Me: *on Tumblr, Minding My Business*

treat yourself to a short fic. in 2k or less, your whole day could turn around.

So true. I'll show up to the hospital (and it's bad if I'm at the hospital cause I'm broke ), and I will always, without fail, rate my pain firmly in the middle. Anywhere from a 4 to a 6. Cause like, it could be worse. It has been worse. And yet, here I am.

“what radicalized you” bro EMPATHY

It's fanfiction it doesn't have to be perfect it doesn't have to be accurate this is a hobby you're doing this for fun it's okay if it isn't perfect and polished you're doing it for fun [talking to myself in the mirror]

So I've been telling my mom that twilight ain't shit for YEARS! I've been telling her how all the characters(yes including Charlie) are trash and how Jacob is just as toxic as the rest of the triangle due to the assault. I've been telling her Stephanie did realize she had created a monster and still doesn't. I told her how it pushed problematic themes onto its audience and how it had heavily racist and misogynistic undertones. On and on I ranted!

Well this morning my mom comes to me and seems surprised by something. She tells me that she was watching some people on tik tok and YouTube respectively and they brought up some points about twilight that she had never thought about. So I watched the videos and of course it was ALL THE POINTS I HAD ALREADY MADE MORE TIMES THAN I CAN COUNT! One of the guys she watched was even a critique I HAD BEEN WATCHING FOR YEARS!

Now when I say that twilight is problematic and Jacob's a rapist in the making I'm being dramatic but when some random guy on the internet says it she's like

The lesson here kids is parents don't listen to a damn thing you say. Those fuckers tune you the hell out.

feels like some people become parents because they've been taught that is the natural progression of how adults gain power (i.e. the power their parents held over them in their childhood). and now they need to be at the top of that power structure, to finally be okay.

which is very, very sad. and also, crucially, not a healthy reason to become a parent.

LITERALLY!!!

No one, not even Spike, thought what happened in Seeing Red was okay and all throughout season 7 we were reminded of that. Yet fucking Riley, douchebag extraordinaire, was still seen as 'in the right'??? I'm supposed to watch him whining about Buffy being emotionally unavailable WHILE HER MOM IS DYING and feel sympathy? I'm supposed to watch him project his insecurities onto her, blame her for his toxic masculinity ruining their relationship, and then listen to Xander gaslight her into thinking this was all somehow her fault, and feel something other than unbridled rage??? Fucking how???

I am increasingly grateful that Spike was so divisive in the writers' room. Both Angel and Riley were supposed to be heroes, but you have them doing things like:

Experiencing a moment of true happiness when nutting in a teenager, but not when cuddling with his own child

Cheating on Buffy and saying it's her fault

Like, knowing what we know about Whedon and the sort of toxic environment he nurtured, it's really no wonder that the dudes on staff thought these guys were sympathetic and couldn't understand why Spike was so popular when he was, you know, not doing stuff like that. Also his actual shitty behavior was called out as actually shitty by other characters and the narrative, whereas Angel and Riley (and Xander and others, lbr) were constantly devil's advocated by the same narrative, if not let off the hook entirely.

I was in the middle of leaving a comment😭😭😭

Now what am I supposed to do? Get a good night's sleep? Work on my current wip? Yeah, right.

"love is what makes us human" actually it's 'select all images with boat' but go off I guess