Thesemidnightthoughtss - Midnight Thoughts

Sometimes it's just feels like I am a burden for everyone, even for myself

If they act like they can live without you, let them

i wish you knew how bad it fucked me up

Happy Mental Health Day everyone

A part of suicidal ideation or self harm no one talks about is the numbness to the subject that comes with it. I sit and scroll through pages and pages of cries for help, suicide notes and plans and feel nothing. No worry, no concern, no crushing feeling in my chest. Nothing. Those familiar feelings are now replaced with a strange familiarity, a kind of comfort that it’s not just me.

Fuck. When did it get to this

Lately it’s getting really hard to think about how much others will hurt if I kill myself. I don’t wanna hurt anymore. I’m tired of living because I don’t want to cause pain to others. Who is thinking about how much living is destroying me.

*goes to sleep so I don’t kill myself*

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