TW: brief mention of SA and physical assault
8.26.22
The Empty Kind. (excerpt)
“…I wish I didn’t burn every bridge I’ve ever stood on, now all I breathe is smoke.”
i think my tumblr is scientific evidence for bpd mood swings
i wish you didn’t get distant and i didn’t turn mean.
i miss you every damn day.
i’m going to start screaming and crying pretty soon. like i am so SO tired of caring SO much for people who don’t even have the courtesy to officially end things.
i just keep getting abandoned over and over and over again and i will end up in the psych ward oh my god.
it’s this pink haired girl, her pink vape, and her Gods against the world i think.
general appreciation post to my gods below:
Ares- i will never be able to repay you for all of the fight that you’ve instilled within me this semester. i made it through a shitload of work and some really god awful days without going to the psych ward yet this year. you deserve more appreciation than i could ever give and i cannot wait for the day that i will be able to properly worship and have an altar in your name.
Hermes- you were the one who started this all for me. without you i would have never discovered the light of the gods. i thank you every single day for this reason, and i will continue to thank you until the day that this life is over for always being my north star.
Hestia- i thank you for blessing my room (home) and my worship, and also the ability to subtlety pray when i can. Thank you Lady Hestia for all that you have given me.
Zeus- i thank you all father for the blessings you have given me, for the blessings i have been too blind to outright recognize, and for always being there. thank you.
May i stay pious, may i be a good person, may the light of the Gods continue to sine on me for eternity.
better off without you michael- you’re just my eternal sunshine </3
notes app ramblings
the Gods answer things in the most wild ways. i made a new (old) friend!! here i was praying and wishing for michael to come back, but the universe said “nope! have this instead!!” and yk what? maybe this is better. turns out i can’t ever fully leave roc behind, and maybe i didn’t want to :’)
I have found a writing that i truly think all hellenic polytheists should be required to read.
I was so moved that I had to write a thank you email immediately after I had processed everything.
These hardships of life were a gift, Lord Zeus is not a vengeful God who hates humanity (Though i’m sure those Zeus devotees out there already knew this)
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If you want to read my takeaways please do read below the email I sent. This piece was truly inspiring and insightful.
✩ 21 ✩ bpd, bipolar, & cptsd diagnosed ✩ helpol ✩ “Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it.”
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