, why does this keep happening??? Fyodor's versions of these poses also all happen later in the manga than Dazai's versions.

Now, there's the argument that Fyodor wasn't there for half of these, but we do know he's a hacker and he was obsessed with Dazai for a time. I do believe he would just sit there watching Dazai's movements on cameras to learn his patterns and habits in the name of defeating him.

Compare how he holds himself now, to how he did when he was first introduced.

He's a shut in who bites his nails, doesn't take care of his posture or appearance. He's so used to being behind the curtains he's off putting to be directly around.

Whereas Dazai is a chameleon, he blends in anywhere he goes. If I was an immortal so out of touch with my own humanity and basic identity, I probably pick someone to mimic their behaviours too.

Ironic that he choose the man who doesn't consider himself human to learn from.

I'm also drawn to this panel specifically.

(Very suspicious choice of words there, considering the current manga arc, but I digress)

Typically when we think of vampires, we think of blood sucking immortals, but the vampire we have in BSD is based of Dracula. Dracula specifically poses the question of "What if vampires stole who you are as well?". The idea that you can't consume someone's very life without having their soul linger on with you.

The Count learns to blend in with modern society through Johnathan, from learning from him and by feeding off him. Mina, Renfield and Lucy all slowly lose who they are the more influence the Count has over them.

This panel says he's soulless, he's 'empty', he's a vampire waiting to steal someone else's soul to fill him up. Now, that could be a hint at what his ability turned out to be, but it could also mean how he's mimicking Dazai.

But why mimic Dazai?

Well, simply put, he was the only one Fyodor saw as an equal and we know he wanted a companion who he considered to be his equal. So why not make himself more like the man he wants at his side. To obtain Dazai, he became Dazai.

Problem is Dazai hates himself, he also seems to dislike any character that's convinced they are the same. (Note: Not characters Dazai sees himself in, like Atsushi, but characters who insist to him that they are the same, like Mori and Fyodor)

It was a doomed plot from the start.

However, Dazai is no longer his goal. Atsushi is. Fyodor knows Atsushi greatly admires Dazai, so continuing to mimic Dazai's mannerisms to connect them together in Atsushi's mind could be part of his plan now.

And if Harukawa is still following her “the characters get drawn more beautiful and human the more they understand each other” comment we are about to see an Akutagawa like never before

slut! - taylor swift

List of songs by Taylor Swift that fit Bsd characters and relationships bc why not;

Fyolai - I Can Do It With a Broken Heart

Fyodor - Dear Reader

Dazai or Ranpo - Mastermind

Soukoku - All You Had To Do Was Stay

Shin Soukoku - invisible string

Shin Soukoku - Enchanted

Shin Soukoku - Treacherous

Shin Soukoku - Midnight Rain

Yosano - mad woman

Chuuya - Who's Afraid of Little Old Me?

Shin Soukoku - Haunted

Shin Soukoku - Ours

Soukoku - happiness

Soukoku - Cornelia Street

Soukoku - I Knew You Were Trouble

Shin Soukoku - Sparks Fly

Shin Soukoku - Timeless

Dazai - Antihero

Akutagawa - Breathe

Soukoku - I Almost Do

Shin Soukoku - Back to December

Ranpoe - But Daddy I Love Him

Dazai - Clean

Shin Soukoku - Come Back...Be Here

Atsushi - Clara Bow

Shin Soukoku - Call It What You Want

Shin Soukoku - Delicate

Atsushi - The Archer

Soukoku - Death By a Thousand Cuts

Kyouka - Daylight

Tachihara - epiphany

Shin Soukoku - I'm Only Me When I'm With You

Soukoku - Forever Winter

Soukoku - Fifteen

Soukoku - Hits Different

Soukoku - High Infidelity

Soukoku - Getaway Car

Akutagawa - mirrorball

Soukoku - Gorgeous

Shin Soukoku - Lover

Gin - Soon You'll Get Better

Shin Soukoku - Glitch

Soukoku - I Bet You Think About Me

Atsushi - I Hate It Here

Shin Soukoku or Soukoku - I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)

Sigma - my tears ricochet

Shin Soukoku - If This Was a Movie

Akutagawa - I Forgot That You Existed

Kyouka, Atsushi or Yosano - Innocent

Soukoku - Is It Over Now?

Shin Soukoku - Jump Then Fall

Soukoku - King of My Heart

The Armed Detective Agency - Long Live

Shin Soukoku - Last Kiss

Shin Soukoku - Love Story

Atsushi - Mean

Dazai - marjorie

Kyouka - Never Grow Up

Shin Soukoku - Our Song

Ranpoe - Paper Rings

Soukoku - Style

Atsushi - seven

Shin Soukoku - "Slut!"

Shin Soukoku - Sweet Nothing

Soukoku - Sad Beautiful Tragic

Soukoku - Say Don't Go

Shin Soukoku - This Love

Ranpoe - the lakes

Fyolai - tolerate it

Atsushi - Tied Together With a Smile

Soukoku - The Story of Us

Soukoku - The Way I Loved You

Shin Soukoku - Untouchable

Soukoku - Wonderland

Yosano - Would've Could've Should've

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Well that ended up longer than I expected. And I'm probably forgetting some lmao

my favorites pics of 'the eras tour' ♡

Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me

I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still

Look! They're in love