Some Things Break You So Fucking Bad That You Spend The Rest Of Your Life Wishing You Hadn’t Survived

I don’t even want any of this, but I have to deal with all this failure which is a result of me being alive. And that just makes it a million times worse. I fail at everything, I can’t do one thing right. Yeah I failed but I don’t have the motivation or the will to work. I’m not being lazy. I just don’t know how to work towards anything when my end goal is to be dead

Can you please end this if you don’t want me? Because I can’t. I can’t do it. I won’t be able to forgive myself for ending it if we had a chance. And some part of me desperately clings to that tiny chance. Maybe it’s all in my head. I don’t know which it is. So please just do it. Because I can’t make sense of what you want anymore. It’s an earnest request, leave me if you want to.

Just put me out of my misery.

“I mean, sometimes remembering can really destroy you.”

— Benjamin Alire Sáenz

i am hurting very badly and i just want it to be over

“We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.”

— Eleanor Roosevelt

Bring up how people don’t reciprocate your energy and watch them guilt trip you for giving them things they “didn’t ask for.”

I hate myself so fucking much.

Everything and everyone would be so much better off if I wasn't here at all.

I will never have purpose, I will never deserve to live.

I shouldn’t still be here.

I don’t want to be.

I don’t want to be here anymore.