Alt Colours And Sketch From My Last Post Bc I Low Key Like Them Better Haaa

Magazine covers for an Akutagawa model AU I'm working on...

restricting palestinian accounts is horrifying. you can't find their blogs unless you go directly to their url because tumblr search won't even show it. their posts will be hidden in tags. you won't be able to see their interactions in your notes (including asks, likes, reblogs). they won't be able to message people altogether. it's so incredibly insidious to palestinians on this site who heavily rely on asks and dm's to spread their fundraisers and contact people.

if you haven't seen a palestinian that you follow on your dash check to see if they've been restricted or terminated.

one thing that 122 has highlighted to me is that sskk's lack of understanding is the only thing that hindered them until now.

akutagawa sought to understand atsushi, but was still caught up with his own reason to live and could not comprehend a world where somebody else had a deadly ability but could be treated so kindly. once he understood atsushi, and understood the reasons he wished to fight or go on missions, he trusted him with rashomon and even sacrificed himself to ensure the 'better' man went ahead.

whereas atsushi, up until 122, meets akutagawa and focuses on why. why was akutagawa always like this. why is it always dazai that akutagawa focuses on. why does akutagawa even help atsushi. why did he save atsushi. it's never clicked in his mind that all of these things could be linked - or even, that akutagawa is just as human as atsushi is.

now the puzzle is complete in atsushi's mind, he understands. he knows the answers to why akutagawa has done all of the things that he did, and he knows why he and akutagawa are meant to work together. he gets it. he understands.

so. guys. that new bsd chapter???? how we feeling??? we alright??

(insert deep breath)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ATSUSHIS FACE. hes so fucking conflicted he wants him gone but still thats practically his FATHER. ohhh shoot me 87 times instead that would HURT LESS. his eyes being scribbles make it worse harukawa you are EVILL

i love the combination of the titles. dont even i love it so bad the chapter titles were pieces of the full sentence..... ajdflgjkg im Going Insane. this isnt okay im not okay im going to crash out so hard

oh.

oh.

this is insane. do you all know how insane this is. whos face, (or words) come to mind instead?? instead of the mentor akutagawa has despised yet idolised for half his life?

SHUT UP. SHUUUUTTTT UP.

SHIN SOUKOKU FANS WE ARE BEING FED. WE ARE FEASTING. these past chapters have been SPOILING US.

akutagawas reason to live, to keep going, its atsushi.

do yall know how absolutely insane this is. im tweaking out So Hard like this is INSANE. SHIN SOUKOKU WE ARE SO BACK. WE HAVE ALWAYS BEEN BACK. IM CRASHING OUT TWEAKING SHIN SOUKOKUUUU

THE FUCKING MOMENTS. THE FUCKIGGN MOMENTS WITH THEM FIGHTING ASAGIRI AND HARUKAWA WHAT HAVEE YOU DONEEE. guys atp stop writing the fics canon is all we need 😭

the fucking QUOTES atsushi said to him??? about true strength???? might as well have chucked a brick at me.

im so insane this chapter isnt okay

THE LIGHT COMING BACK INTO HIS EYES????? AT THE MEMORY OF ATSUSHI????????? THIS ISTHE MOST QUEER THING EVER SHIN SOUKOKU YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

no but do yall know how wild this is. him getting that "light" in his eyes because of atsushi. do YALL KNOW. his eyes being dark for most of the manga (showing how dark his soul is) BUT THIS. THIS IS THE BRIGHTEST THEYVE EVER BEEN. and its at the thought of saving ATSUSHI. HIS RIVAL MORTAL ENEMY. no this is wild actually

harukawa my lord and saviour i love you.

HIS REASON TO KEEP FIGHTING. HIS REASON TO KEEP GOING. hes LITERALLY fighting god to get atsushi back. literally fighting something practically unkillable to get his jinko. asagiri i fear this is the hardest you have ever cooked. shin soukoku this is the queerest you've ever been. we are winning so hard. my brain is a jumbled mess of shin soukoku i cant go live my life when this is happening.

NEW CHARACTER EVERYONE CHEERED

they look so cool im genuinely so hyped for them. bsd is getting insane i Swear. im actually so fucking excited for what happens next i feel all electric and tingly

genuinely this chapter was insane. im going to go mentally scream in my head all day and not think of anything except sskk now. goodbye

when i see people express sentiments like this, my thought is pretty much “who exactly are you trying to prove a point to?” the democrats? if trump gets elected, they’re going to be completely sidelined if not worse and will be entirely focused on trying to get back in power and i can tell you they will NOT be moving further left. netanyahu? it’s a BETTER outcome for him if trump wins since trump is SIGNIFICANTLY more pro-israel than biden has ever been. the people in gaza? they need a ceasefire which has been rejected by both the israel and the hamas sides multiple times and a trump win WILL NOT make that a stronger possibility.

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These people are trying to take over every aspect of our lives.

it is truly truly amazing to me how many people will flip on a dime when one of their friends or someone they like is accused of SA and they immediately, after swearing to stand by and believe victims, change their language to “if this is confirmed to be true” or “we don’t know enough” or “this seems like it’s wrong because the alleged perpetrator said it wasn’t true.” you can go ahead and fuck yourself. this neil gaiman and cody ko shit has reminded me how much some of you virtue signal when it’s convenient and then as soon as someone you don’t even know personally, but have a parasocial relationship with gets put in the hot seat it’s all “he wouldn’t do this” he’s famous man, yes he would.

Urgent update my little brother is dying 😭

Today we took our little brother to the hospital because he suffers from an infection that affects his breathing and causes him pain. I hope that every living conscience will help us save our young son’s life and donate any amount you can.

Unfortunately, there is no treatment in the hospital for my little. Help us before it is too late.

For those of you who may not be too familiar with the manga, during ch39: Portrait of a Father, Akutagawa shows up, as Dazai's informant, to give Atsushi documents about who the orphanage headmaster was and what happened to him.

At that moment, Akutagawa shows an uncharacteristic clemency towards Atsushi, saying that "Atsushi's master died today", and compares this to his own relationship with Dazai.

This was a long time ago now, and a lot has happened since. The Cannibalism arc is right after this, where they are very antagonistic towards each other, and includes this scene:

Akutagawa, despite his bitterness towards Atsushi for who he is to Dazai, has seen how similar they are in this sense. Atsushi hasn't, because his gratefulness towards Dazai prevents him from seeing that Akutagawa's experience was completely different with this same person. (he's also not given any time by the narrative to wonder about it)

but then just came along chapter 122!!!

Atsushi gets to see, 1:1, the relationship between Akutagawa and Dazai. For the first time, Akutagawa is relatable to him.

And of course, at the end, Atsushi calls out the illusion as being the headmaster wearing Dazai's face because we are closing this loop! We are forcing Atsushi to see Akutagawa the same way Akutagawa has been seeing him!