camille knows this is not easy for neither of them , but even when he's hurting , darius has always so patient and kind with her . she had expected for him to at least scream at her , to maybe shove her away and refuse to even stay a second longer and listen to her bullshit . she had already imagined the worst possible scenario that could happen , and yet now that they're standing face to face , all that she is reminded of is how badly she doesn't deserve anything from darius anymore . still , she finds herself wishing for some sort of miracle , and had he reacted way worse than this , camille would have been convinced that there's no hope for her to mend what's already broken .
“ no , it's not okay , ” she could feel tears welling up in her eyes , “ i know it's not okay so please , darius , just yell at me or something . tell me you hate me for what i did to you , anything , just fucking talk to me , alright ? i need to know if you still want me in your life or if it's really over between us . ” maybe it's a selfish thought —— camille believes that they would find their ways to each other again no matter what , but having spent so much time away from darius makes her think that she might get it all wrong . what if darius has actually moved on and she's the only one still hanging onto the idea of them together ?
pulls one hand away to wipe the tear falling down her cheek , “ i'm not leaving until you tell me your answer . ” this is what she came for anyways , and if darius truly doesn't want her in his life anymore , she'd try her best to stay away from him after this . “ tell me , darius , do you really think this is the end for us ? ” she knows they have already broken up , but she needs to hear it from darius again .
“ cami—it's okay. sorry—don't apologize. ” darius was never good with words. his thought process is all the divvied up emotions and things he'd like to say placed in a supercut. incoherent thoughts breed incoherent words, and he ends up hounding whoever had upset him. it's not fair to camille and anyone on the receiving end of his hurt. “ i don't doubt that you loved me. ” that's darius running on his own time. what could he have done at the height of his hurt? he'd never yelled at camille before—of all people, he didn't ever plan to.
but betrayal reaps a need for blood: he doesn't even hear it from camille. maybe if he did, he'd swallow whatever pride to try to understand—to try to make it work (because he wanted it to). it strikes him as a great loss: how does anyone deal with losing one's greatest confidant, companion, and lover all in one ? “ can you blame me—? ” it's the kind of pity party he hates to see and he pities her for a second. “ —stop that— ” because he knows she's hurting herself. open palms gather her hands in his. some things never change. he practices his self control and she loses her self control. “ it doesn't matter anymore. ” things like this were meant to stop hurting after awhile. it had been awhile. “ i'm not in the space to hear what feelings you don't and do have. ” camille addario is simultaneously the last person he wanted to see and also likely the last person he'd see tonight. “ compose yourself until you get home. ”
“ okay , i've never been peer pressured into eating glue before nor had i ever peer pressured anyone into doing so —— who the fuck would peer pressure somebody into eating glue anyways ? that's just fucking bizarre . and sure , you might say you're fine right now , but isn't that still dangerous ? like are you sure you're not just gaslighting yourself into thinking that eating glue is fine ? we should probably get you checked or something . ” maybe camille just got lucky she didn't have much peer pressure growing up , and she would like to believe that she could very much stand up for herself and say no to doing things that she shouldn't be doing ( re : eating glue ) but maybe kids tend to be more relentless and it's easier to give in to peer pressure when you're younger . with a tilt of her head , camille gives the other an eye roll before saying , “ all i'm hearing right now is excuses , babe . i don't know who the fuck dragonrider420 or whatever that thing is , but if you're too scared to do this you can just say so . i'm not gonna peer pressure you into it . ” camille has never been the ultimate peer pressurer after all , even if she might seem like she is . “ if anything you were the one trying to poison me with your glue - infused drink , ” she teases , followed by a laugh . “ you can just put it on my tab and throw it out so we can both stay alive , by the way . i promise i won't snitch on you . ”
with phoebe crane, whose mouth is silently constructing eloquent aspersions of the decidedly un-babe-like kind, there is no calm before the storm. there is only the rambling tornado that sends limbs flying into a sign language with no signal for stop, that breaks the fujita scale into the components of a virgin mojito. curse her for thinking camille would understand. then again, if camille couldn’t get behind the extremely real feminist movement of turning fungal overgrowth into a fashion statement, there was no way she’d get the glue-eater tag trending without some real persuasion. if she almost knocks the shot glass over while presenting her case, it’s a happy coincidence that only highlights the passion with which she defends her life and its questionable continuation. ‘ i didn’t do it on purpose! either the wrong-alcohol-putting-inning or the glue eating. you know what peer pressure is, right? i mean, i guess you’re basically the ultimate peer pressurer, but that just means you have a civil duty to drink glue with me whenever you’re done with whatever you’re dressed up for, ‘ she says, scrawling a jumble of digits and decimal points onto the counter with the chipped tip of her fingernail in an attempt to calculate ninety-nine per cent of one hundred. her concentration is broken by the other’s dalliance with negotiation, which phoebe replies to with a grin that’s all incisors. incisors that are also covered in the shiny, fake flavour of expired lip balm. ‘ uh, we’re out of straws. save the turtles, y’know. also, god is a woman, and i dmed her about this whole sitch and she said that i cannot leave my campaigns to the grubby hands of dragonrider420. ‘ in one swift motion that suggests ample history with health inspectors, she brings out a photo of her favourite npc thus far – a grotesque goblin kid with pupils shaped like daggers. ‘ do you really wanna condemn this adorable baby to eternal oblivion? ‘
there's a forced smile on her face when she looks at myles —— truth to be told , camille has been on her phone half of the time so she definitely has missed it . “ yeah , yeah , i totally saw that , ” she agrees anyways , head nodding to further reassure him . “ too bad i didn't get it on camera but hey , at least we both know you did it , am i right ? ”
closed starter for @salvateure ! ↪ after a game !
thrill of winning the game has completely blinded him to the fact that they're not actually friends , " — did you see that ?! 5 - 0 ?! did you ?! i made two of those goals — you saw it , right ? "
“ honestly , no truer words have been spoken . i'm always a sucker for mini skirts , but like you said , we don't wanna be scandalous and not - so - accidentally flash our asses to the entire alley . . . well , not today . ” it's definitely something that camille would do on purpose . anything to get people talking about her , but with aria around she's ought to put on her best behavior at the moment —— unless aria is down for a little misbehaving , of course . “ i know right ? did anyone really not think about it at all ? that's so crazy to me , like come on , people . it's 2024 , let us have some cute bowling shoes for once and all ! but for real , that better happens before this year ends or else i'm super convinced that they all hate bowling . ” shakes head at the thought , but instantly nods at aria's question . “ sure , we can totally go grab dinner after that . i really don't mind whenever so i'll leave that one to you , babe . ” she's never been picky when it comes to these things , and it's only fair to have aria decide on their dinner place since she already suggested for them to go bowling . “ the only thing i'm worried about is the power that we hold when we're together , i bet it'd be too much for them to handle , ” a pause for dramatic effect , and camille breaks into laughter at her own words . “ other than that , i got nothing to worry about for sure . but really , who cares ? paparazzi should be fucking banned at this point but they're not , so we might as well just do whatever the fuck we want , am i right ? ” paparazzi might be brutal , but they are the least of her worries right now .
" that's exactly what i was thinking ! oh fuck it i'll just wear the boots , in a perfect world i'd wear a miniskirt but i don't really like the idea of me bending over to roll the ball and flashing my ass to the entire alley , " it's a sacrifice she has to make to maintain at least some decency . " honestly now that you mention it , i'm kinda shocked none of the big names have gotten on that ⸻ nike or something really needs to get on that , i can't believe they've made fucking pickleball shoes before bowling ones , " there's a story somewhere in there , she thinks , tucking that thought away in her mental file cabinet as she pulls her current shirt over her head and tosses it to the side of her closet . " are we just going bowling or do you wanna go grab dinner or something ? there's a few places i've been wanting to try but i'm honestly not opposed to just roaming around until we find somewhere that looks good . . . but only if you're not too worried about like , paparazzi , i've heard they've been on the fucking prowl in soho recently , " she says , pulling on her shirt and disappearing around the corner to hangers sliding against the metal rods as she flicks through her rack of skirts .
lily rose depp. she/her. cis woman. › spotted at the met steps , camille addario , most likely listening to houdini by dua lipa with their airpods pro . the twenty six year old gained quite a reputation , known to be -self indulgent yet +ambitious to anyone who knows them . you'll easily spot them when you hear about bubblegum and cigarettes - a natural contradiction , sweet bourbon run through your veins , the golden touch of midas , long confident strides forward ; no matter the adversities , followed by chanel coco mademoiselle . latest nepoupdates article talks about tiktok star camille addario recently spotted being intimate with a married actor just a week after her last messy public break up - is this yet another pr stunt or has she finally lost it ? , but i guess any reputation is good reputation .
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“ well , i'm in my bad guy era , remember ? of course i'm gonna twist your words , ” she lets out a laugh , fighting the urge to roll her eyes at his following words , “ okay , that absolutely has nothing to do with me not moving past my fangirl phase . ” their first meeting still makes her a little giddy every time she thinks about it , so maybe he's not all wrong about it either . “ i mean , how could i get over you ? nobody has ever serenaded me before and you made me one less lonely girl . . . that shit is kinda hard to forget , you know , ” she teases , only to break into a fit of giggles soon after . “ i thought a while ago you're flattered that i called you a natural , why are you so offended now ? damn it , logan , pick a fuckin' side . ” mirrors the look on his face , “ yeah sure , let's get us some ‘42 so we can feel like hot shit too —— oh wait , my bad . we're already hot shit now , aren't we ? ”
" don't twist my words ! " his exclamation is accompanied by a laugh — that's not at all what he'd MEANT , but she'd got him good . " oh , a natural , huh ? you flatter me ... thought you moved past that FANGIRL phase . good to know i've still got it . " hand rests over his heart , shooting a playful little smirk — and WINK — her way . hey , if she gets to tease him , then it's only fair that he gets to dish it right back ! it's all done lightheartedly , evidenced by the smile adorning his features . " you're ANNOYING . " he says it with love , " look , if this is your way of subversively telling me i'm being a dick , i've got the message loud and clear — but you can't say i'm not right . " he gives cami a look , " let's go get some '42 for ourselves . maybe your friend actually has a POINT . "
“ okay , mr . international popstar , i didn't know you would be this picky . ” camille is just content that she gets to go out and have fun right now , so it doesn't matter as much to her —— she couldn't help but laugh at his offer , followed by an eye roll . “ seriously , logan ? you did not just show up and told me to ditch my friend . that's so rude . ” well , he's more of an acquaintance than anything else , but camille would never pass up the chance to have a good time . looking over to her so - called friend , “ you think he'll notice if we end up ditching his little party and starting our own ? ”
closed starter for @salvateure ! ↪ logan showed up fashionably late to 1OAK ( nightclub ) .
" y'know , when you invited me out 'cause your friend got a table at 1OAK i kinda thought we'd be in the VIP section ... " pauses for a beat , " let's ditch him . i'll get us a table — your other friends can join . "
closed starter for miyeon @lovesues setting: smashing stuffs at rage room
“ i don't know if you've done this before but let me tell you , this is a fucking life saver . ” miyeon doesn't strike her as somebody who would enjoy breaking things but hey , that doesn't mean she wouldn't . “ okay , before you judge me or anything , i don't do this often —— it's been a while since the last time i did this and we all have something we're upset about sometimes , so why not ? ”
closed starter for wes @frivclous setting: someone's house party
lets out an embarrassed laugh now that her cover has been blown , “ okay , okay , you got me . i don't even know anyone else at this party . ” it's not often camille crashes into house parties , but she was feeling a little reckless tonight —— nobody could figure her out until she meets wes anyways , so what are the odds ? “ but if anybody asks , i can say i'm with you , right ? i mean , they probably won't , but it's nice to know i've got an alibi either way . ”
camille is very much aware that she should have never gone back to julien . anyone in their right mind wouldn't , but that's the thing , she wasn't in her right mind when she came back crawling to him . it's a bold move , shameless even , because while the public already had a target on her back , she went and did the only one thing that she shouldn't have —— her reputation has already been tainted anyways , but it gets worse every time julien grimaldi is involved . still , she finds herself enjoying every second of it . maybe deep down this is what she wants : the push and pull , the never - ending cycle of fighting and making up , the intense hatred mixed with desire . she knows he's no good for her , and yet she couldn't seem to find a way to leave ( she already did once , but is it considered leaving if she still comes back around like this ? ) , and now that she and darius are already broken up , there's nothing stopping her from falling back into old habits . maybe she's a little fucked in the head , but she loves the idea of being with julien , how he always bring out the worst in her . it makes her feel alive in a way , and it doesn't help that he knows just the right ways to keep her around either . but things with julien are just that , something she clings to for some sort of relevancy , something that makes playing the villain a little more tolerable . after all two is better than one , right ?
it's all fun and games between them , but she couldn't deny that every time he calls her name in that stupidly sexy french accent of his , it makes her feel giddy for all the wrong reasons . sure , he's got a fucking point . “ well , if you put it that way , ” she lets her words trail instead . julien definitely has the upper hand in this situation , but maybe it's about time she puts him back in his place . “ wait , did you hear that ? ” a brief pause for dramatic effect , “ that's the sound of me not giving a single fuck about what you think . but you know what ? i'll give you that —— it's true that you make it so fucking hard for me to leave sometimes , but don't get it twisted , yeah ? you're not that special to me . ” this time camille drops the smile on her face , gaze still on his , “ if you still didn't get the fucking hint , i'm dumping your ass , jules . and please , keep his name out of your fucking mouth . you have no rights to talk about him like that . ” it's almost laughable how she still wants to protect darius when she was the one who hurt him the most , but really , she could tell that julien probably brings him up on purpose , knows that she'd get all worked up over the mention of her ex .
julien isn’t some shining example of a good guy . no , far from it . he’s selfish , oozing ego and packed with a substantial dose of narcissism . so damn convinced he’s the center of the universe , so damn sure that anyone who’s ever heard of him wants him . and honestly , he’s not entirely wrong . plenty of people would kill to be camille right now , would act like the perfect little partner for the perfect little prince . but that’s the thing , julien doesn’t want that . he wants the drama , the thrill of the chase , that intense heat . and camille delivers just that — she brings the fire , the passion , the intensity , and gives him just enough of that ‘ love to hate you ’ energy to get him completely hooked . he loves the way her eyes practically roll into the back of her head but still betray desire . loves the way she yells at him in public , making them the talk of every tabloid website . and he absolutely loves explosive shouting matches that only wind down when they’re both naked , spent , and blissfully satisfied . but does he love her ? no . he loves that she’s his , that she brings something thrilling to a life that’s supposed to be so dull and boring . and that’s the reason , ( and he’ll swear it’s the only reason ) , why he’s never gonna walk away .
maybe this was his plan all along — to bring out this side of her . then again , maybe he actually thought she had a shred of loyalty to him . who really knows with this guy ? “ ooooh , now that’s the feisty camille i know and love . ” a smirk appears to lips as index finger traces her jawline , a gentle mockery of affection . “ you forget , chérie — the last time your loyalty slipped , wasn’t it my name on your lips ? you say you don’t do loyalty , i say you’ve been mine , all mine , since you cheated on that little boyfriend of yours . ” the real message here boils down to the fact that julien is a horrible human being . he couldn’t care less about loyalty or who she’s with , at least as long as he fits into the picture somehow . but , oh , if she ever considers revisiting things with her ex , that’s where he draws a line . hits a nerve on his fragile ego , maybe ? “ enough with this ‘ shoo , bad boy ’ act . weren’t you saying the same just last week ? and the week before ? and yet , here you are . seems you cannot resist , eh ? oh , but suddenly , you’re turning a new leaf for your oh - so - bland ex - boyfriend , just because he’s made his grand retour ? mon dieu , that’s truly … fuckin’ disappointing . ”
“ well , if it makes you feel better , all the best people are crazy —— i'm pretty sure i've heard that somewhere . ” camille believes everyone has a little crazy in them anyways , it's what makes life so much fun and interesting . “ right , of course you are one of those people that read zodiac horoscope , ” she laughs . “ i would be lying to say i've never done it , but it's a little bit tricky , don't you think ? once you read the horoscope , you might want to believe it , so even if it doesn't happen the way it's supposed to be , you'd find a reason behind it , which is why in the end they all make total sense . that's just how it works , i think . it's not like they're real . we're the ones who make them real , you know ? ”
" well when ya' put it like that, i definitely sound crazy, " van chuckled, rolling her eyes at herself. suddenly fortune-telling was the tamest thing she could do in new york city . . . but what could she say ? she had her fears, and there was always something super off-putting about an old lady and her crystal ball. " maybe it's a business . . . but you don't think they're even a tad bit real ? never read your zodiac horoscope and thought, well, damn, that makes total sense ? "