Thinking You're Being Overdramatic And Paranoid Over Nothing Only To Be Proven Completely Right Is Such

the feeling when you just wanna be alone and push everyone away so you could quietly kill yourself vrs the feeling of never wanting to be alone and just wanting to be held and told itll be okay even when it wont.

I just want to be important, too.

Theres nothing more disturbing than being self aware while you have severe mental illness. Like I’ll be breaking down, bleeding out, about to off myself and then remember that normal people don’t do this shit and any sane person would go to the damn hospital.

"u look tired" dawg i'm going insane

i know deep down i really am never going to make it, and this will end by my own hands

I'm literally in an abusive relationship with myself, I constantly belittle myself, and put myself in situations intentionally to be harmed.

Living with bpd means feeling like someone thrust their hand into your chest and ripped out your heart just because they looked at you wrong.