Writing Struggles - Blog Posts

The Struggle of being Imaginative and very hyperactive:

When you sit down to write, and the entire scene plays out perfectly in your mind, but on paper it ends up looking like this: “he smiled, his smiling eyes staring at them with a hint of smile”

So I'm writing a Soukoku fanfic and-

Good job, Google Docs, Good job. Because Chuuya's first flying by Dazai's face makes so much more sense than his fist. Yeah, totally. I understand.

One day, I will have to explain to google that I don't have kids, I am a writer.

How I imagine the conversation would go-

Google: You don't have kids?

Me: Nope, none

Google: Why did you search things like "best baby names" "unique baby names" "baby names meaning leader"???

Me: I aM a wRiTeR

Even worse, you form a stronger attachment to the side character than the main character.

the worst part of writing is when you realize you accidentally gave a side character a better arc than the main character.

The WIP when you read some of your own work for inspo

☆ Asking some of the MHA guys what their type is ☆

Izuku: "Well she needs to be kind, and easy to talk to, and--oh, physically? I guess being curvy wouldn't hurt,"

Bakugo: "This is so stupid. . . A nice ass,"

Denki: "Cute face is a must,"

Eijiro: "I like it when a girl can really hold her own. Someone strong, maybe athletic,"

Spinner: "A type? Like, a preference? I'd have to say... alive. More specific? Okay, so, y'know when girls move their chests up and down? Yeah, like breathing. I'm real into that,"

Shigaraki: "I don't have time for this. Fucking is fucking. I dunno, soft hands, I guess,"

Dabi: "Your mom still alive? Good, good. Tell her to call me. It's her, she's my type,"

Twice: "As a bisexual I am legally required to tell you that I will fuck anyone who is on a bicycle. Don't look so worried, consent is implied!"

Don't feel sad that your fic isn't canon. The original story was written by some person who had a vision, just like you. Your version is its own canon. It exists because you manifested it into the universe and will continue to exist in its own right.

When you don't immediately get views, kudos, and comments the second you post the fic you've been obsessing over.

Me to the important tasks that need done so I can continue to write smut about characters who don't exist in real life

When you read through all the "great ideas" you jotted down at 3am and realize they're mostly dog shit

so real, sometimes i think abt the bizarre workings of the magical system in the hp universe and barely resist the urge to start writing abt chemistry to justify all the nonsensical rules . .

like holy shit just make them kiss and share traumas with e/o they don't need to have an academic debate rn bc someone cast an aguamenti

i need to read more academic articles to make my yaoi more insane

[manifesting as hard as i possibly can] please, please god, please, please, please let more people get into my extremely niche and somewhat dated hyperfixation ship 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

Writing Update

so, I never use Tumblr (well, I use it daily, but to look for journaling inspo and never post nor reblog) but I had an amazing discussion with @jasontoddisrightfuckyou and need to share, because yeah, it made me realize a few things about what happened to me during this past year.

(Also Perse, some of what I’m about to say literally are copy/paste of what I told you, because I’m shocked at how easily I can manage to put words on my feeling when I talk with you) So recently, I noticed how easy it was for me to write in other fandoms: I can write way more and longer fanfictions without even noticing it.

I tried to understand why this is happening, and I think I found out. 

I wrote about everything I wanted to write about on Batman fandom. Don't get me wrong, I love batman and I love reading fanfic, but I don't have anything else to write about since all my favorite tropes have been covered already. I should maybe rewrite my old fics and make them better since I guess I did improve during the past years, but writing about batman makes me feel like I’m doing the same thing over and over again. I have the feeling that I really want to write batfam again, but like when I’m in front of a new document, nothing is coming and I’m just struggling and being like "do I even want to tell a story?"

I don’t know about English, but in French, we say that things are being “reheated” when the same concept is used over and over again, and I feel like this is how I see my writing in the Batman fandom now. 

I started to write batman because of the server I used to be in and because I knew it was a popular fandom. I had never written in English at that time and had very low self-esteem which made me crave validation that I knew I could have in the DC fandom. Maybe also because I was in a server with what as used to see as “big names” of the fandom that made me feel like I should own my place with them and I was like "look I can write too, even if I’m younger and if English isn’t my native language” etc.

Somehow, I ended up wanting to write about other fandoms but I was like "no, I can only write about dc because I need to “make a name” in the DC fandom, and so it kind of stopped my creativity.

Now I’m not writing to please anyone anymore. I write because I like to, and I like knowing that I can write and because I might have a terrible brainrot. 

I do enjoy Batman a lot, and I love reading all the Jason whump fanfictions I can find and seeing all the comments on my old fanfictions. I love talking about DC and I love discussing Jason whump, but I think it will take time for me to write again in this fandom. I can’t find any more stories I want to share with you, and I don’t want to write because I feel the pressure to do it.

I’m now in an amazing server with amazing people that makes me want to write for myself and makes me want to be the best version of myself (as a person, but also as a writer) and I am so grateful for them all.

(Small NB since I noticed I might have not been clear enough: I’m not blaming my old server, but mostly my old state of mind of me being a people pleaser and feeling like I needed validation because I was really insecure)

You can join the server here (it’s a DC server, btw) as long as you’re respecting everyone and the rules :D

Also, you can still find me on ao3 

I have no idea how I’m supposed to end a Tumblr post, so bye everyone, and take care <3,

✧₊˚ Harmonique ˚₊✧

Most importantly, write about what you want to write about, and don’t get yourself trapped in the boundaries you created. 

Hi, I saw where you said you won't write for innocent reader, and I wanted to ask if that includes reader being a virgin? I had a request idea for that but I don't wanna make you uncomfortable.

Hi!

Thank you so much for the ask. It's completely fine if the reader is a virgin, but I don't write stuff that include like reader who doesn't even know what sex is or like has no clue as to how you do it or what is he/her about to do to her during the ✨️act✨️ or like doesn't know what is happening to her when she's about to finish. It's fine for me to write when the reader is inexperienced, but not when she has no clue what is going on.

I hope that I answered your question with this. So if you didn't change your mind feel free to send your request. I'll get to it. Some day. (The school is kicking my ass and I have no time for myself).

Have a nice day/night, lovely! ♡

girl help i have a pairing and a meet-cute but no damn plot

does anybody do this

like…you start a series of fics n stuff and then like…it’s old writing or a series

then you’re like: “oh I can just write ahead, no problem, it’s less work for later”

And then you write like at your peak writing style but can’t post it because it would be spoilers…

yeah that’s me, im mainly posting old stuff for starters to test the waters but holy crap my writing SUCKED.

I need some advice trying to write a script for my fanmade precure series, this was the first chapter of my series and I wanna know if it's good or needs improvement

Me: *on tumblr, minding my business*

My next chapter, sitting unfinished: