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if youre fine with sharing(and can even describe it), what does it physically feel like to have cancer?

Cancer is a terrible disease. Not only does every bone in my body ache, I hear and see things as a permanent side effect of the first chemotherapy regimen I was on. It sucks every bit of energy from you, even though you just want to go out and be a 27 year old again. You physically can barely move.

It robbed me of my job. I was a successful social worker working at a children’s hospital. I can barely feed myself (on the days I wish to have something small) because it stole my financial security. Now I live on disability making $800 a month. I’m not saying this to make people feel bad, I just want people to know how astronomically cancer destroys lives.

It robbed me of stable mental health. Nowadays I just cry because most of my friends prior to cancer have given up on coming to see me. They have given up normal conversations about my interests and made it about pitying my situation, yet not putting in any effort. I now have clinical depression and severe anxiety from going through so much treatment and trauma. My partner broke up with me near the beginning of my journey because they found it was too much. When we talked about it at the end, there was no consideration about how I felt.

It robbed me of doing anything a 27 year old should or could be doing. One of the biggest things it has robbed me of is going to the Eras Tour to see my idol @taylorswift live or meeting her one day. It has robbed me of going to see My Chemical Romance live. It gets to the point where you can’t do anything but lay in your bed and just hope one day things will change.

It has robbed me not just of my physical health, but my livelihood. That’s so important to acknowledge when talking and/or loving someone with cancer. Thank you for asking. ❤️

There are very few exceptions, like that soldier poet king song or certain gospel songs. I like Christmas music if that counts but majority of the ones I like have nothing to do with actual Christianity and are just about Santa Clause.

Do you think most or all Christian music is bad?

it's really funny to me that —in my head— bruce actually stopped 'adopting' children after jason. like, he adopted dick and jason. that's it. the rest? oh, the rest adopted him. like, steph literally showed up at his door and wouldn't leave. and tim blackmailed him.

I hate when I’m playing Dress to Impress and someone who joined late walks out saying that they joined late(that part’s okay, they didn’t have enough time to finish), and I figure that they aren’t going to win because why would they? So I don’t vote for them or anything, but then they get like 2nd place or something! Like I worked hard on my outfit for the full time and someone that just changed the skin color gets more votes than me? Stupid.

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Officially addicted to Tumblr

Fuck celebrities, bitch oatmeal raisin cookies should be canceled. Pretending to be chocolate when really you’re just a shriveled up grape with crumbly surroundings. Nasty.

I want a talk show but specifically for people that have animal shows or whatever so that I can pet the exotic animals that they bring me. And it WILL be a requirement for them to bring me an animal

what does your soul smell like? (friendship/ relationship compatibility in the results!) quiz by @/valendyke

thank you so much for the tag @dollsuguru my love 🥰💕 this was super fun

i love this description so much and it kind of tracks considering i cook and bake to show folks that i love them :')

no pressure tags: @buttdumplin @stellewriites @kyletogaz @dwarvenales @glossysoap @pfhwrittes @indigosunsetao3 @femalefemur @sentientcave and anyone who had a caffeinated drink today :)

Gave my pupper a bath

I know it’s not hard to point out reactionaries hypocrisy when it comes to like safe spaces or hug boxes or whatever but genuinely how much of an echo chamber do you have to exist in for you to think this is a reasonable thing to say