The Most Punk Rock Thing I Do Is Wearing My Rapist/physical-assaulter/abuser’s Ring Occasionally Whenever

being aware that your behavior is shaped by childhood experiences is so cringe every time i notice it im like ooo look at her can't even get over what someone told him when she was 7. grow up

god she’s not findable on anything. i just want to make sure she’s alive, and okay. she needs someone to protect her and i couldn’t and i need to fuxking find her im going to cry

her name is Laura. and i failed her and my bad brain forgot her name for so long. i’m so sorry Laura, i am.

4.23.22 - Springtime Winter (excerpt)

I tell him how my dad is clearly trying to kill me, by leaving all of the windows open. I feel a passive pang of ideation. I don't tell him how I wish that it actually would.

I just feel so ugly inside and out.

bpd is a bitch.

i forgot how fucking delulu i get over this specific person. i need to just be fucking shot.

if what’s happening is what i think is happening i will literally just lose my MIND.

TW: TALK OF SA AND SA FLASHBACKS

i literally haven’t been up this late in years. this is insane. i have read so much fanfiction it’s ridiculous. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP PLS !!!!

the only way out will always be through.