This Blog May Contain Sensitive Content (its Me Im Sensitive)

I fought so hard in the past years for recovery and at some point I thought that I was getting better but now I hate my life even more than before and I don't know what to do anymore..

I'm strongly starting to believe that life isn't meant for me.

“I wanted to.. I wanted to tell you how much I’m hurting, how badly I just want it all to stop.. but all I could get out was “I’m fine” and force a smile. But I wanted you to see that I’m not really fine, I wanted you to take me into your arms and tell me it’ll all be okay while you rub my back, even if I don’t believe it.. I just want you to notice..”

— (J.A.L 5/5/17 10:45 pm)

I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

Sometimes it's just feels like I am a burden for everyone, even for myself

“Don’t be a fool. Don’t give up something important to hold onto someone who can’t even say they love you.”

— Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

Feeling unwanted changes you a lot.

i dont have the strength to recover. im going through the motions at this point. i gave up long ago, now i breathe because i dont know what else to do.