“Nothing Better Than Memories, And There Is Nothing Worse Than Them.”

Some things break you so fucking bad that you spend the rest of your life wishing you hadn’t survived it. Because death would be better than the pain you have to live with everyday

me: *exists* me: this is too much

― Mieko Kawakami, Heaven

It’s always the people you would never want to hurt and care about so much that do the most fucked up shit to you.

“Just because someone hurts you doesn’t mean you can simply stop loving them. It’s not a person’s actions that hurt the most. It’s the love. If there was no love attached to the action, the pain would be a little easier to bear.”

— Colleen Hoover, It Ends with Us

I feel like I am not enough and too much at the same time

i dont have the strength to recover. im going through the motions at this point. i gave up long ago, now i breathe because i dont know what else to do.