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Imagine flying around there
Looking out at Emerald Bay sitting on Parson Rock.
THIS THIS THIS.
THOS OS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL
Identity can be fluid
Recently thinking about my theriotypes and some of them no longer feel like me, I feel disconnected. Some of them brought me alot of comfort or felt fitting for a period of time. Sometimes I think as phycological therian that my brain will adopt identities for a period of time and used them for a purpose or reason but then move on once I no longer need it. I hope this makes sense, does anyone else get this? ( I'm still and always will be a therian and some of my Theriotypes are very much perminent fixtures and others aren't it just depends)
👋 hello! This is my new account, I'm Freddy, AKA tontoemojis / animatronicthing / animatronicfreak on Discord. I just wanted to address all that has happened in the past month! Apologies if my english isn't good or my explanations aren't the best, I just wanted to share my thoughts & my side of the story now that I am in a better place to talk. First of all, I assume my private DMs have already been leaked, so I will leak some from my side too! Just to include proof, of course. Second, this will be a long long long post, careful!
I will go through all the points of the list of "things Freddy has done".
First point. If we remember, I am schizophrenic, this can lead into me having big delusions such as me believing I am a god, god of my own world. Now, I never forced anyone into treating me like a god / referring to me as a god! I believed Iggy & me had a dynamic of god / servant, but I never truly believed he was my literal servant, just a dynamic. & !!! my poor poor victim was calling me a god every time he could, drawing me as the god of the sun & practically worshiping me, as he said various times. I never forced this onto Iggy nor did I ever get upset if he didn't "worship" me because I didn't need anyone to worship me, as I had said before, "I was not the type of god that would like people worshiping me".
Second point. For this I have to remark that we are both 16yo teenagers, I would get it if I was like 5 years older than him, then the whole thing would be different, but we are less than 20 days apart. I can see how the dynamic of deity & worshiper can be unhealthy if handled wrong, or done by mentally ill minors (like us). I understand the mistake here & I am sorry for that.
Iggy seemed to really like our dynamic from what he told me almost every week though, so I thought I had green light to keep our dynamic goint.
Third point. Not true! We were in an old server called Bangerville that has now since been deleted, so I don't have any solid proof to this other than my words. I do have proof of our old conversation with Iggy's old account though. CW for sexual stuff ⬇. In this server, Iggy was showing off his new OC named Julius & I really liked him, I drew him & from what I remember; Iggy told the people to DM him if they wanted to know more facts about him, & I DMed him, & Iggy started with the NSFW, not me!
Partially not true. I did draw porn of Iggy & me, yes, but it was all with consent, while that doesn't make it less weird in your eyes, it was with consent. + Iggy really liked it from what he constantly told me everytime I drew him, with & without sexual intent.
Fifth. I couldn't find any proof that I ever said "I will hurt myself if you are not with me / leave me" in our DMs, so I will guess this is also false. I probably did imply in some of our conversations that I relied on Iggy for emotional support (because that is what partners do???? Help each other out & be there for emotional support?????), but not completely.
Sixth, while in the list it says "detailed bulge" K9 accused me of drawing my brother's Roblox avatar with an erection, an erection. The drawing & the references are here:
if you tell me THAT is an erection then you haven't seen a man in underwear or a bodybuilder in your life. Because that is not a fucking erection & y'all are acting crazy! It could be seen as a detailed bulge, yes, but I have said before to K9, I just copied the image. You guys are overreacting & acting as if I drew porn of my literal brother.
In the group chat K9 & the others made with me, they just told me how it seemed I was fetishizing fat people by drawing my fat OC in just sexual light (which is simply not true). They didn't tell me how they really felt about my OC.
This is the character we are talking about. His name is Bonnie & I've had him since 6th grade. He is a monster that uses his human appearance to lure men & then eat them alive. His nature is being an asshole, basically.
A) I genuinely cannot see how he is a "black caricature", I would like to hear how he is stereotypical / a caricature, because I simply cannot see it. B) Why can't my fat character be sexualized? Are fat people not allowed to be sexual just as much as skinny people? is it because I'm bodily skinny? & if that is the case, why can't skinny people have fat sexualized OCs? I don't get it. Also, the sexualization in question was me drawing Bonnie topless (apparently big tits are sexual now!) & that last drawing of him mentioning a vibrator, that was all the "sexualization" they are talking about.
again, the sexualized pieces were Bonnie topless & the drawing of him mentioning a vibrator. Yes, I should have put a higher age limit to my server due to various reasons other than these, that is very true & I appreciated that K9 & the others brought it up to me. I didn't appreciate that they raided my whole server while I was asleep, though.
While I apologized for this already, it got included in the list & I don't know why. But again, I apologize for it once more, I spoke over minorities & I understand my mistake.
ouch! I mean... I have narcissistic traits, which means I have a harder time taking criticism, I often think people are attacking me whenever they criticize me, & that's on me & me only, they are right. I will be better next time.
This is just false, like, blatantly false. I couldn't find a single message of me defending proshippers to Iggy in our DMs, nor do I remember ever doing that. This actually surprised me because when a proshipper joined my server I was the 1st one to go running to Iggy's DMs screaming "THEY'RE A PROSHIPPER!!!".
when all of this went down, I was in a bad mental state & Iggy knew this. When I get overwhelmed (& I did get overwhelmed in the situation) it is hard for me to understand some things. I don't see how having somebody else to explain the situation to me in a more simple way is bad. I felt attacked, true. & if you count saying "I love you" to someone as praising them, then yeah, I was constantly being "praised" by Iggy while this situation went down, but I promise you I would've lived without all of those "I love you"s.
Begging? begging. Also the people were asking for an Iggy appreciation channel, not a channel just for Iggy. Also also I would love to hear which other horrible behaviors I had because of my NPD!
I don't know if Iggy liked those jokes genuinely, or if when he said stuff like "LIKE DUDE WHEN YOU WERE CALLING ME A LAZY ASS I WAS LITERALLY LIKE (emoji of yellow guy in a puddle)" he was lying to me, but I guess he did lie. I would have never ever called him any of that if I knew he didn't like it, I went on with it because I thought he was genuinely comfortable with those jokes made about him because he told me that everytime I made a joke like that & thought he was mad at me, he was just "turned on" (his words, not mine).
I did ask him to be my "caregiver", yes, but in this situation I saw being a caregiver as being a normal partner; helping each other out when needed, understanding each other's needs & know how to fulfill them. I did tell Iggy whenever I felt bad & wanted to relapse, & I guess that's on me for thinking my partner could help me deal with hard thoughts I had regularly, because you know, partners are there to help each other out.
& what about you K9? do you not have a channel made just to shit talk the people in your server, where your staff has told repeatedly other people to "jump" or harm themselves? I've seen it, I've been staff in your server for a while, you know. That's all the list, sorry I couldn't add any more images; I reached the limit. They've also told the people how I "used Iggy sexually". Which just hurts me deep in my soul, because I loved him with my whole heart, & hearing how he tells everyone that I "used" him just shows me how he never really saw everything I did for him. I drew him almost everyday, I made him gifts, I helped him whenever he felt he was going to relapse, I gave him my money so he could pay his medicines, I WAS PLANNING TO GO TO SWEDEN JUST TO SEE HIM. It is true he sent me sexual content, but I sent him the same sexual content he sent me. I thought we were in an equal relationship, but I guess we weren't & he never told me anything he was thinking. I've done things wrong, yes, but I didn't deserve my private things to be thrown to the world like this. I don't hope bad things happen to neither Iggy or K9 & the server, I just hope the universe gives you what you deserve.
OMFG THIS.
like it's to the point where I dislike folks using they/them for me. Because I know they still see me as fem. And it's annoying as fuck
*Did something I've noticed
Edit: I KNOW that every other perceivable identity also gets they/themed. This was a personal take of a previous post I had seen. I know that he/she , conforming trans ppl , cis people , and many others get disrespected in this way every day. Please understand that I understand. This was for me and my friend's identities I see severely underrepresented.
remember kids
Artist 🎨: @vhsdogs
God the ppl running US are fucking pathetic it's not funny anymore.
lil doodle from the other day born out of an overwhelming annoyance that for some reason body hair is associated with masculinity despite Everyone Having It. so why not draw a cute hairy girl about it
[image description: a drawing of a tan-skinned woman with brown and blond dyed hair pulled into a ponytail and copious body hair and stubble. she is smiling and doing a peace sign gesture with her hand. next to her is text saying "body hair has no gender!" end id]
Quick reminder that you shouldn’t be requesting our using symbols or emojis or “slang words” that are AAVE, especially if you didn’t grow up in a black community.
The black community’s culture is actively being stolen from us everyday despite still facing heavy racism, this includes our words, such as AAVE, which we have faced enormous backlash from non-black creators when it comes to asking people to limit their usage of it
As one of few black aac and emoji creators we have seen a lot of ignorance and racism within the community, therefore i highly recommend listening to your local POC individuals when they tell you to stop doing, saying or using something
Please do your own research and respect other cultures.
Thank you,
Murderscene
Fellas... I need to look like cowboy boy dog dog thing man beast 😞
This is so real.
Especially when it comes to my space and my items and things that I have. Like you take my stuff, I'll bite you no joke.
Territorial Insticts + alterhumanity
i think a lot of alterhuman folks experience territorial instincts in ways that don’t always get talked about. especially if your identity includes predatory, wild, or socially protective species, such as canids, felines, dragons, etc. some of us might feel a deep need to claim space. not in a metaphorical way, but like. this is mine. this is my room, my den, my person, my pack. this is my corner of the internet. don’t touch it. don’t look at it too long. i’ll bite.
and it’s not always aggressive, it can be protective, affectionate. we make a space safe for the people we care about. we guard it. we watch.
for some of us it’s instinctual. for some it’s tied up in trauma, being displaced, growing up in unsafe environments, feeling like we never had a space that was truly ours. alterhumanity can make that ache sharper, more specific.
i guard things. food, objects, spaces, people. it’s not symbolic, it’s instinct. it’s like something clicks in my brain and suddenly whatever it is becomes mine. not in a selfish way, but in a protective, possessive, defensive kind of way. like: this is important. this is sacred. this is part of my territory. don’t touch it. don’t fuck with it. don’t even get too close unless you’re trusted.
sometimes it’s my room. sometimes it’s a person i love. sometimes it’s a hoodie i’ve worn every day for two weeks. sometimes it’s leftover food in the fridge that my brain has decided i’ll starve without. sometimes it’s not even rational, it’s instinctual. animal. primal.
it makes so much sense to me through the lens of psychological therianthropy, the creature in me doesn’t separate emotional connection from territorial instinct. if i love you, i’ll guard you. if something is mine, it’s not just an object, it’s part of my den. part of my hoard. part of myself.
and it’s also tangled up with my bpd [ suspected ], fear of abandonment, attachment issues, identity instability. my territory gives me shape. it tells me who i am. if someone crosses into it without permission, it doesn’t just feel like a boundary violation, it feels like a threat to my existence. it feels like my identity is bleeding. it feels like i’m going to lose something i can’t replace.
territoriality can be violent, but it can also be soft. i’ll sit by the door while you sleep. i’ll remember exactly how you take your tea. i’ll patch up your jacket and fold it so it smells like you again. i’ll bark at anything that looks at you wrong.
for me, being alterhuman means having instincts i can’t always explain, but i feel them in my bones. and territoriality is one of the loudest ones. it’s not always easy to live with, but it makes me who i am.
I LOVE THIS PICREW SM
And having a banjo would be the most awesome
FELLAS THERE ARE MASKS!!
LETS MAKE TAG GAME!!
Anyone who sees this is tagged!
all alterhumans let's go dancing and make music around fire in your picked outfit!!
🎶🐶🪇🦌🎻🐝🪈🐱🔥📯🐺🎷🐻🎺🐦🎸🦊
Rules:
make a picrew and add what will you play on!
(or if you don't wanna play on an instrument add what songs will you play 📻)
I swear if there ever will be some therian meeting I will come like this (but with a bumblebee mask)
my tags: @itsapollothething + anyone!!
// Vent
I will never be seen as an actual guy.
I wont be loved as a guy
I'm too scared to talk to people and when I do I seem to fuck it up.
2hat the fuck is wrong with me
This shit honestly pisses me off.
I don't even think I seem "attractive" at all. I'm envious, I'm not going to lie. I'm envious of my attractive friends who's been in relationships. And it pisses me off when "Oh I'm UglY as FuCk" like are you fucking serious?.
People has called you "cool" "attractive" multiple. Fucking. Times.
I wish someone could tell me I look cool. That I look handsome. And actually fucking mean it.
I wish I was one of those pretty boys, those badass looking transmen as well it's not fucking fair
sometimes being a therian is shitty.
sometimes i want to bite people. sometimes i want to run faster than i can physically. sometimes i want to curl up to sleep but cant because of my bones sometimes i want to growl and bark at strangers sometimes i need to be handled but theres no one to train me sometimes i need to be pat on the head soemtimes i need to be sniffing out bombs sometimes i need to be chasing the bad guy sometimes i need to be patrolling the house somtimes i need to bite my nails sometimes i need to chew on things somtimes i want to be seen as i am.
but i cant.
It's hilarious how some of these dumbasses say "it ain't that serious" to a lockdown drill..
Yeah. Guess it's not that serious unless you get your stupid ass shot.
My transition goals because seeing others are giving me ideas /pos
Hrt , Both gender and more body fur :3 and deeper voice for comfort and better vocals
Piercings , especially fangs!!
Building musckless 💪 to be more bear and strong creature
Lots of accessories and masks that makes me more cryptid
Dying my hair , to match the grass
Tattoos / or henna , to have patterns and my symbols
Top surgery
It's slightly annoying (not slightly, it is annoying)
How folks tells you or ask you to explain with details about your alterhumanity.
Especially when I join a nonhuman discord and they ask you to explain in details about it.
Like bud... I can barely form a coherent sentence sometimes. Words are so fucking difficult it's annoying.
Like me personally, I don't have a deep meaning in my kins, except for one or two (which are just my linktypes for coping)
But I'm literally just... A creature... That's it. That's all you need to know.
honestly.
I feel like I'm a shapeshifter, and would definitely be a shapeshifter.
Sometimes and some days,, I'd feel like a certain creature, feline, a mutt, cryptid, dragon, and a bird, and it just goes all over.
