Remembering How I Lost My Virginity To Chase Atlantic But The Mf Was So Bad I Now Despise The Band.

as a christian ^^^^

To learn something new, you need to try new things and not be afraid to be wrong.

Roy T. Bennett

I just think they’re neat.

for anyone who comes across my blog,

it doesn’t matter what you’ve done, who you love, how you feel or identify.

I see you,

I’ll do what I can to guide you and help you,

I will be a safe place for you.

in a song i heard the lyrics

“he only loves me when I rot with him”

and those words tested their way through my being until they rested in the wound I cannot touch, cannot heal, and cannot see.

Rotting

love

two words i’ve often always associated with eachother despite a part of me believing in the purity of love.

A purity i reach for but cannot touch, perhaps one i never can.

“he” only loves me when i rot with “him”

when my eyes lose light as the mention of his name and i have to remind myself that i’m no longer rotting.

But it’s hard to believe that when a part of you is still stained in his sheets, when the taste is still in your mouth, when you see him when you close your eyes.

rotting

when my bones pierced my skin, my body rejecting what he gives me, shaking, when he gets near.

He only loves me when I rot when i’m sick

when he can manipulate and lie

with him.

if you use chatgpt genuinely i view you as an imbacile.

kill the imposter syndrome in your head because not only is there someone out there doing it worse than you, they’re also using chat gpt to do it

Being chronically ill is like having a curse where every 4 hours you get a random status effect, and most of which are debuffs.

Also you only have 1 action per day and long rests heal 2 hp. You're cooked.