30.12.2024 // Free Dayy

im gonna get back on top. no other choice

My dad told me yesterday that nobody in the world would care if I died and that I'm not even worth being someone's shoe..and then casually called me today to eat dinner with everyone.

wtf dad.

anyways, i bought a new book, that's cool ig.

Letters from Juliet (I)

We're astrologers aren't we jack?

Predicted it all long before our story was anywhere near to "near the end".

Why does it hurt then?

Back in July ,

I remember.

summer skies,

cherry lies.

You and me.

My endless stories.

Your pointless jokes.

loud laughs turned to silent cries,

for how long should one try?

My feet are calloused

My hands are sweaty

And I promise, i can do with all

but my heart.

It's tired.

It has been crushed before

And it can't take it no more

The world has its daggers at me

I crave warmth,

you gave it to me.

held me.

rocked me back and forth.

I loved you,

You loved me.

this was never a love story.

All the predictions we had

"How will it end?"

none ended with us together.

We are not each other's first

And we'll certainly not be last.

But I had faith,

In heaven.

In God.

You didn't.

so god saved you.

-Agrima Nath

19.12.2024, Thursday

My physical education theory exam went super well , I mean i guess it's supposed to be easy but I'm extremely satisfied and happy about it 🩷

but now...the next exam...is physics

I fkn have beef with Newton

so I gotta lock in

I have been doing "study vc" with my friends and it's helping a lot , just knowing that someone is also up all night with me is so reassuring :))

here's all I have to revise before I sleep -

electrostatic

current electricity

moving charges

magnetism

electromagnetic induction

alternating current

emi waves

ray optics

wave optics

i know it's a lot but i have to do it if I want to have time to revise the derivations :")

pray for me y'all!!!!!! 🦊🦊

28.12.2024, Saturday

finally... tomorrow is my last exam of this year...

putting an end to this chapter and this year so we can finally move on to a better (academic) year hopefully <3

tomorrow is my math exam, and it is my last pre board , and as I say this I'm hoping that I have passed in all of them and god forbid I don't have to retake them :"")

I've revised all that I know already and I'm gonna just go over calculus again

uhhhhhhh I'm so done with this already I'll wrap it up by 3:30-4 am and sleep

here's all that I'll do before my "last" pre-exam nap (of this year lmao) :-

differential equations important questions

linear programming important questions

integral important questions

yep, that's it , cuz it's already pretty late already and I need sleep to function in a fkn maths exam

wish me luckkk!!!! (pray for me y'all 🩷)

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11:07 AM

Just came back after giving my physics mid term,

whew

Stayed up till 5:50 for an exam at 7:15 AM

I honestly don't know how it went , it could've been a lot better , I'm not happy with the way it went :''(

My brain hurts a lot, i just want to eat and sleep rn but guess fucking what? ...chem tomorrow

kill me now kill me now

I'll have to start studying by mid noon anyhow

I can't complain cause i brought this on myself

Karma is a bitch

I should've studied beforehand

don't be like me

study now , be sane later

But it's okay , I know I'll bounce back , I just need to take it one day at a time

Sometimes you just need to grab something to eat , take a good nap and get back up

that's it

let's see if I finish mid term or mid term finishes me

Beach Prints

I see beautiful tragedies of life in the footprints prints on the beach , do you?

i sat down on the sea shore

as a visitor

only to find myself in an ocean of footprints

A sign of visitors

that walk over

pass by the beach

i looked down on my body

only to find myself drowned in those footprints

a sign of visitors

that once walked with me

now pass by me

these scars are just footprints then.

what do I think of them?

which ones i treasure

which ones i mourn

whatever I think of them,

they will remain on me , as a sign.

a sign of visitors

and just like that,

i found the proof of

every tear

every laughter

every time I felt sick of someone

every time I felt homesick for someone

i saw the tides gently wipe away some of these footprints while leaving the most

only to make space for more visitors to come

the visitors leave , their footprints stay

until another visitor walks over them

to create a new trail of these prints

they don't reach far beneath surface

but they are the decorations of sand

what do they teach me?

something beautiful

something tragic

i see the beautiful tragedies of life in the footprints on beach , do you?