I don’t want to hurt people with my death
Instead I hurt myself with my existence
No amount of talking about it is going to make you love me. None of it will make you reply to me. No matter what I do to distract myself, it will not make a difference because you’re all I can think about all the damn time, each second of everyday.
I only want you, but you don’t want me.
I’m tired of feeling like I committed some sort of crime by falling for you. I’m tired of justifying my feelings. It just happened. And trust me, there’s nothing I want more than to not be in this situation because I know you’ll never feel the same way. I know how unwelcome I am your life. I’m aware that you don’t want me. But maybe I don’t owe an explanation to you or to myself. I feel the way I feel, I love you. I just fucking do.
Not knowing where this will lead scares me, but the thought of losing you scares me even more.
— Letters from S
You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy … because you understand them, and they do not understand you.
Daniel Saint
im so tired of just surviving and living day by day. will i ever get to be alive and live a life im actually proud of? or will i just endure this misery until i cant anymore?
People think that suicide is a choice and yes it is but right now it feels like the only fucking answer.