Just A 23 Year Writing To Stay Relevant, discovering the meme-ing of life along the way - Let's Not Talk Anymore 🌻
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(my favorite) ways to say i love you
you’re really something, aren’t you
come here
sit next to me?
you’re my favorite
i was just thinking about you
i notice you all the time
here, i made this for you
this song reminds me of you
if you do it, i’ll do it
i miss you so much
i wish i had known you sooner
you’re warm
Riley Samels on Instagram / Etsy
You make the simplest things magnanimous.
A small acknowledgement from you
Feels like seeing my name written in the sky,
A smile from you,
is a salve for my wounded heart.
A minute spent with you
feels like a lifetime,
Even holding your hand
feels like having you in bed.
I wish you could feel
how you make me feel.
I wish you could experience
the volumes of ecstacy you give me
So you would know what a privilage it is
to be loved by you.
Me irl
I walk down memory lane because
I love running into you
Rose tinted memories come flooding in
And I have you back for a few
Its hard to think
That not everything is cataclysmic
That the universe didn't plan for us
When all the pieces seemed to have fallen into place
Wrong person right timing?
Maybe next time around
When you're brought into my orbit
Ill have new moons and might finally know my place in this galaxy
But will our gravity be enough to make you stay
3 years ago I wasn't enough
3 hours ago I was too much
And what a shame
I had already imagined us
I dont know if I loved you, or the space you filled
In my bed, in my head, in my heart
And I can still see it
Concerts in your boxers and rooftop philosophies
I loved the thought of being with you
Or maybe it was the thought of not being on my own anymore
Alone
In my bed, in my head, in my heart
How do I ask the universe for anything other than you?
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IMBIMHIMH 28/12/21
when I think about sunshine and laughter it is your face that comes to my mind.
I'm holding you tightly so you don't slip away away, I think  I'm holding on too tight my finger lingering slowly up, it strokes your soft hand, along your cheeks, I twist my finger around your hair. damn, I forgot you don't like that.
I see something in your eyes fuck, I'm stranded in an art museum.
I'm alone in your garden and my head is full of you. I like you too much I want you all to myself. What is your dream, this world. Our Dreamworld. The garden we are laying seeds down for. I think, what if one day I have to forget your eyes? Your voice ? Â I wonder will I lose you? I'm holding on so tight, it feels like I'm fighting a whole city.
The seeds, what will happen to the seeds I'm planting. the trees, the flowers, the lilies, the roses, the sunflowers and avo trees - they always were too expensive in shops. will they have blossomed? Have you tasted its fruit? will I have to tear it down, Will I have to burn this garden too? I can't,
I will water it forever and wait but what if you return only with a firestick? My tears fill up rivers for you. But my feelings fill the ocean. Is this an endless garden? don't plant thistles or ivy! My heart pains, I hate tearing down gardens, Have I already? Tell me what it is that you see? In the mirror I see, no lily, no rose, no sunflower. I turn and see baby blue Cadillacs driven by peg-legged nuns on pogo sticks. I lay my head on your heart I hear one, two, three heartbeats.
Will I be turned into a person who's text is left on read. but don't worry I say. I will never say a word
These I have loved
A great tall girl, full of blue
Inviting lips, sweet to the eye but never tasted
Glasses that were black but now are pink
A voice of the ocean, Like waves hitting the breakwater
Of hair so perfect, Aphrodite should blush
A figure akin to the sun setting on the horizon
A connection so deep, the ocean has nothing on it
The future that lights up my nighttime
A conversation of Apple's and taste
Two people so together- hot and cold water
The sound of soothing poetry
A great tall girl
Yes,
These I have loved
Even though I see you all the time,
It seems I don't know you.
You are an open book,
But still a mystery for me,
Like a puzzle with some pieces,
But still as good as a one with no pieces.
Trying to figure you out feels like,
Guessing the rainbow colours as a blind person.
And just when I begin to feel,
That may be, I know you,
I see a new you.
Saumya Thapliyal
If you wanna love the world, where do you start?
I wanna write a story
about the sun that was once my chest,
about the cloud that was once my head,
about reaching for air, how I was finally able
to fill my lungs with a single breath,
how I've learned about peace and then heard
something inside me crack.
If you wanna love the world, where do you start?
I move too fast, it's my thing
to set a pace and outrun it;
it's my thing to collect my tears just in case
all drinking water gets poisoned -
can only hope that I've cried enough
so I won't die of thirst.
If you wanna love the world, where do you start?
'Cause I can feel like I'm about to break,
again;
I remember so very clearly
how I was making deals back then
for just a splinter of, not joy,
but potential.
Cycles over cycles, little athlete, tell me -
didn't you pass yourself a million times?
Do you still mourn the dreams
you once had when you were more than stuck
and just needed to get out?
If you wanna love the world, step by step,
how do you do that without needing to resurrect;
I found my place in the world and came back from the dead,
but casket diaries, they become quite exhausting -
take a second, just imagine it,
it's no fun anymore the millionth time
'cause I know by now
how my coffin's shaped and
my fear has turned to resignation.
So how does it come the sun still hurts as badly,
so how does it come that the light on my skin
still feels like it did on the first day?
From Sage Enderton’s chapbook, WHERE DO DEAD GIRLS WANDER?, available at https://bottlecap.press/products/where-do-dead-girls-wander-by-sage-katherine-enderton
Everything that you perceive as beautiful and sublime, may not seem that way to me, but it does not give me the right to say that it is horrible since my perception is different from yours. Art by Jill Tascher Basham.
Don’t Take Anything Personally. Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering
It's silence I crave, it's why I swim
The weight of water
Over me
Around me-
The safe silence of submergence.
At the waters edge I may be ugly,
But underwater, we are made equal And
When I speak strokes
I Am Beautiful.
-Adaptation of my favourite book, the weight of water by Sarah Crossan
These I have loved
A great tall girl, full of blue
Inviting lips, sweet to the eye but never tasted
Glasses that were black but now are pink
A voice of the ocean, Like waves hitting the breakwater
Of hair so perfect, Aphrodite should blush
A figure akin to the sun setting on the horizon
A connection so deep, the ocean has nothing on it
The future that lights up my nighttime
A conversation of Apple's and taste
Two people so together- hot and cold water
The sound of soothing poetry
A great tall girl
Yes,
These I have loved
I loved to write for you, I used to send you postcards, And I absolutely liked it so muchhhh. Then you told me to stop. Why do I love you and hate you
i bury words beneath my tongue
like we bury people once they're gone,
i worry that your mouth might
unearth them with a kiss
but sometimes i just wonder
what you hide behind your lips.
i want to tell you i love you
like a song completely new,
i don't want to sound
like some cover,
a reprise without the truth.
my love speaks in French,
but you only know English,
my love sounds like nonsense
and i don't think that you're fluent.
my love sounds like a splutter,
when it's really a language to learn;
it should resound like a symphony,
a tumbling tongue and a stutter
is not what you deserve.
when I think about sunshine and laughter it is your face that comes to my mind.
I'm holding you tightly so you don't slip away away, I think  I'm holding on too tight my finger lingering slowly up, it strokes your soft hand, along your cheeks, I twist my finger around your hair. damn, I forgot you don't like that.
I see something in your eyes fuck, I'm stranded in an art museum.
I'm alone in your garden and my head is full of you. I like you too much I want you all to myself. What is your dream, this world. Our Dreamworld. The garden we are laying seeds down for. I think, what if one day I have to forget your eyes? Your voice ? Â I wonder will I lose you? I'm holding on so tight, it feels like I'm fighting a whole city.
The seeds, what will happen to the seeds I'm planting. the trees, the flowers, the lilies, the roses, the sunflowers and avo trees - they always were too expensive in shops. will they have blossomed? Have you tasted its fruit? will I have to tear it down, Will I have to burn this garden too? I can't,
I will water it forever and wait but what if you return only with a firestick? My tears fill up rivers for you. But my feelings fill the ocean. Is this an endless garden? don't plant thistles or ivy! My heart pains, I hate tearing down gardens, Have I already? Tell me what it is that you see? In the mirror I see, no lily, no rose, no sunflower. I turn and see baby blue Cadillacs driven by peg-legged nuns on pogo sticks. I lay my head on your heart I hear one, two, three heartbeats.
Will I be turned into a person who's text is left on read. but don't worry I say. I will never say a word
I loved you so much, I hated how much I didn't tell you this. If you ever read this I still love you A. E
They asked me whom I love
I thought of the hue of your eye's
I thought of the dark tint of your hair
I thought of the strong perfume you always have
I thought of how we clicked, we never got bored of each other
I thought of you
I thought of you
I thought of you
I thought of you
And I think of you
I think of you
I thank of you
And
I
said
No
one
2018.05.23
when I think about sunshine and laughter it is your face that comes to my mind.
I'm holding you tightly so you don't slip away away, I think  I'm holding on too tight my finger lingering slowly up, it strokes your soft hand, along your cheeks, I twist my finger around your hair. damn, I forgot you don't like that.
I see something in your eyes fuck, I'm stranded in an art museum.
I'm alone in your garden and my head is full of you. I like you too much I want you all to myself. What is your dream, this world. Our Dreamworld. The garden we are laying seeds down for. I think, what if one day I have to forget your eyes? Your voice ? Â I wonder will I lose you? I'm holding on so tight, it feels like I'm fighting a whole city.
The seeds, what will happen to the seeds I'm planting. the trees, the flowers, the lilies, the roses, the sunflowers and avo trees - they always were too expensive in shops. will they have blossomed? Have you tasted its fruit? will I have to tear it down, Will I have to burn this garden too? I can't,
I will water it forever and wait but what if you return only with a firestick? My tears fill up rivers for you. But my feelings fill the ocean. Is this an endless garden? don't plant thistles or ivy! My heart pains, I hate tearing down gardens, Have I already? Tell me what it is that you see? In the mirror I see, no lily, no rose, no sunflower. I turn and see baby blue Cadillacs driven by peg-legged nuns on pogo sticks. I lay my head on your heart I hear one, two, three heartbeats.
Will I be turned into a person who's text is left on read. but don't worry I say. I will never say a word
I started a blog on WordPress for my poetry come see what I wrote and maybe read about me, there's only two pieces so far but I have tons poems waiting for you all
Baby, who has two phones?
It's silence I crave, it's why I swim
The weight of water
Over me
Around me-
The safe silence of submergence.
At the waters edge I may be ugly,
But underwater, we are made equal And
When I speak strokes
I Am Beautiful.
-Adaptation of my favourite book, the weight of water by Sarah Crossan
It's silence I crave, it's why I swim
The weight of water
Over me
Around me-
The safe silence of submergence.
At the waters edge I may be ugly,
But underwater, we are made equal And
When I speak strokes
I Am Beautiful.
-Adaptation of my favourite book, the weight of water by Sarah Crossan
These I have loved
A great tall girl, full of blue
Inviting lips, sweet to the eye but never tasted
Glasses that were black but now are pink
A voice of the ocean, Like waves hitting the breakwater
Of hair so perfect, Aphrodite should blush
A figure akin to the sun setting on the horizon
A connection so deep, the ocean has nothing on it
The future that lights up my nighttime
A conversation of Apple's and taste
Two people so together- hot and cold water
The sound of soothing poetry
A great tall girl
Yes,
These I have loved
Things I learned from failing classes:
Failing classes can be a result of many things and not just your lack of understanding the material. Life, mental health, stress levels, sleeping habits, and poor communication can all factor into it
It is not a reflection of how good or bad you study, especially if you pass your other classes
Sometimes you need to take a class several times before you finally understand the material, even if you work your ass off the first 3 times you take it. Sometimes concepts just won't click and you just need to memorize tests. That's ok
Cry. Cry it out
Keep class notes and tests. They make amazing review material when you retake the class
When you retake the class, approach it like it's your first time. If you go through it like you know the material, you're going to miss key points and probably fail again
Emailing a professor probably won't help you too much. If you can, go to office hours and workshops instead where you can interrupt and ask questions as you go
Sometimes you just have a bad professor. When you retake it, try a different teacher. Different teaching styles and presentations can greatly impact your comprehension and retention of information
Be honest with yourself about where you failed and why. Focus on the material you suck at and try to relate it to the stuff you're good with.
Teach your pets. Go through the lesson and talk out loud to them and explain everything. You're much more likely to catch areas of concern when trying to teach the material
Your professors want you to pass (mostly) and it's their job to answer all your questions
You're paying for that class so be annoying and ask questions every 5 minutes. Save yourself some money
Teachers are more than happy to discuss with you your problem areas and provide materials to help you out. They're there to ensure your success. Reach out to them
There is no shame in retaking a class 5+ times. Don't let other people define where you should be. All that matters is that you keep trying
Don't take the class over each semester. Give yourself time to recover from the failure. Pushing it will just lead to frustration and failing again
Ask other students for help. Chances are they'll understand parts you don't and be able to explain it in a less formal manner
If you dwell on it or compare yourself to others, you're going to feed a depression and anxiety around that class, making it harder for you to pass
Don't beat a dead horse. Acknowledge that you failed and need to take a break
Failure does not define you and failing classes in your major doesn't mean that you picked the wrong field
MeIRL