What Is This Experience?

When you have a life, you have to do something with it.

When you are life, what do you have to do?

It is simply unfolding.

~ Mooji

hii!! so, i really understand nd! the only thing im stuck on is how to deal with intense emotions, because it messes the character up so much, like when "I" start feeling insecure, and worrying and it just feels so painful and distressing and yeah... any "tips" ? thx :)

Insecurities are caused by what we think other people will think of us, but that is all a creation of the mind. Remember that your insecurities and worries are only in the mind, not in reality. Come back to reality (which says nothing), come back to the present moment.

I stepped away from tumblr for a while to really seek my Self fully and put into practice what I knew because I was tired of constantly re-identifying with the body. You can’t experience it a few times and ruminate over it 10x more than you experience. It’s only simple when you experience, NOT when you think about it. You have to experience it as many times as you need until it becomes your permanent identification instead of getting swayed by the body/mind again. So anyway I started doing guided meditations to release emotions first. Now I don’t really feel the need to do a guided meditation I can just acknowledge and release an emotion as soon as it comes up. Now I am more so focused on abiding in Self, consistently returning home, because when you return to your Self all the emotions and thoughts leave, even if just for a split second. Now when I start getting invested in storylines I’ll automatically snap out of the hypnosis and it’ll go quiet lol. And even when my mind doesn’t automatically go silent, I can just consciously observe it being noisy. It’s funny when you step back and observe, you realize the mind is like a tape recorder, just looping the same thoughts again and again, usually about the past or the future. When you realize the thoughts are just an observation and you are the observer, it really sounds ridiculous, like a broken record. Remember the end goal is complete surrender and death of personal identity.

Hey;)

If you don't mind I wanna know how this seemingly reality works ik all this is illusion but my awareness behind it is controlling it right even if it doesn't feel so?? Whatever I decide happens but how are we deciding those things that it seems like we have no control over

Well you give consciousness life because when the body is seemingly unconscious you don’t experience anything. You are aware OF things in your consciousness, awareness doesn’t control it. It is something beyond both awareness and consciousness that is in control, called Brahman or the Supreme Reality but it is actually you. You believed thoughts that say you’re not in control so now not being in control is what you expect. Like if you’re a lucid dreamer you expect to be in control of your lucid dreams and that’s why you are.

How did you used to keep reminding yourself that you're "   ". How long did it take to reidentify with yourself from the character's perspective? Would love to hear your experience

It’s not a conscious reminder like an affirmation, it’s more like an automatic snap back into reality after remembering you are the consciousness projecting everything. Reidentification is instant as soon as you see what you are, it’s not a gradual process. The process is how long you can HOLD the identity. We will all eventually have full devotion to Self, it’s the ending of the game. I am at the phase where I still have a knee-jerk reaction of identifying with some thoughts but I have the permanent background of Self that I can always fall back into.

I think it’s way easier to fall into identification with the mind than the body, because it’s subtler and not something you can physically touch, but the “voice in your head” and images you get are still something you observe and not you. Thoughts should be treated as objects just like everything else you observe.

Earlier I was feeling anxious while out in public and I silently asked myself “who is anxious?” and I realized no one was there to be anxious, and I felt calm. The rest of the time while I was out, the person blended into the background, it was just part of the scenery. Emotions may arise, but they are happening to no one. Events may arise, but they are happening to no one.

Heyy, I recently found your blog and found your posts very helpful :) and I was wondering if you could help me with something

I’ve been trying to get rid of my attachment with the ego now for about two weeks and I feel like I’ve made good progress. I know there’s no trying required since we’re already “that”, but I’ve seen other bloggers say to do it until self becomes your natural state. I can now be a witness to the ego and look down on my body knowing that’s not me. Kinda like an out of body experience. so I see the body typing this and doubting while knowing that’s not me. Though, Whenever I’m the witness, I don’t feel peace, instead I still feel the doubt that the ego has. So I’m just wondering if I’m experiencing self when I witness the body but still feel the feeling of doubt.

Sorry if this was confusing but thanks in advance!!

You’re always experiencing Self regardless of whether you’re feeling peaceful or doubtful because every emotion is Self. With that being said, there’s nothing wrong with striving for inner peace but don’t get so caught up in it that it has the opposite effect.

No reason to stop living life

Y’all just because you discovered ND doesn’t mean you have to stop “living your life” and do nothing. Go follow your dreams, you can have a career or go to college or be a scuba diver idc, you don’t have to spend all day trying to figure your Self out (a mistake I made) because you’re always your Self regardless of what you do or don’t do. Don’t be afraid to take risks and do whatever you’ve always wanted to do. We’re here for a reason (at least I believe that), let’s live a little 🤪

I think it’s easy to get into the doomer/nihilist mindset when you take anything too seriously lol

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Yeah but I don’t really get your explanation.. so rn you’re reading my answer but it’s not a person reading it’s just Brahman reading Brahman ??

Exactly, but “reading” is a concept

"You've been somebody long enough. You spent the first half of your life becoming somebody. Now you can work on becoming nobody, which is really somebody. For when you become nobody there is no tension, no pretense, no one trying to be anyone or anything. The natural state of the mind shines through unobstructed - and the natural state of the mind is pure love."

-Ram Dass

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