I'm Sorry.

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐔

"𝐈𝐟 𝐈 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐨?"

'To heal, it takes time. May be soon or not, I just hope you find yourself along the way'

Prologue

Prim stares at the message she woke up to, there was nothing official in the first place yet she had caught feelings along the way. The journey that they shared was sweet while it lasted, but I guess people drift apart to the point they start to realize things they usually didn't realize when they were younger.

Maybe she could play Genshin to ignore the emptiness she feels, how she feels like she went back to her pre-quarantine self who feels pain and nothing.

Or maybe, she could just try to heal and think of what she feels.

But she feels nothing, ever since things kept happening, she continued to feel nothing anymore. The emotions, they're there. Yet she comes home, feeling nothing but a void of emptiness.

She decides to play Genshin, she's trying to fix Kaeya's build anyway. Awfully regretting she didn't level up Beidou's talents yesterday as well but she decides to let it be first, she needs to focus on Kaeya for the meantime before Beidou, then Kazuha, then Xiao.

TEYVAT AWAITS YOU, CREATOR!

Wait until 00:00 (The Next Day) before heading to Mondstadt

Prim blinks, thinking of it as just a new quest as she decides to do that after finishing her comms. She needs the primogems after all.

"alright, I guess I should do that quest"

She mumbles, even if she wanted to finish her Raiden Shogun Quest where she battles La Signora or Rosalyne. Yet her characters aren't built properly yet, it's like heading straight for suicide.

It wouldn't hurt to do another quest that isn't the Raiden Shogun's, yes?

Oh, how those were her last words in the real world.

Welcome to Teyvat, Creator! Are you ready to heal and create new memories?

In this quest you wish to heal the emptiness and to gain your emotions back, Teyvat hopes that we can help you as much as you helped us. By helping Traveller find their twin without giving up despite the others not being much of help, Traveller and Paimon will help you in your journey as much as you helped them.

Will you let us help the way you help us, Your Excellency?

As the start of my first SAGAU Series, I will take this as my way of healing. Whether it helps you heal too or not, it's okay. I just want to pour my feelings out, for every pain and numbness to be written so when I look back, I can be glad that I'm still here and made my way into healing.

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

"𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫."

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧: 𝐑𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐞

It felt as if this moment feels right.

As if dancing with him was just what she needed.

Albedo decides to slowly spin her, it wasn't fast or too fancy. It's just a simple slow dance together, no fancy movements or elegant steps.

As like every song does, the dance comes to an end. Albedo and Prim were left gazing into each other's eyes, it was comfortable.

"If I knew any better, I'd be convinced you're a prince."

Prim laughs, scratching her nape.

God, why did I say that? It feels awkward now.

And of course, my mind flashes back to when I believed Prince Charming from Cinderella was real when I was a young girl.

God, I hope this ground swallows me whole.

Albedo softly chuckles, Prim's eyes widen and her cheeks felt warm.

It's...a pleasant sound. Has he ever laughed like this in game?

I...can't remember.

"Well, I can tell you that I am not. However..."

He gently tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear.

"I could be, if that's what you desire."

He says smoothly, smiling sweetly at her. Prim feels her cheeks turn too warm.

This man and his fucking rizz istg—

As the morning sun rises, Prim eats breakfast with Kaeya and Diluc.

"Albedo wants to meet up with you, Your Grace."

Kaeya says right off the bat, Prim eats her pasta as she tucks her hair behind her ear because short-hair-that-can't-be-tied-struggles.

"Oh? What for?"

Prim asks as she swallows the pasta, Diluc is eating his food quietly as always. The three eating together sure remind Adelinde of a sibling dynamic.

"Just mentioned a classified request, that's all."

Kaeya says, eyeing Prim with a smirk as she eats her pasta unbotheredly.

"Unless he's asking you out on a date?"

Kaeya teases, Prim chokes on her pasta, Diluc and Adelinde immediately hand her water and pat her back. Prim coughs for a bit as she covers her mouth with her hand before drinking water and clearing her throat.

"Oh no, no, no, no."

Prim awkwardly laughs, Kaeya raises a brow at how...tense Prim's body language is.

She softly says before eating again, Kaeya's gaze never left her while Diluc tells Kaeya to just eat.

"I better hope it's not that."

"You seem uncomfortable with the fact that someone could like you."

Kaeya says, the room went quiet. Diluc tries to tell Kaeya off before Prim gazes at Kaeya coldly, it certainly shocked the two as Prim never really gave that stare before.

One thing for sure, they're gonna avoid angering her again.

"I believe that's a private matter, Alberich. While admiration is something I do not mind, making assumptions is one thing I dislike."

I'm making a Leon bot and apparently, MOTHERFUCKER KEEPS TELLING ME I'M NOT DELULU.

Istg, this man just likes to bully me.

deep respect for you, my dude. That's a real friend right there.

My friend got pregnant at 17. Deeply religious family (she would be kivked out if they found out), one night stand, she just could NOT have the baby. Thing is we live in a country where abortion is illegal. Our only option was to illegally buy some pills online and hope they worked and we didnt go to jail

But these are hecking expensive and we needed to rush

So i set up a twitter/fb/insta/furaffinity/etc account and advertised my furry art EVERYWHERE. Im not that good but i said id draw basically anything no matter how weird (not cub art or anything illegal). I got a lot of weird coms (vore, scat, inflation and some i dont even understand) and for two weeks i did nothing but draw weird shit all day. My hand hurt so bad, but i got the money.

We spent a week afraid we'd been scammed and afraid we'd get caught, then a weekend afraid my friend might die once we did the procedure in my house. But it worked

I never told her how i got the money and i never will. Id rather die than tell her i funded her illegal abortion by drawing the wolf from robin hood swallowing robin through his belly button. Im pretty sure she thinks i was a prostitute for those two weeks and id rather her think that

To this day i gift her condoms on her bd as a joke bc im never doing that again

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What's Updog?

Was wondering how to reintroduce Nyx and the idea of making some small comics again. Settled on this old idea, because it defines them so well

Reblogs are appreciated!

i'd rather seduce heizou 🥰

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

"𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐞'𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐰𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐝𝐨"

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐅𝐨𝐮𝐫: 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐑𝐚𝐠𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐬

The longer the fight goes on, the more the monsters attack them. Prim is slowly getting a hang of her ability, yet she feels something wrong whenever she uses it. Kaeya and Diluc are the offense, protecting her every weak spot while she covers theirs.

It was like a dance only the three of them could perform, no one can ever attempt to recreate it the way the three of them could.

How every strike, dodge and block could only resemble a dance. How even Pyro and Cryo seem to fit the other so well, how it's like they both could fuse and create a beautiful scene.

How Prim's every summon of her ability, how every step and move she makes could easily cover their weak spots. How she somehow completed the dance, how it seems like a dance that'll never end.

"Well that's a job well done"

Kaeya says as they finish wiping out the monsters for the night, unsheathing his sword as he then looks at Prim. Seeing her gently hold her hands together as it starts to shake.

I must've used too much

She keeps quiet as she tries to ignore the pain of her shaking hands, Diluc checks if there's anyone preparing to attack them with their guard down as he then notices Prim's shaking hands.

He then remembered a prophecy from the Cathedral, one that no one could ever forget nor even miss a single detail from the book in the library.

'The Creator preferred peace over war, she hated the fact there will be sides chosen. Battling one another and hurting everyone in the process, leaving nothing but trauma in their heads as they never try to heal it. How they ignore their pain as they strive for non-existent victory. Her abilities are strong, but she never had the thought of using it against anyone. Afraid that she could hurt someone in the process, ruin their lives and she'd blame herself for hurting the beautiful creation.'

Prim feels hands hold over her shaking hands, it was Diluc and Kaeya. One is looking at her with a worried glance while the other softly smiles at her.

"Let's get you back inside, Your Grace"

They softly say in unison, Prim's hands are holding Diluc and Kaeya's. She walks in the middle as they peacefully walk back to Dawn Winery, her hands are still shaking, but with the help of their visions. It somehow eases a bit of the pain.

The walk was silent, yet none of them mind it. The soft breeze of the wind, the moon shining upon them and the peace of the night is enough for them to enjoy this moment together.

. . .

Somehow, the maids have noticed one thing. Their masters, Kaeya and Diluc, are always with Prim, the Creator. The three of them each have different personalities yet it feels natural, as if the Creator had always been there with them. Kaeya being the talkative smooth talker, Prim being soft spoken but will be sassy when needed while Diluc gives a few comments here and there and just listens to the conversation.

Somehow, the Winery became lively. It also warmed their hearts that Kaeya and Diluc still do banters but more of a sibling one, they can't help but thank the Creator for making them reconcile again even if Prim did nothing for that to happen.

"The Festival is in a week, is everything prepared?"

Prim softly asks as she takes a sip of her juice while Kaeya hums and Diluc quietly eats his meal.

"Yes, all that needs is for you and Venti to do some intermission practices together. A duet he says"

"I see..."

Then the conversation changes.

"You know, I heard that Master Diluc smiles more when we're here."

"Oh, quit it."

Diluc softly says but no malice is behind the tone, causing Kaeya to smile genuinely and Prim's heart feels warm. She wants to cry in happiness.

They're making up...

I'm so happy...

As the three continue to banter during breakfast, the Winery is filled with warmth and happiness. The atmosphere turns into a lively one.

I know I said I'd write the upcoming chapters for "Still With You" and possibly publish the drafted series I have in mind BUT

Everyone knows SAGAU, yes?

I've read them and possibly kind of got my mind think that everytime I play Genshin, they're real sentient beings so each time they die, get hurt or if I need yo remove their artifacts to enhance the other's artifacts, I apologize to them.

I realized that in SAGAU (not the Impostor AU) it's basically like Religion with the way they worship you as "The Creator".

Most of what I write (which is ironic cause I do have plenty of drafts that I don't publish in fear people will judge me like they did back then) consists of self-indulgent or self-insert cause I can't make a character without giving them a part of me so when I write them, I can relate to them.

Which is why Y/N or x Reader is hard for me to write since I'm used to writing a personality I already know or have decided but you do you for those who write it!

So where was I?

If in SAGAU they worship you like a Religion, I just realized if I were to be in SAGAU. I'd have a hard time because I basically find it uncomfortable about Religion talks despite growing up in a household who teaches you about Religion and needing to be Pure and Clean.

If any of my OCs were to be in SAGAU as well, they wouldn't like it to be treated as Royalty. Yes, it's a dream come true to be in Genshin but all the worshipping could sometimes just turn you off.

They can worship you but not too much or just hold it in when with said OC or Creator, it sometimes gets uncomfortable but maybe that's just my perspective and opinion.

Yet I'm also itching to write SAGAU, with twin OCs. Thoughts?

i am looking disrespectfully

My genshin team basically

we need more content about diluc and kaeya being absolutely feral as children. they'd wrestle on a nearly daily basis. sometimes it was born out of an actual fight but most times it was just for fun. they'd be bored out of their minds and look at each other from across the room and a mutual understanding would pass over them that they just need to battle to the death right now. diluc could overpower him in strength and weight but kaeya has always been better at strategies and dirty tricks (pulling his hair, tickling, biting his arm really hard)