We Found Out That Tian Would Be Leaving Soon Almost A Year Ago. Almost A Whole Year.

I was today years old when I learned that when you type “otp: true” in AO3 search results it filters out fics with additional ships, leaving only the fics where your otp is the main ship

mo guan shan: i don't have a petname for he tian, that's stupid.

jian yi: oh really? what do bees make?

mo: honey.

jian yi:

mo: did you really think that'd work?

jian yi: yeah.

mo guan shan: dumbass.

he tian, popping out of nowhere: yeah, baby?

imagine what would happen to he tian if she li had actually killed guan shan then...

Mo: Heh, dickhead you had a crush on me. That's so embarrassing

Tian: It isn't

Tian: I would never be embarrassed to admit to loving you

Mo *blush* : Chicken dick... You were supposed to say "we're married"

Tian: Yes, we are

he tian: you're such a bad boy, little mo~

mo guan shan: yeah, i guess i am...

he tian: huh?

mo guan shan, upset: i accidentally hit a dog.

Tian: [kisses Mo's forehead]

Mo: You missed.

Tian: ...?

Mo:[Brings Tian down and kisses him on the lips]

Tian *pass away*

mo guan shan: *struggling to open a jar of pickles*

he tian: do you need help with that?

mo guan shan: *smashes a jar on the floor and takes out a pickle from a pile of shards*

mo guan shan: no.

Words to describe facial expressions

Absent: preoccupied 

Agonized: as if in pain or tormented

Alluring: attractive, in the sense of arousing desire

Appealing: attractive, in the sense of encouraging goodwill and/or interest

Beatific: blissful

Black: angry or sad, or hostile

Bleak: hopeless

Blinking: surprise, or lack of concern

Blithe: carefree, lighthearted, or heedlessly indifferent

Brooding: anxious and gloomy

Bug eyed: frightened or surprised

Chagrined: humiliated or disappointed

Cheeky: cocky, insolent

Cheerless: sad

Choleric: hot-tempered, irate

Darkly: with depressed or malevolent feelings

Deadpan: expressionless, to conceal emotion or heighten humor

Despondent: depressed or discouraged

Doleful: sad or afflicted

Dour: stern or obstinate

Dreamy: distracted by daydreaming or fantasizing

Ecstatic: delighted or entranced

Faint: cowardly, weak, or barely perceptible

Fixed: concentrated or immobile

Gazing: staring intently

Glancing: staring briefly as if curious but evasive

Glazed: expressionless due to fatigue or confusion

Grim: fatalistic or pessimistic

Grave: serious, expressing emotion due to loss or sadness

Haunted: frightened, worried, or guilty

Hopeless: depressed by a lack of encouragement or optimism

Hostile: aggressively angry, intimidating, or resistant

Hunted: tense as if worried about pursuit

Jeering: insulting or mocking

Languid: lazy or weak

Leering: sexually suggestive

Mild: easygoing

Mischievous: annoyingly or maliciously playful

Pained: affected with discomfort or pain

Peering: with curiosity or suspicion

Peeved: annoyed

Pleading: seeking apology or assistance

Quizzical: questioning or confused

Radiant: bright, happy

Sanguine: bloodthirsty, confident

Sardonic: mocking

Sour: unpleasant

Sullen: resentful

Vacant: blank or stupid looking

Wan: pale, sickly

Wary: cautious or cunning

Wide eyed: frightened or surprised

Withering: devastating

Wrathful: indignant or vengeful

Wry: twisted or crooked to express cleverness or a dark or ironic feeling

drunk he tian: *crying*

mo guan shan: hey, asshole, why do you look so fucked up?

he tian: you know, little mo, i have a dream, and so often it seems to me that it will never come true.

mo guan shan: what kind of dream is this if you can't make it happen?

he tian: i want you to wanna kiss me so bad that you don't even ask. or ask. it doesn't really matter. i just want you to wanna kiss me. i want you to love me. i want to be with you. but... you don't want to. so now i'm drunk and crying.

mo guan shan: i can't fucking believe it. did you ask me, huh? maybe... maybe i want to, too.

he tian: well... no? do you wanna kiss me?

mo guan shan: fuck yeah.

he tian: *crying even more while they're kissing*