Someonefromtheunderworld - LJ_is_dying

and not to keep going on about this but I had a mate give me a suggestion of something I could take to make it easier and calm my anxiety and of course I didn't say it to his face or deliberately be a dick or anything but how do I explain that it's not just anxiety, it's everything. it's the loud noises, it's constant hot then cold then hot then cold, it's the fact that carrying baggage just drains me, the fact I feel restricted by the multiple layers I have on to save bag space, the fact that I always feel scared something's gonna go wrong, it's the feeling in my head and body when actually getting up into the air and landing. it's everything. and I know a lot of this could be solved if I just took better precautions or whatever but it right now in this moment it makes me want to burst into tears and throw up and will continue like that until I'm home. I just hate flying.

I am once again reminded why I loathe flying with basically my entire being. it's such an awful experience and I struggle with it so so much. it doesn't help that the last time I flew, it was one of the most awful experiences flying I've had and has left me with lingering memories and flashes that always make me want to burst into tears every time I remember. there's no real point to this, just that I hate flying, it absolutely fucking sucks and I can't wait til I get home so I can burst into tears, hug my family, pet my cat, eat a homecooked meal and pass out for the following 72 hrs. fuck flying. :(((

u ever in such a bad mood u feel urself turning evil?

reblog if you see your kink:

♡hair pulling

♡having financial stability

♡choking

♡recycling

♡bondage

♡saving the bees

♡role playing

♡having a healthy sleep schedule

I love that feeling when friends/family listen to your infodumps and kinda smile and nod along and basically just engage. it makes my heart go :)

I'm 99% I'm about to have a meltdown or am currently experiencing one because I want to scream and cry and hit something and hurt myself and everything is going wrong and feels wrong and I can't breathe and I'm scared I'm going to lash out at my friends even though I don't want to and they haven't done anything wrong and I feel so guilty for just feeling angry at them even though I haven't even said or done anything to them as of yet and I just feel so guilty for just being angry and for experiencing a meltdown and I'm so scared of being mean and angry and hurting them and I'm scared of them seeing me like this cause it's not pretty or easy and it's not fair on them having to deal with it and be around me while I'm like this but nothing is helping and I'm scared, so so scared and one of my friends (who is on the waiting list for an autism assessment and has an autistic sibling) told me they don't see autism as a disability but as a gift but it really doesn't feel like it, especially right now (and in fact this entire week) when i feel like this because omfg is it fucking agonising. I can't even put into words how much it physically hurts and aches and I hate it and I hate that because I'm lower support needs people think it doesn't affect me as much or that it isn't so difficult as to my detriment as if it doesn't affect and impair all parts of my fucking life.

Cardinal Copia and his silly little jumps and dance moves, reblog if you agree.

it’s so nutty watching urself develop like catching urself react differently than u previously would’ve and be like woah.. cunts maturing? go on then

Reblog to have something lgbt happen to you this summer

reblog if you love women

If sexual activity between same-gender people became illegal, the police would be the ones enforcing those laws.

That's why police are not welcome at Pride. Pride is for unconditional supporters, not for those who would become enemies as soon as they're ordered to.