Doing Another Day Where I Note When I Have Thoughts Of Food So I Can Try And Ignore Them Until Dinner.

My collection of meals under 300 cals (ongoing):

Egg Cups (about 45 cal per egg cup or 270 for 6): preheat oven to 360 F, use a nonstick muffin tin, fill muffin slots to top with spinach, add about 14 grams of chicken to each (84 grams or 3 oz for 6), bake for about 20 minutes or until cooked through. For flavor with very little cals, I dip them in sriracha. Ingredients below.

Liquid egg whites

Spinach (or any quick cooking veggie)

Pro2Go chicken/cooked chicken breast (optional, remove 17 cals per cup if leaving out)

Safe Tacos (about 70 cals per taco, 280 for 6): spread half of laughing cow wedge onto one half of the taco shell, add chicken and fold in half. Either toast on nonstick pan or microwave if you're feeling lazy. For dipping, I again use sriracha to keep calories lower. Ingredients below.

Mini Mission Carb Balance tortillas (25 cal each)

Laughing Cow Light (any flavor that's 25 cals works)

Pro2Go chicken/cooked chicken breast

Creamy Chicken & Vegetable Soup (about 225 cals for 1/2 recipe): Please note: I usually eyeball the vegetable amounts, so feel free to add less if you like. I tried to overmeasure for the sake of guestimating calories. To make, bring a cup and a half of water to boil (can add more later to taste). add chopped onion, zucchini, celery, carrots and bouillon. let come to a simmer. cook for about 5-10 minutes. add ground chicken breast and 1 tsp thyme. bring to simmer again and cook another 5-10 minutes. if worried about raw chicken, you can also pre-cook it in a non-stick pan beforehand. finally right before serving, add 100 ml of oatmilk. Ingredients below.

Oatly/Califa Oatmilk Barista Edition (very important to get barista edition! other versions may be lower calorie but it won't be as creamy and even "unsweetened" tends to be sweet)

Yellow onion, 1/2, chopped

Zucchini, 1 medium, chopped

Celery, 1 stalk, chopped

Carrot, 1/2 cup chopped

Better Than Bouillon Chicken Bouillon, 60 g (honestly you can add less and cut calories, but I like things salty and flavorful. add this or any chicken bouillon you prefer to taste. Adjust cals accordingly)

Ground chicken breast, 100g (optional, remove 55 cals per serving if leaving out)

Dried thyme, 1 tsp

More to be added as I think of them.

i need to drop weight or drop dead

THE ART OF HUNGER.

To break it down by month:

192 by December 184 by January 176 by February 168 by March 160 by April

on track for Feb requirements but am getting nervous about April.... time to once again restrict!!

trying something today. anytime i think about food, i'm going to edit this post and see if i can stop myself until at least 5pm. also will be a good log on when the cravings hit and how i feel.

8am: had a random spike of wanting some small food. going to finish water and try and wait until 11 for coffee.

edit: made it to 5:30PM with just a few slices of pepperoni and coffee! success. going to do this again for thursday

thinspø / motivation

th1nspo <3 𐙚🧸ྀི

I CANT EAT. I CANT EAT. I CANT EAT.

to be thinner than the people that called you fat

My master list of motif to ⭐️ve…

For a skinny girl autumn and winter/sweater weather and spooky season vibes

To be unrecognizable and make everyone jealous of how pretty I get

To get skinny for my tattoos

To be intelligent and beautiful

No acne! (aka my biggest insecurity)

To have a sex drive/feel good during sex

To attract more attention from people/my partner/crushes

Honestly, getting drunk and high is so much more fun when you’re starving and skinny lol

To have an incredible sense of style and actually be able to wear cool outfits

To romanticize my life more

To give me a reason for existing and looking drop dead gorgeous while doing it

To beat my goal weight before I was forced into treatment; get into the mindset again

To chase the euphoria that starving and being skinny brings/the number on the scale droppjng brings

To shock everyone with how beautiful I get

Sharp cheekbones and jawline/thigh gap/slim arms/prominent and protruding collarbone/skinny fingers/thin and hour glass figure

To wear rings and nice jewelry that compliment my skinny body

I have the potential! I refuse to waste it this time

I want to look attractive for my travels across the globe this year. Meeting lifetime friends and partying in Europe will be so much more fun when skinny!

I feel so much more clean and motivated when I’m starving! I clean my space more, self care more, look better in general and do everything I need to get done!! I need this back