Im Only A Survivor Because Im Physically Here, I Was Killed In Every Other Way. Im Afraid I’ve Always

TW: Suicidal Idealation

Am I the only one who feels doomed to die young? Like, when I think about my future, the only thing that feels right is me dying young.

i can’t do it anymore. i just want to give up on everything. i have nothing left to give.

am i the abusive one?

am i the reason so many people leave?

i am arent i?

i’m the problem

i always have been the problem

i’ll always be the problem

The second I feel slightly better I'm like: "you never felt bad in the first place you're all faking it for attention, fuck you fake ass emo"

And then I feel stupid 🧍

And you broke me in all the ways I loved you.

It doesn't matter how far I've come, how hard I tried or how much I gave.

At the end of the day I'm just a sad little girl curled up on her bathroom floor wondering why she can't ever be someone's first choice.

Wondering why it never got better like they all said it would.

Quick sketch that I made (⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~

"ill never leave you" liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar

it seems impossible

And I wondered what it was like to be chosen. I was never chosen. I was a maybe, a probably, sometimes even a definitely but never the one, never the chosen one.

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