Cancelling FACTS + Other Stuff

Happy valentines day!

I'm sorry i haven't been active lately again, but these last few weeks I had to do some paperwork with my parents regarding me dropping out of college. For the people wondering why i quit school, is because of my mental health wasn't doing good, the huge amount of stress piling up, bad grades and the teachers there. It really was a hard decision, because of the lovely students and the many friends I made there. But i think Animations isn't for me after all, the teachers really destroyed my motivation for it. I hope you won't judge me for it, I know some people are against people who dropout, but i'm a lot happier that I quit and it's my life. I'm now on vacation to lower my stress levels and to relax, to be prepared for next year. What i'm going to do next year? I still have no idea, but i'll probably do an internship somewhere. I also have been planning on making an online store to earn some money, because i really need money badly to be able to stand on my own feet. I don't want to ask my parents for money, they also have it difficult financially and they do already so munch for me, I just can't. With the last of my money i finally can have my own booth on FACTS. I'm super sorry for the people who where there the previous time for me, because at the time I thought I could make it. But school was in the way and didn't had time to prepare. I'm really sorry, I was there in cosplay, but my stupid head forgot to tell. This time i can make it 100 procent sure. I registered for a booth and I will give further information soon where I will stand. These past few weeks I have been working on prints that I will be posting soon on my Deviantart and Tumblr. I will also make at the artist Alley a vlog for Youtube so for you who can't come and visit! I hope you'll understand and I hope you have a great day!

My DnD babies of the current campaign I'm playing!

My beefy boie was in dire need of a redesign!

My first booth experience

First of all, I want to thank the people who came to my booth buying my merchandise and came by to say hello! I really appreciated it and make it possible to keep doing this. I really wanted to make this journal way more sooner, but I guess I totally forgot about it like usual. I'll be attending next year again at FACTS, so i'll be making new prints and new merchandise, like stickers and magnets. I have to say I had underestimated the pressure and stress that came with it. The first day when I arrived early in the morning I started crying because I started to panic nobody would even look or buy anything from me. Luckily my dad was there for a little while, so I was able to pull through. However I did still felt the anxiety and stress during the whole convention, my legs where shaking and it was hard to make eye contact sometimes. I should have also slept more, because i was very tired and said stupid things to my costumers like for example: Somebody asked my for a Pinkie pie button and I said 'Aah you want Twinkie?' haha that was pretty embarrassing. But it was worth for the experience and the people I met. My neighbors where pretty nice as well, offering me food and giving me some courage. One of my friends stayed with me at my booth, which i'm very grateful for! I had a great time and I hope to see you guys next year! I also have been learning some HTML and CSS to make my own website and online store where I could sell my stuff for the people who can't come to the conventions or are interested in buying my stuff. I'm really excited to open my own shop, but it will take me a lot of time to make it. Commissions will be opened next week and I will be updating my social medias. I still need to add a lot artworks on Tumblr especially that i completely forgot about. I was going to make an artist valley vlog, but I don't made any footage sadly, so my next video is going to be some story times with a speedpaint. Last but not least, I'm planning on changing my usernames to something shorter and more personal. First I thought mixing my name and art together, making it: Lizart. But that username already existed so my second one was Lizarto, which already excited as well. So my final name i'm gonna pick is Lizartos, but not 100 procent sure yet. It is going to be weird not being called Yellowfeatherbolt, which I just didn't like anymore. Because YFB is not me, but my mascot and my original character and it felt a bit weird after a while being called as one of my characters. But it's still fine if you still associated me with that name. The name change however is going take a long time since it will be after the next convention. I hope you have a great day and thanks for reading!