Nobody Talks About The Physical Pain Of Writing A Really Good Emotional Scene. It’s Like Ripping Your

so long, london - taylor swift

over 103,000 words written and i’m still only about 60% through book 3…… that’s what i get for being a representative of the thicc book committee

it might also have something to do with the fact that i have nine main characters, tons of important side characters and plots, and lore that runs deeper than a rabbit hole but idk

“I punch the gas out of the neighborhood I’m in and drive us to the nearest fast-food place, our open windows blaring Joan Jett the whole way there.

To hell with it all.

As long as I have her, I’ll gladly burn alive.”

in the mood to sell my house, set fire to all my clothes and hire a priest to come and exorcise my demons

2 a.m. Currently.

sometimes i wish it didn’t take me so long to rediscover my love for writing. it’s something i LOVED as a kid. i loved books and was so mesmerized by the fictional world. then that love got lost as i grew older and i only just started rediscovering it almost two years ago.

can’t help but wonder how much closer i’d be to my writing dreams had i rediscovered my love for it sooner or never lost it to begin with.

Variants of Taylor Swift's "The Man" look (2024)

i’ve been rotting in bed with a fever for four days now which means it’s been four days since i’ve felt the cold, smooth touch of my keyboard and mouse💔

on one end, i’ve been meaning to let what i last wrote marinate for a bit, but on the other miserable end, i miss entering the makeshift portal i’ve created into my characters’ world (‘:

i have had plenty of time to conjure up a million potential storyline ideas that might not ever even come to fruition anyway, so there’s that!

me 🤝 my notes app

i didn’t plan for the telenovela flair some of the characters/storylines in my book series have, but i actually love it so much…

not only does it feel good to represent my latin culture in someway, but it’s also just ridiculously fun to write😭

it adds a layer of unseriousness/comedy that my books need given some of the more serious issues i write about.

the reveals!!! the drama!!! the scandal!!! i’ve somehow created a coming of age version of the tv shows jane the virgin, gossip girl, and friends all at once????

and then you have to go back and rewrite some of what you’ve already written to accommodate what your character just came up with.. *insert eye twitch*

Writing is wild because you’ll plan a perfectly structured scene and then your character is like

“actually I’m gonna kiss this person now” or “what if I had a traumatic backstory I’ve never mentioned before”

and suddenly you’re spiraling because THEY’RE MAKING CHOICES and you’re just the poor little author with no control

like sir. ma’am. i gave you life. and now you’re rewriting your own plot??

Reblog this and tell me the most unhinged thing a character of yours did without permission.

I need solidarity. i need chaos. i need to know i’m not the only one getting bullied by their own cast.