Words To Describe Facial Expressions

HDJWKJDSKSKDIIS I JUST REALIZED THAT THERE IS LITTLE DEVIL TIAN IN THE BACKGROUND?!??!?

it seems to me that many has forgotten about this magnificent art💛

jian yi: my hands are cold.

zhan zheng xi, holding jian yi's hands in his and rubbing them together: feeling better?

jian yi: ...my lips are cold too.

zhan zheng xi, rubbing jian yi's lips with his hand: is that better?

jian yi, almost crying: yeah...

they don't have enough money for pants in size, it's so sad :( two poor little meow meows

he tian: how do i politely tell someone i want to fucking hit their face with a brick several times?

he cheng: one wishes to aquaint your facial structure with a rigidly edge object fundamentally used in the construction of walls repeatedly.

he tian: that was poetry!~

mo guan shan: that was a cry for therapy from both of you-

He Tian's Arc

Ok, so this will be a very rambly post, but bare with me.

As we know Ht is a very complex character, being mainly affected by his childhood and the people/situations that hurt him. First and foremost, his family.

Starting with the loss of his mother HT starts having that crippling fear of his of losing people, slowly becoming fiercely loyal to those he loves. Then we get to his father, although we dont have much info on him as of yet, we do know Ht was very aware of how dangerous his father was, to the point of even asking his brother if (if he did something wrong) his father would kill him. With this HT very obviously grew up with a mentality of fighting to survive, and learning to live in the "darkness" of his family.

Then, what I believe has shaped him the most, his Brother.

He cheng has lived with their father and family business for a lot longer, and has learned what HT would come to learn a lot earlier, and (maybe accidentally) taught it to his little brother. HC shows HT that he's "on his own", if he wants something he HAS to fight for it, he can not be weak because that will make him useless (in the sense of not being able to do what he wants to do, like saving people)

Ht then understands that his family is different, they have a "darkness" that he not only hates, but is terrified of.

He hates his father, and he hates what his brother is/has become. He does not want to be part of his family's business, the violence, the killing and the cruelty of their "jobs" repels him. I think he hates it so much because he's scared to have that "darkness" inside himself as well, scared that its inevitably in his blood already. Even literally stating to MGS that he is scared of the dark. So he pushes and does his best to stay away (hating his brother, living alone, not talking to his father) he only ever "uses" his family when it's to take something from them instead of give (like money).

And then, here comes Mo guan shan.

And he's the exact opposite of everything his family (and by extension he himself) is. Mo guan shan does not lie, or scheme, and above all he does not see or fear that darkness inside Ht. We've seen that he and JY were friends before all this, and that at the very least they were close, but Jy did not completely understand Ht, he was a friend but as we've seen with the countless panels of HT standing alone in a landscape, he still felt alone. He felt like that darkness kept him apart from other people, and so when MGS came along he just couldn't help but fall for him.

So Ht becomes extremely protective over little Mo. And thanks to the idea of being the Strongest, the one who protects and is not protected ("weakling") Ht develops a very self sacrificing mentality. It simply does not matter to him if he gets hurt or in danger, because he is strong and he has that darkness in him, all that matters is that those he love are unharmed, safe and happy.

The problem is, Mo guan shan has a "stalker". She li considers him his, and prefers to break MGS than have someone else "take" him. Which means HT ends up putting himself in situations a lot worse than normally (well, at least outside his family business) not only to take the hits in MGS's place, but also to attack those who hurt him.

Still, the people he loves keep getting hurt, not only Mo but also Jian Yi. The other person who Ht is also willing to sacrifice himself to save. It starts to make HT desperate, and it slowly pushes him further down that "dark" path he feared so much.

And that pushes him towards his family, his brother and the violent measures they take. His brother tries to warn him (not that greatly I might add) and at the very least veers him away from the true rock bottom (killing someone).

And he does say he doesn't care about what people think of him, and I do think that's mostly true at this point, but he does care about what MGS thinks. Because Mo doesn't fear him, and he doesn't want that to change.

We've seen several times HT asking for Mo's opinions and thought on him. I think that fear of scaring off MGS specially shows when after holding SL's neck in the stairs Ht asks this.

Still decides to resort to that side of him, to eliminate SL, even if he has to sacrifice his own existence without that darkness and family. He'd do anything for those he loves.

Which makes for a whole new problem. That sacrifice is a little too much, even for him, he's terrified of it, (maybe horrified is a better word for it). He loves his friends too much, and hates those who hurt them just as much. It makes it too easy for him to cross the line, to the point someone has to be there just to stop him, to hold him back. And look at that,

He flinches.

He flinches from what he did, and the person talking.

In the next panel we see his face at it, engulfed in darkness. And I think that one of the things he also fears is knowing MGS saw him, I think here he is scared to see Mo's reaction. So he looks back

And Mo guan shan isn't scared Of him, but For him. MGS still stands By him and Hugs him, and HT doesn't even care about his hand, or anything else he just wants to hug Mo back.

Because yes, He tian has slowly descended on a cruel and violent path that he feared, (and still fears) but Mo guan shan still wants to stay by his side. Even with He tian literally red handed with blood, Mo wants to share his troubles with HT (symbolized by him wearing the jacket Ht gave him when telling him not to shoulder everything on his own) and take on part of Ht's troubles as well.

He wants to accompany and stay by his side. Mo guan shan still doesn't fear He tian. And I think that's all Ht wants.

TLDR:: Tianshan has slowly driven HT to a darker and more violent path, but their relationship shows just how deep their connection is, and how much they've come to rely and develop alongside one another.

mo guan shan: i'm not worthy of a good life, i'm not worthy of having friends, i'm not worthy of you. i'm just a dumb piece of shit with an ugly face.

he tian: …

he tian: you know, little mo, you have 217 freckles only on your face, and i would give half my life to count all the others. i would give the other half to repeat to you every day how beautiful, kind, wonderful, incredible and amazing you are. i love you. and in a way you're right, because you're really stupid if you haven't figured it out by now.

i was rereading 19 days for the hundredth time and noticed something...

we saw redhead's smile.

the evil one but anyway!

He Tian would buy kitchen fornitures based on how Mo would look like bent on them. Like even the height of the table, the material, the roughness of it's shape. I feel like it would be the only help he could give to house shopping. Mo's having a tough time getting railed on a too high counter? He must change that. Mo's getting stung and scratches on the top of his tighs because of the sharpness of that table? He must throw that away and buy a soft edged one. It will be like that sometimes. (I hope it's understandable, English's not my first XO)

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

he tian: do you have two tongues in your mouth? mo guan shan: no. he tian: do you want to?

218 notes • Posted 2021-10-31 22:57:40 GMT

#4

guan shan fell asleep thinking about tian's words.

246 notes • Posted 2021-11-30 17:15:23 GMT

#3

did I understand correctly that the whole 19 days fandom quietly agrees that future-mo guan shan usually sleeps on he tian's chest? and when tian has nightmares, he buries himself in the redhead's neck, and redhead hugs him and kisses the top of his head? and little mo loves when tian sneaks up and unexpectedly embraces and pecks him while he cooks, but still feigns annoyance? and that they can't watch a movie properly because they're always distracted by each other?

i like that.

279 notes • Posted 2021-11-20 20:40:46 GMT

#2

little mo is little indeed~

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361 notes • Posted 2021-12-05 13:28:47 GMT

#1

mo guan shan: *chops vegetables*

he tian: *puts a dirty plate in the sink and leaves*

mo guan shan: *chops two times faster and louder*

he tian: *comes back in a hurry and starts washing all the dishes*

mo guan shan: *chops vegetables at a normal pace again*

421 notes • Posted 2021-12-08 17:59:04 GMT

i guess tianshan has completely engulfed me

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