A Quick Summary Of The Last 16 Months

if u told me marichat would be canon at some point during the show 10 year old me would explode

When their daughter was born, Tak and Gaz were the happiest they could be.

Then others decided they could take her away.

And somehow, through all that stress and anxiety and grief, I arrive.

I’m exhausted as all hell. And I wonder if going through all that pain was even worth it, but I made it.

Okay, I don’t know where I’m going with this but I feel like I have to write this for some reason

I remember when I was a teenager and kept insisting to my parents that there was something wrong with me because I couldn’t make myself study or do homework when I should and I was so stressed and anxious because I kept procrastinating, they kept telling me that I just need to train myself.

They compared it to a car engine for some reason, saying that when a car hasn’t been driven for a long time and you try to drive it, there are issues with the engine running, but if you drive it everyday then it runs smoothly. And that it was the same way with motivation and productivity, apparently.

Then I finally got diagnosed with ADHD

And somehow they have either forgotten or brushed aside all the times they’ve scolded me and argued with me, and now they are saying, “But you were able to do it! You should be proud!”

Colors + stars

Shifty was faced with his worst nightmare; he was back in the hands of scientists. He turned into his mind for solace; remembering a past that had changed his life for the better.

thinking about Good Omens 2. and stories, and the shape of them, and Terry Pratchett and his themes. and something clicked.

Aziraphale is cackling.

it's not just the ball. he spends the entire season trying to force the story into a shape it's not, and everyone suffers for it.

i've seen some less than charitable takes on Crowley's actions and they all ignore how much Crowley did try to talk to Aziraphale, did try to ask Aziraphale questions, did try to help, only to be ignored or brushed off. because his questions, his offers, they didn’t fit with the story Aziraphale was telling himself.

quiet, gentle, and romantic. it was, if you're our favorite Angel - right up until the end, at least. because he decided that's the story he was in. from the very beginning, he's off in la-la land, living out this romcom with a cute little mystery wrapped up in it, completely ignoring what's actually going on around him. i'll set Nina and Maggie up! (completely ignoring that Nina tells him she has a partner, and at that point, he has no reason to think she's anything less than happy.) i'll take ~our~ car to go do investigate this silly little mystery (he's not taking it even a little bit seriously!) while you stay here and run the bookshop and it will be so quaint and domestic! soon we'll dance and confess our feelings that we obviously share because we're already so clearly a couple we just need to finally say it!

Crowley knows the entire time that they're in a horror story but Aziraphale ignores every attempt he makes to point that out because it doesn't fit the story he decided he's in the middle of.

he brushes off Crowley's concerns and questions - his QUESTIONS! - like they're nothing. he doesn't want to see it, so he doesn't. and Crowley should have told him more?

why would he?

when you are CLEARLY in distress and it's being BLATANTLY AND WILLFULLY IGNORED, what the fuck are you supposed to do? "Crowley didn't comminicate" well okay if I were having a panic attack about something and my husband completely ignored it, chattering on about our dinner plans or whatever, that wouldn’t exactly make me want to open up about what was wrong! that would send the very fucking clear signal that he didn't want to know!

words aren't the only way we communicate and Crowley's body language, the entire season, is that of someone who is living in a horror story, knows he's living in a horror story, and is fucking terrified. if Aziraphale were paying any attention to Crowley instead of focusing all his energy trying to set things up just so for the big climax of his love story, he would know something major was wrong.

why would Crowley have told him how cruel Gabriel was about the execution when Aziraphale's already so thoroughly convinced that heaven is pure and good and has shown over and over through the millennia that he's not really open to considering that it can be cruel!

just look at them at the dance. Crowley freaking out because there's a horde of demons out there and Aziraphale giggling as they go to dance. that's the whole season!

you know who Crowley reminds me of this season?

he's watching helplessly and with increasing levels of distress as Aziraphale shoves every plot point into the romcom hole even though it's obviously not remotely romcom shaped! and i'm sick of people saying he was abusive because he raises his voice about it a few times!

Behold! This extremely messy sketch of Near!

Near and his friends :,)