SIGHHHHHH Today Was Certainly A Day I Guess. Like It Started Off Great…? I Got Sudden Surge Of Wanting

wow… jan25 end…… can’t believe it. already! but also…. it did feel a bit slow but also feels like wow… already end..

anyways! I really did manage to draw something for all of Jan except for one day 😂😂😂 some days more productive than others. but hmm. towards the end… definitely was on slower end.

mannnn im getting slight urge to draw but refusing to give in 😤

back to poses…<3

oh jeez. here’s comes the highlight of the day n the biggest/crazy part. okay well it’s not really crazy but feels like TO ME.

THE GAA PIECE!!!!! REMMEBER HOW I WANTED TO WORK ON IT!!!!! I FINALLY DID!!!!!’ WHOOOOP WHOOOOPP. how fitting it is that I do it, one day before the d-day ahaha ♥️

—I had like general idea of focusing on the guy with him bending like to get some kind of present and bending poses are like. the bane of my existence ngl. so I had to find refs and ha……..as I knew that refs didn’t exist. like I mean I couldn’t find it. where hell is my “bending slightly” ref pose?! none that’s where. so I just had to start it without it.

—so. the pose. 😐 I tried many attempts (it was two/three) and while while it looks kinda bending over. it felt too much or just — was off. but THEN…. OMG… I don’t even know where it came from (wait I think it was from general idea of robo/bean method I saw on proko vid) I just used two circles that are overalapping and made sure that one was more bending over and that fixed it???! I GOT IT IT???????? im freaking awesome that’s what. ahahah

—yeah yeah as you can see from my notes the pose wasn’t perfect felt off and stuff but anyways. yeah intially I had the idea of him actually bending to receive the present and it would be maybeee ambiguous who it is or maybe it’s the son. and like had floating ideas of sibs being there. but when I got to drawing the going to recieve the present, I was like hmmm. maybe it’s best that he’s already received it and has it in hand kind of scene? and I decided to just go with the son being in foreground (large) who is the one whl gave it.

—here is (above) my rough first sketch of the idea where I redraw the pose (using heh new method to do bending pose….!!! <333) and this time he’s like holding the present or whatever and did scribble of the son in then foreground. I couldn’t be bothered for actual trying to draw in son in foreground like that. like no.

—after that I went over to drawing over and doing the clothes and more finalised sketch and I was really liking it!!! it was coming along VERY nicely. but well. yeah there was a lot to do and focus as I did the notes there. but that was for future me….. sigh I think I knew on some level that this wasn’t just gonna work out. but well it doesn’t hurt to try you know.

—I came back after a bit, procrastinating really cuz I did NOT wanna draw this guy in foreground…! I knew how it’s gonna be like. but yeah I did get around to doing it. practice n shit first. well it’s not really practice lol.

—it was just trying to get an overall feel for how things should be placed/be like and it was just blocks that I was working with to help figure stuff out and yeah I don’t think I knew what I was doing but thought I gist of it (yeah. No. I didn’t 😔)

—yeah and then I drew pose for the son so I can get a feel for how the pose would be like and lololol it did feel… for the gesture… so stiff… I think it might have to do with how there’s no diff angles. I guess. and hey… you know what. looking at this now. it’s not actually bad…….? I think maybe there should be a more an overlap but not bad and I do think lol gaa is looking super awkward with his posing. looking at the sketch of the pose I can see it might have to do with how weirdly out the pelvis is…? when it feels like he’s not really bending over in this one hmmm. but anyways im happy to know that I can still came back to this one.

—anyways I did do a draw over the son pose and my GOSH was it hard to even try to find 💀💀💀💀 ref… I don’t know how to draw the stupid back of his or his clothes. and well. I guess that he would be wearing more casual clothes anyways but well. whatever.

—yeah after doing this I realised. yeah no sadly this is Was not going to work out 💀💀💀💀💀 (but like I said looking at this now from the future it’s the not bad??? I think may haps be too much distance between them butttt??? Also yeah the son’s pose looks weirdly stiff but yeah.)

—I was initially going to for a similar thing (going to reach for presents/holding presents) but well. I did try to doodle something after that but I was like. maybe I need to step back and think properly and stuff……

and so came the second idea….!!!!!!

DAY DIDNT START OFF SO GOOD… 😔😔😔😔

—since I was already drawing from last time I thought I might as well continue into next day and do some figure prac and sIGH. watching the time lapse of my fix redraw honestly bothered me. it felt like I was better than…. and I don’t think how I adopted drawing the ribcage lately is something im a fan of. it’s just something I picked up and I don’t think I like it…

—anyways from that and seeing how my first figure prac wasn’t amazingggg well. it just got to me and then when I tried to draw in my second figure using the way I used to draw in ribcage and stuff it really wasn’t going in great and ahhhhb I was really started to feel depressed about my arts again and all sorts of sad 😭😭😭😭 but I persevered and yayyyy things picked up REALLY nicely in the third one……

—I was drawing from ref but got an idea for how pose could go and so changed it to the idea and oh mannnn it came out so nice ♥️ im so happy ♥️

—but yeah the other two just sucked so I gave up and mannnn it got me sad about my art. maybe drawing character art would cheer me up but idk man. I couldn’t just draw more stuff. I think it’s cuz I feel like I’ve regressed in my art which make me sooooo sad. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it doesn’t help that I want to draw more nicely but am not at that stage and I just feel frustrated I guess and want to just be more good at art…. SIGH…….

—-oh well. we’ll see how things are a few hours from now. I think I just should just take break from art right now. I did want to focus on my writing lately but haven’t gotten to. maybe I should do that hmmm.

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okay I did have a strong moment where I was really gonna give up on art and everything and then towards end of the day I realised how ridiculous that notion was, considering how I still partially was thinking about art and stuff and cuz I know myself and how many times I wanted to draw my stuff so I know I will be crawling back to art eventually. either I didn’t feel like drawing any more stuff today OR SO IT WAS…

—until I came across this animatir(?) Art of boru+his mom and I had the sudden urge to draw them together now and so I got my iPad to satisfy this bizarre urge and… end up doing some more figure pracs.

—okay tbf, the figure pracs were… already there when I opened procreate and so I just got down to doing it. had realisation I just like.:..? doing these kind of poses () and also man legs are hard and I think I forgot how pelvis looks like and where they are placed and man im terrible at stuff where pelvis justs out… and also at angles where rib is more angled or whatever…? I have struggled with that

—also lol at one point I gave up properly doing these and turned really into more scribble-ly fun… also I was trying to shrug off these being serious stuff and just have fun drawing…. I think I needed that

—I got bored then… and went off to draw the boru+mom idea I had… I didn’t really have an actual idea tbh….. but then I realised I probs should get in some face pracs since I haven’t really drawn hina… and uhhhh yeah it’s been a hot while since I drawn boru and I have been thinking of prev art that made me feel sad when I think of it cuz I feel like my art has not been as good at drawing faces and so I thought to go back to prev brushes but before that in the naru folder I saw some gaa+love face doodles and these weren’t bad….?! anyways after one hard brush face doodle that wasn’t bad (but man do I need to practice drawing shoulders/bust up shots. I went to this other brush that I can’t spell…. And THIS IS WHERR THE MAGIC HAPPENED!!!!!! YES THIS WAS IT!!!!!!!!!

—and well of course not all the drawings were good…. and ahhhhh yeah I need to practice on side

—I wanted to do some skkr practice as you know what happened……yesterday…. I wasn’t gonna do it since it seemed a pain to switch to my ss folder but I just did it. And at this point the better in my pen was fighting for its life so I was quickly trying to get it down and hello??!??? while this is still not reaching the idea way I want to draw her. ITS SO MUCHHHHH BETTERER THAN PREF ATTEMPTS….. IM SO HAPPY…… also I think issue might be her longer narrow face…..? but I am very very pleasantly pleased at how she turned out overall. So happy. These day really turned around in the best way ever and im very happy heh.

I do wanna continue for tmmr ^^ and hopefully draw more of the characters I want for my art goal and do try that smol simple comic idea I had…. that would help with background+comic prac but also I feel like it would be good to just take a day off. even if it might bad in long term. I just feel like taking a day off.

think I’ll take a break now from art’ing and brush up on my knowledge of how things work and connect… specially arms… urgh…..

COLOURRR TIMEEEE

like lol I did genuinely have a diff plan today which was to DRAW DRAW DRAWW character stuff!!! plus have some figure prac dibble in. since this morning n afternoon, I’ve been watching some videos. faces n clothes. and honestly didn’t help that much but the clothes one I think I got more better understanding…? And what I need to study I guess.

but ahahah while I did want to draw I didn’t feel urge to get pen and draw until… I came across this beautiful colour sky thingy on yt background for a song and wow it suddenly got me wanting to do colour studying!!!! so I got my pen and cracked to it.

— one thing I wanted to focus on is the ability to just pick colour and feel for the right one which I think…(?) I’m getting. still very weak on that especially that yellow one down there. not satisfied since I wasn’t able to get the overall genera colour scheme awww.

—like initially just wanted to see how diff colour picks would be easier or not against diff value backgrounds….

—for the person colour drawing I wanted to capture their overall skin colour and I think I went too overright with the Oliver. since they had more lighter skin. but at least my second attempt is better than the first which I think turned out overalll muddy because I used a green undertone but wasn’tttt entirely sure of how to use it.

— I do like how the blockage for the darker skin sphere turned out. I remembered these videos I watched a whileee ago and the more saturated colour picks and it def helped…!

— I stopped for a bit since I felt like this was starting to become aimless and I think would be better if I did a full colour for a character and then figure out my weakpoints to study on… also this was god since I was able to get in some figure study ^^ and something I realised/well more like reinforced is the drawing the legs….. and just understanding how it more less connects from the body. also ahahah I feel like it’s better if I start to work on studying the feet at one point….

— also I started to think that I want to do more comic focused today as well. it would be really good in realising what stuff I’m missing in gaps and just the prac down. I’m havin some problem in head just finalising vague ideas so I think it’s best to get something down… also do have some urge to just draw on paper today… also I really want to draw this character on motorcycle!!!’ it’s something I’ve never done so I know it won’t turn out amazibgggg and shit but. well. it’s best to try right!!!!! and ahhhh I really just wanna draw characters interacting man….. so many to-do…. piority is really that comic stuff since I can have character interactions and general comic prac which is what I need!!!!!! 15.07

ahahah… yeah I did say all of that. but I didn’t do it<3 :’

— honestly wasn’t feeling it but I felt like doing some figure pracs anyways so I just got to doing it. I wanted to focus on character interactions and lolll immediately came across this hard one… lying pose…. I honestly wasn’t feeling it so lol I put low effort into most of these… but I do think it was good and lil fun now realising doing more varied poses… also ahahah I do like the multi coloured look… I realised I still had the green from the colouring session before on when I went to do the figure prac and wanted to see how it would be like to do in all these diff colours and it looks fun to look at. but as per usual, I do like/prefer more brighter pink dark blues and black to draw in… purple when I’m in mood.

—I included hand studies and oh boy those are hard :’ ahaha…. like wtf is this under me…. Idk what I was trying lmaoooooo.

—also remembered to include some lil twisting bodies pracs since I remember I suckedddd at that yesterday ahahah. and I think I got it(?) a lil bit…. like the way the shoulder one one side is almost not seen and like doing that paper thing helped at first to see the twist…

—and well since I completed to fill the page I wasn’t really feeling doing another page but also didn’t want to stop drawing… and well remember how I said I wanted to do comic? Well I thought… what if I worked on stuff I already have…? And what do you know! That way worked! The roommate one… I didn’t actually start anything for it lmao but drawing some idea I had for poses anyways… so I just got straight into it. And uhhhh not bad. Actually quite proud of that first panel…. I did have some idea of them being outside and I don’t think I like how I filled the background since I wanted them to be more outside so something to change. also I’ve been looking closer at mangas I’ve been reading and they do tend to have panels with characters smaller and I wanted to try that. and I realised that it’s best to have a script since while I had vague idea of what I wanted in this scene it’s. kind of hard to think of the sequence just like that. but honestly cba to write out the script for this comic today LMAO so yeahhhhh

—but I did want to continue drawing and did have some urge to draw some srda and I did have this some kind of idea in my head for her pose but ehhhhhh lol when I put it to paper lmaooo it def felt so….?!?! like what was even the plan for the pose… nothing about it made sense?? why would she be doing that???? also wow I really suck at drawing the face I realise. it bothered me a lot lmaooo . like pls why does she look like that 😭😭😭

— I honestly didn’t think that I’d be doing other drawings and plus the prev one took all the drawing want to draw at all from me lmaooo. but ehhhh i got back to picking up my pen since i was back in my bed anyways… and this time i wanted to focus on faces… but i def did feel like this was super aimless… and just doing whatever and trying to get some faces in diff angles and i think the problem is that my understandings of faces structure is terrible…like i knowww the gist and general of the stuff. but well it’s more the jaw I guess and idk what it is i feel like im not completely understanding it like how im understanding and now the figure better…. so i guess its time to watch some videos and just also general videos of people drawing faces…. I feel like that would help I guess…. Also man it did feel super sad since how terrible my faces is…. I think it’s cuz I always prided myself on doing good faces and well, I know that now my “eye” has gotten better i wasn’t really that good at faces. maybe yeah for straight ones but ahh… still…. It’s kind of sad…..

ahhh… I want to cry :’ today art no good… arghhhhh