I Started A Cat Blanket Yesterday.... Already Done 15 Rows .... The Hyperfocus Is Strong Within Me....

we are very good at protesting indeed. And I really hope the next 4 years arent gonna lead to more....

So... Yesterday my university -in France- was blocked by other people :

And they left some traces

It's says : fuck Elon Musk (on the bench : death to Trump)

No need to translate that : we know it even here

Do a Luigi please

That's a french politique, and it's says fuck him

Once again : no need to translate

I'm gonna need to reblog it to add more, 'cause there's so much.

And I don't usually post this kind of things here but.... I went past that wall, went into the next building, and knew I had to go back. I find it really powerful. One of my friends said it was dirty and not well done. I don't agree.

Fire In These Hills

“Why are you like this ?”

I turn towards the voice.

“I don’t know. I never knew.” I sigh. “I guess I was always this way.” I hear them hum.

“But why ?”

I don’t know how to answer. Why am I the way I am ? That’s the question of my life. I’m insecure, I never know what I want, I don’t really understand other people. Yeah. I’m weird. And the worse ? I know that. And I know that people look at me weirdly because of it. But here I am. Still here, after 20 years of this.

“I don’t know.”

There’s no one with me. I know I’m imagining this voice. I know I’m trying to cope with everything going on in my life. I had to change everything. My friends. Where I live. How I live. So, I don’t have time to ask myself why. And yet, here we are. I’m imagining a voice to answer that very question. Right now, I just want to go back home, and let myself not think. Let myself be myself. But I can’t. I’m stuck here, and I’m sick. I can feel my body temperature rise. And I just want to go home…

“You must have a reason ?”

I sigh again. Do I ? Do I need a reason to be myself ? To be weird ? I don’t think so. But if I need to find one ? Well, I would say that it all came from my childhood. The way my parents treated me. Telling me they treated my brother and I the same way. What kind of bullshit is this ? Some big ones. They never treated us the same. Every time he’s sick, or hurt, or doesn’t like to do something ? Well, let strong and younger brother do the work, right ? Yeah well that only works for some time, before crumbling down.

“I told you. I don’t know.”

And that is true. I was always kind of like this. I could blame the ADHD, the autism. But in reality, I know it must actually be the anxiety.

“Are you sure ?”

I close my eyes. I know a part of it.

“I… I miss them. They’re not gone, but gone at the same time. They… They take so much out of me. I don’t know why, but they sometimes make me feel like I’m not worth it. That, maybe I’m not enough. Or maybe I’m too much. I put so much efforts. I put so much effort in everything. They know it. I feel so powerfully. And yet I am let yearning for scratch. Am I not worth a bit of effort ? Is our friendship this easily forgotten ?”

I start to feel my eyes water. There’s a fire in my soul now.

“Would you like more ?”

Would I like more ? I want more ! I need more ! I’m not just a kid who’s insecure now, I’m a young adult, constructing myself. I need my best friend around. Even if it’s just a few messages here and there. But I have to yearn for scratch. And I feel like I’m going to have enough of scratch.

“Of course I’d like more. I’d love more. I need more. But how could I be so selfish, right ?”

“I know.”

“I’m so tired. Can I please come home ?”

This feeling. I’m exhausted. But kind of in the good way. I am shaking like a leaf. Home. My home is the people I love. I feel at home with them.

“If you can. If they will let you.”

It’s true. I could come home to my friend. If they let me one day. If they open the door once more. I keep a sob. I won’t cry for something that might be nothing. I’m shaking so much. I can’t feel the world. I need my home. I need my friends. I know myself. I don’t trust myself.

But after everything you’re here with me still. Or at least I hope you’re still with me. I feel like I don’t know you anymore. I feel like we’re growing farther apart, when you were once my rock. I feel like I’m not strong enough to just suck it up as usual. I need you. I need my friend. I need my best friend.

“So why do I feel like they’ve abandoned me ?”

“I cannot tell you.”

Right. ‘cause that’s just the little voice in my head making me go through my emotions. I take a deep breath, still shaking. My body is so full of emotions. I can’t handle them. I don’t know how to handle them. That’s why I need my friends. That’s why it hurts so deeply.

I feel like I might wreck this home. Do I really want to let go of all those years ? Fuck no. Am I ready to wreck this home ? Fuck no. Will I have to ? Maybe. And that’s what hurts the most !

“I really just want to come home. I really just want to go home. But right now, I don’t know where home is.”

“You’ll find home where you need it.”

I know that. But I don’t want to. I want the comfort of my home. I want the comfort that my friend still wants to talk to me. I want the comfort I felt younger. I want the innocence of those quiet moments. I want to feel that again. Is that to much to ask for ? Am I really worth all that ? Everyone tells me that, yes I do. But am I strong enough to believe them ?

“I don’t think that I’m strong enough.”

“You’ll find the strength to face it. You’ve faced much more.”

Maybe. But maybe that’s my limit. Is it ? I don’t even know if I hope it is. I just want to come home. I think I’ve lost the will.

So. The rest.

I feel so much by all this.

It's not good quality : yeah normal. It was pretty much night time (we love a 8am class).

But it talks about macron (french president), trump and musk (they don't deserve to have the majuscules at their names : I don't respect people like them.)

And lastly : the Antifa that we have nearly everywhere. We are in the history buildings of the uni. We know how it happened 90 years ago. It is litteraly my class as I'm typing this.

Always say no to fascism. They promess you things. They won't give it to you. They dont care about you.

So... Yesterday my university -in France- was blocked by other people :

And they left some traces

It's says : fuck Elon Musk (on the bench : death to Trump)

No need to translate that : we know it even here

Do a Luigi please

That's a french politique, and it's says fuck him

Once again : no need to translate

I'm gonna need to reblog it to add more, 'cause there's so much.

And I don't usually post this kind of things here but.... I went past that wall, went into the next building, and knew I had to go back. I find it really powerful. One of my friends said it was dirty and not well done. I don't agree.

For those not tapped into Australian politics, King Charles is in Australia to conduct his "historic first tour to the commonwealth realm" i.e visting countries that King Charles is supposedly a monarch to.

Indigenous senator Lidia Thorpe had requested an audience with King Charles for weeks prior to this visit, she wrote countless letters to speak to him. Unlike other commonwealth nations and other former Brisitish colonies, a treaty with Indigenous peoples in Australia was never formed. Their land was never ceded to the British Crown. After being denied and ignored, Lidia Thorpe, draped in a traditional possum skin cloak, stormed in the Great Hall during the reception for Charles at Parliament House in the capital shout the following:

I literally can't even look at these photos without getting goosebumps.

Batman Ninja : Let's talk about it

Oh man, I really need to write that rent. -just to say, i just finished watching it, it is currently 11:50pm, i am very tired. BUT !

I have issues with that movie.

First of all, what the fuck ???? What is this Feodal Japan ????

Ok, now that this history inacurracy is out, let me focus on the rest.

Why do they all sound so bland, except Joker and Harley Quinn (who laugh all the time, they should not me counted). Like ? Wtf ??? Batman voice has no depth, Red Robin is -in my opinion- to high, wtf is going on with Robin voice ??? The only ones that fit -still in my opinion, this all post is my opinion, but read 'till the end- are, as I said Joker, Harley Quinn, Nightwing and Red Hood. The rest ? Bland.

Next on the list : what did they do to Damian ?????? WHY IS HE LAUGHING LIKE THIS ??? WHERE DID THEY PUT HIM ?? He is the son of Batman -Bruce Wayne ! The dude who has so many issues with emotions !-, the grandson of Ra's Al Ghul -The Demon's Head, leader of the LoA !!-. Why. Is. He. Laughing. Like. An. Idiot. Everytime. We. See. Him ?? Like, ok, they put the fact that he likes animals, that fine, but the rest ? Sorry, but that's not Damian. We have a new Robin, and his identity is a true mistery to me.

Anyway : Mechas ??? REALLY ??? Yeah, JAPAN, we got it. -honnestly, it was kinda fun, but.... yeah, not for a Batman movie for me....

I have to think now, so it's becoming lesser problems. Maybe unpopular opinion, but the animation style isn't really my cup of tea... But I'm very picky about that so yeah...

Oh yeah ! Poison Ivy. In nearly all recent comics -that I read !-, she isn't really a villain. Yeah, she's no hero either. But a super villain who associates with Joker ? Yeah, not really. They could've taken Scarecrow though.

I think that's about all for the rent, Imma give my full opinion on the movie. It was honnestly pretty good, not rewatch material, but pretty good. Probably because I was really tired, but I enjoyed it. The moment with the monkey army ? put down my glasses and laughed. It's pretty fun, has a good message -Batman is so much more than his gadget and his technology damn it !-, so if you're a Batman fan ? Maybe give it a go. We have nearly the whole Batfamily, a thing you don't really find elsewhere (dcamu, my beloved, why do you not have Tim, Jason, Steph, Cass, Duke, AND IM FORGETTING SO MANY MORE !)

So yeah, maybe give it a go. And just so you know, there is a 2. I will watch it, probably tomorrow (maybe today, depending on when I'm actually posting this, probably in class tomorrow morining), and I'll probably give my opinion once again :)

We watched the episode together and dude.... Yeah....

How could they do that to Echo, A CLONE WE KNOW SINCE SEASON 1!!! And saw he grow!

And yeh, Wolffe ?! Like dude, that's a hell of a commander, he ends up roommate with Rex and Gregor, but... How ?!

So many plot holes, and one episode that was just here to loose the precious time we had left to end the season. Same for the Zillo btw...

Bad batch spoilers

I have a lot of feelings about the ending.

I'm happy and disappointed about the end of the Bad Batch.

I'm really happy about the ending but there's so many things missing or left to rot in the void of writing.

First, the Tech problem. To me, the end of this season just confirms they killed Tech for absolutely no reason besides that he was too competent. They could have solved so many problems if he was there, so they killed him off.

It's infuriating the way there's no payoffs to him "sacrificing" himself besides a few one off comments. Even Crosshair's lines about them not being clone force 99 anymore just feels off. These lines should have been at the beginning when they met back up with Hunter and Wrecker. It's coming at the end when they have rebuilt their relationship. And after they have acted like clone force 99 for much of the previous episode. It doesn't feel right.

I could even say the same thing with Echo. He may not be dead but the way they push him aside because every time he is on screen he is actually dealing with the problems, is troubling me. Legit comes on screen to deal with whatever problem and then leaves. When Echo is an essential member of the bad batch, this feels like bad writing. Only Barton IV seems like a good Echo episode.

HE DOESN'T EVEN SAY GOODBYE TO HIS BROTHERS WHEN HE LEAVES.

Cx-2 now. I think he was set up to be so much more but they gave him up because they lack time. They just killed him off ?? He had Tech's characteristics in so many ways [ I mean who the hell says "domicile" ?? ] But they did NOTHING with him. It's disappointing honestly.

Flash round:

- Why did they use Scorch if they were going to do jack shit with him ?? Legit is one of the coolest clones but instead of actually using him , he's just standing here.

- Thanks for using Wolffe for like one episode and never bringing it up again that's cool

- Same with Rex and Gregor. Cool I guess.

End of flash round :

It really does seem like, to me at least, that they didn't have time to finish a lot of what they wanted to do with this season.

I am however incredibly happy with the end Crosshair, Wrecker, Hunter and Omega have. Hopefully we'll see our little pilot in more shows from now on. I'm going to miss them despite the complicated feelings I have about the whole season 3.

My roomate will eventually answer.. when they have connection back, 'cause rn they're using mine...

We call it team bounding

So.... I just moved in in my appartment with my roomate. We are both huge star wars fans. We have OC, and clones OC.

We just created lore with them all because we have problems with our boiler. I shall add taht we're in there since... what, 3 days ? barely x)

Anyway, let me just present you our new clones OC : MacGyver and Chuck Norris !

They are Corries (because our "jedi" OC are really often with the corries), and... Yeah, our headcannon is that Palpatine gave the corries a really old and shut down buildings, so at first, there are a lot of problem (floods, electric problems, etc...). So every Corrie knows how to handle small problems. But when there are bigger and more complicated problems ? They call Macgyver. They have the theme to call him. And his assistant is Chuck Norris.

Why you would ask ? Well, it's for the times Macgyver would have to get away on an emergency with a bad senator. Chuck Norris would just force the senator to let them go.

Btw : Both of them are Alpha class. Just for the fun.

Oh, and the Corries love both their general (i'm gonna give their names : Alex and Red), 'cause they helped a lot, and still do. Imagine a big flood in the senate building : well nothing is damage because they acted fast ! (and they insulted the chancelor a little bit after that but yeah...)

@weirdest-lights is my roomate btw. this was just discussed x)

I have my cat and my blanket (god it's really starting to be long... It's like my torso long!!)

Btw, of course my cat is purring. I love her.

Tumblr, I swear I'd put my cat purrs on here if I could, but I cannot record 😭

I started a cat blanket yesterday.... Already done 15 rows .... The hyperfocus is strong within me....

Just don't look at the back for the moment 😅

Don't you just love when your tattoo artist can't remember what you do in life ? Like come on! It's my third tattoo with him!

(I'm joking I love my tattoo artist, he's doing amazing work, but still 😂)

By the way I'm posting this as he's working on my tattoo, and my leg is ✨shaking✨ thankfully not the one he's working on

Currently watching a movie in ice room ? (The really nice one with dolby 7.1 and lights on the sides, and very comfy sittings, and I don't know the equivalent anywhere else than in France)

We are 2 in the room. Like, yeah, ok, it's late on a Sunday, and in English, but still! Until like 5 minutes ago, I thought I would be the only one in the room.....