Stress And Pressure!

I don't know how much of a change is consistent. However, we learn to adapt to it unknowingly. Today is April 1. I was waiting for this day thinking "How do I write seven creatives in Bangla exam that day?" And ya I am writing now at 4 am!

  It feels quite thrilling to face a strange challenge, but it is difficult for me to imagine the dire consequences. When people feel a lot of pain, they feel it later. Today, life may seem easy in the face of such a big change, but waiting for the feeling when it itself will seem helpless.

To me, quarantine is not something uncomfortable. I'm accustomed to stay home. So ,maybe I don't understand the change. This time in the house is used in many ways by effective people . I am already inefficient in this regard. So I am more inclined to waste this time. Maybe I'll try but fail.but I do not fear failure.rather I'm afraid of change. I did not think it was so difficult to take responsibility for my life as a follower of the eighteen. I thought the taste of freedom is not too bitter. But alas, living in a house and capturing a strange liberty, I never dreamed it would be so difficult. I don't like the digital age, I'm not that smart. So I do not know if everything becomes normal, can I be normal.I do not know where my world will stand. Those who can still keep themselves normal at this time may be superhuman. However, I do not know why the change always seems awful to only me.

Give me time. I know how to adapt. :)

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/academia-after-covid/

“One way or another, academic life is likely to be forever changed. The damage caused by COVID-19 can be viewed optimistically as a fertile ground for establishing a better reality. A seismic change of this magnitude offers an opportunity to reboot the education system, aligning it better with our guiding principles and discarding its administrative inefficiencies. Doing so will require the drive and ideas of our younger colleagues, who will also be the primary bearers of the implications. Let’s make sure that they survive the current financial storm and construct a better version of academia, following the fine tradition of improvements since the initial version of the Platonic Academy.“

The one reason I hate the “online communication” is-

The notion of ‘trust’ & ‘honesty’ mostly doesn’t fit here.

I am not telling all are dishonest; I am telling there’s more scope available.

“Earlier, I asked you to consider two factors in assessing online honesty: (1) the communication venue, and (2) the topics people lie about. When it comes to the venue, research suggests that we’re most honest on social networking sites and least honest on dating sites. When it comes to what we lie about, we’re most honest about our personality, and least honest about our physical appearance.Despite the fact that the Internet makes it easy to fabricate major lies, most of our online lies are minor, suggesting that, overall, we’re pretty honest on the Internet. But this doesn’t mean you should throw caution to the wind in pursuing online relationships or that there are not some people who do greatly misrepresent themselves online. Basic safety precautions should be taken when meeting an online friend offline for the first time, just as you would with anyone you don’t know well. But this research suggests that we shouldn’t be so quick to distrust those we meet online.“ 

That sounds so positive >-<

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/close-encounters/201407/can-you-really-trust-the-people-you-meet-online

When a flower blooms, when it falls in the road - we never see.

When the first ray of sun falls on a leaf and it reflects its greenish beauty - we never see.

Rather our life starts with a click in the snoozing button of mobile phone-- in a hope of more sleeping!

We are running for our own reasons...

Nature is doing its own work...

No one is here for thinking for others,

Who is I then to think?

Myself 1: I got all the maths of conics wrong when i was given to do. I am right now crying.

Myself 2: Remember the day when you did the maths.

Myself 1: Ummm....

Myself 2: Then how do u expect u will do correct maths? Did u memorise the maths? Or..

Myself 1: 😡 i diddd not memorise.

Myself 2: thenwhat? You wanted to solve the maths at Once?

Myself 1:ya.

Myself 2: Ok, then i think for problem solving you didn’t get sufficient time. Remember, HSC is not a place for problem solving. Ahhh, you have to memorise the maths repeatedly! Otherwise you can't get the maths correct.

Myself 1: i thought i could solve maths correctly. I believed myself. Now how will I cover all those things?!?

Myself 2. Wanna get 95+/100 in HSC.

Myself 1: ya.

Myself 2. Stop arguing, and memorise MATHS😠 Right now!

Healing is a continuous process.

Why is it necessary to be "good" from the eyes of society?

The clarity of thinking The power of choosing are two invaluable skills YOU may bear..

I have no friends ----> friends do not need to be mentioned always.

My realization need to be changed, it's normal. But sometimes we learn many things suddenly. I can't express my feelings in a sudden though i want to keep a memory of my sudden feeling. From childhood, I never felt the necessity of friends and I was too unsocial to make friends. It's like friends were burden. I was unlucky to get someone who could explain the significance of friendship to me. Even though I tried from my side to be a friend,I felt one day that I am an incapable to be a friend. So, later I thought I have no friends. But the definition differs. Now I think It's not need to mention in front of all that I have a friend that "You are my friend". I realised that friends are not for showing off, friends are not for passing time. Friends are those who tell you that you can. Friends are those who knows your faults but don't leave you. Friends are those who respect your philosophy, don't want to divert you. Friends are those who laugh silently in your success in spite of their hardship. Friends are those who are sent to this world for being your friends. It's not needed to think when friendship grows. Friendship is friendship for its own reason. A friendship can never be fade, never be broken. It can only be strengthened and last long forever.