Update

Marlee Matlin’s SAG Award acceptance speech for Outstanding Performance by a Cast in a Motion Picture for CODA (2021) directed by Siân Heder

Loving the New Hair Color <3

HOW

I just watched the 2021 movie CODA and omfg HOW IS THE FANDOM NOT BIGGER?!??!? I absolutely loved this movie, I cried a couple of times and could rewatch it infinitely. CODA is really a work of art and I wish there was a bigger fandom so I could gush about it with other people!

✨Appreciation✨

Just a shoutout to my friend (I’ll call him Gamer, I’m sure he’ll know who he is) for reading like every post and providing the best commentary! He got a real good laugh from something I said in one of my very first posts, I’m glad I’ve managed to entertain him lmao.

Reflecting

(TW // sexual coercion)

With all of the awful stuff happening on Twitter I recently read an article about sexual coercion on Planned Parenthood’s website, and a lot of the warning signs sounded very similar to something I experienced in a past relationship. There were constant repeated attempts to “convince” me to let them do something to me no matter how many times I said no. There was a lot of “Up-Negotiating” like waiting a year until or just sitting near their face with my legs open. I always felt incredibly guilty and uncomfortable for saying no to them so often and eventually one day I gave in because I had been broken down so much, I thought “I’ve said no so many times, I’m a bad partner, they want it so I can just get through it for them”, and then they proceeded to react with disgust when I finally gave them what they were badgering me for throughout our whole time dating. I’ve never let someone try to go down on me since then and it’s been so hard for me to accept that I was coerced by repeated badgering and pressure. I don’t harbor any deep-seated resentment since it took me so long to realize that this is what happened to me, I had a lot of time to process it and work through it in therapy. I wish this person a life filled with therapy and love.

Bought a whole bunch of plants to add to my collection

Homecoming Soon!!!

I’ve got a killer outfit for Homecoming and I can’t wait to get to dance with my girlfriend for the first time :)

I’m really excited to go to a dance with them and get to see them more, I really like her a lot!

I’m also throwing a Halloween party this year and dressing up as (slutty) Ghostface and I invited her, I really can’t wait for all of these firsts with my girlfriend! :)

I Got my Results!!!

So today I got to leave school a bit early (I had to come back after lunch tho) to hear the results of my evaluation! I met some of the criteria for ADHD and Autism but not nearly enough to get a diagnosis, it’s something I should keep an eye on but not extremely possible from what they’ve seen so far from me. I got a diagnosis of Generalized Anxiety Disorder AND Social Anxiety Disorder, which wasn’t very surprising but I wasn’t expecting 2 diagnosis. I’m now eligible for medication and a 504 plan for my debilitating Social Anxiety, I’m really excited for next year to be able to have accommodations that will hopefully help me do even better and feel more comfortable in school than I already do!

I have therapy after my Driver’s Ed today so I’ll be excited to tell my therapist that I finally got a diagnosis and we can work out how to best move forward from there.

I’ve Had The New Piercings For A Bit Now

I recently got 3 piercings, my bellybutton, vertical labret, and rook, and I really love how they turned out. The ear still hurts but it hurts less than it did a few days ago, my lip piercing is doing great and I love playing with it I also think it looks really hot, and my bellybutton has healed so well I think I might change the jewelry soon!

Frothing at the mouth….

Need more tattoos and piercings ASAP