At the end of the day, it's still you alone with your blades while the people who hurt you so much live peacefully
And you're here, on this fucking app, trying to find comfort in people at least as destroyed as you are
how unfair is that ?
I relate.
The sexual tension between my skull and the wall is absolutely insane.
ouch being reminded you’re the biggest waste of space hurts
bpd is so unbearably lonely. you never feel like anyone loves you because they only care about the sanitized idea of you, the one you made up so people don't abandon you again. as soon as your messy symptoms show, suddenly you're not nearly as loveable. having bpd is to spend your whole life trying desperately to make yourself more palatable
"ill never leave you" liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar
Realizing that the ppl you make time for can’t find it in themselves to give you even a second of their time has gotta be like top 5 most heartbreaking things to happen
Sometimes I feel like I go above and beyond for people to make up for the fact that I’ll never be good enough and in hopes that it’ll distract them enough so they don’t notice and leave.
TW: lots of dark and uncomfy topics but if you're here that's probably what you're looking for ... I hope that someday we can both find a way to be ok.... I don't care what that way is.... whatever finally brings peace 20 years old
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