bpd is so unbearably lonely. you never feel like anyone loves you because they only care about the sanitized idea of you, the one you made up so people don't abandon you again. as soon as your messy symptoms show, suddenly you're not nearly as loveable. having bpd is to spend your whole life trying desperately to make yourself more palatable
why is everything so heavy and why do i have to feel so fucking hollow all the time.
They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time
i can’t do it anymore. i just want to give up on everything. i have nothing left to give.
~ Girls when they can never be as pretty as the others, no matter how hard they try ~
I am a masterpiece of contradictions: too much and not enough, fragile and fierce, desperate for love but terrified of it
bpd develops for a reason. don’t ever let anyone make you forget that.
you were hurt and had no one when you needed it most. you’ve been through so much pain and trauma. regardless of what the world sees you as, this was the way your brain decided to cope. this was the only way your brain knew how to survive and keep you alive to this point. you’re amazing and i’m proud of you
At the end of the day, it's still you alone with your blades while the people who hurt you so much live peacefully
And you're here, on this fucking app, trying to find comfort in people at least as destroyed as you are
how unfair is that ?
TW: lots of dark and uncomfy topics but if you're here that's probably what you're looking for ... I hope that someday we can both find a way to be ok.... I don't care what that way is.... whatever finally brings peace 20 years old
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