Latest Posts by ofinkanddreams - Page 4

nihilism and stoicism isn’t enough, I need God.

it's a shame you can't Cool, Silent, and Mysterious your way to being very close to people. we are unfortunately going to have to embarrass ourselves for this

Advice for the younger ones on here!!

There’s a micro community on here and Tiktok that’ll show weight loss/hair loss/other unhealthy symptoms and claim it’s because “they’re in love” or that it’s “love stress”

IF YOU EVER experience this while in a relationship I urge you to leave that relationship (if you are not safe enough to leave alone please reach out to the DV hotline or SH hotline) that is not love that is quite literally your body shutting down due to the stress and trauma.

I fell victim to that narrative and ended up nearly being hospitalized.

I lost weight and was nearly put on a high protein diet because of it, I was dealing with menstrual bleeding for three months and even more serious symptoms.

The right, healthy person will not bring on those symptoms!!!

for anyone who comes across my blog,

it doesn’t matter what you’ve done, who you love, how you feel or identify.

I see you,

I’ll do what I can to guide you and help you,

I will be a safe place for you.

in a song i heard the lyrics

“he only loves me when I rot with him”

and those words tested their way through my being until they rested in the wound I cannot touch, cannot heal, and cannot see.

Rotting

love

two words i’ve often always associated with eachother despite a part of me believing in the purity of love.

A purity i reach for but cannot touch, perhaps one i never can.

“he” only loves me when i rot with “him”

when my eyes lose light as the mention of his name and i have to remind myself that i’m no longer rotting.

But it’s hard to believe that when a part of you is still stained in his sheets, when the taste is still in your mouth, when you see him when you close your eyes.

rotting

when my bones pierced my skin, my body rejecting what he gives me, shaking, when he gets near.

He only loves me when I rot when i’m sick

when he can manipulate and lie

with him.

If hurting me does not hurt you, you don’t love me. You’re using me.

k.b // by jerry flowers jr

Always help someone. you might be the only one that does.

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Morgan Harper Nichols’ ‘Let July be July’