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SIGHHHHHH today was certainly a day I guess. like it started off great…? I got sudden surge of wanting to improve and it was alright. liked the few figure stuff I did in the beginning…

—it started off STROVG!!! like look my first page of figures and the legs.,,. way better than I usually draw it. cuz I was paying special attention to them and was proud of it.,,

—I lol also did try to lmaooo do rib cage studies but gave up after a bit and the bit of the guy torso in the page was me following YouTube video. thee one I said that I found and was excited to follow in the future since it’s what I was looking for and welllll. I think I jumped the gun there. I do like the way they drew ribcage and the way their method of drawing felt like it was 3D but idk how to explain it when I followed it but like…? yeah idk how to explain but I do think I got something from it I guess.

—I also tried hands too but yeahhh my god hands r just too much. 😔 I need to practice them…….

—-and ehhhh the second page idk what happened but it felt like it wasn’t going well again but I did like the lil character interaction figures I did though so after a bit just gave up on that.

—-juv time!!!!!!!!! I wanted to draw her and so I did and that doodles of her face really and I do like how some of these turned out and I was just also seeing diff brushes and stuff…

—AND SO I WENT TO DRAW HER…. picked a ref that I thought would be perfect pose for her and that’s when things started to fall apart…. 😐

—I didn’t like it at all 😭😭😭like I just didn’t now what it was??? yeah I knew the pose was iffy but I think it had to do with her face or whatever and well as you can see I went back later to redraw it and lol I think I butchered the pose a bit again but anyways I think I got the face a little better? Since I kind of like it better but ehhhh still wasn’t satisfied also. I wasn’t sure as to what outfit to put her in either but just remembered this one cover where she wore that kind of outfit or similar from what I remember and just put her in that….

-anyways it did really bother me how i just couldn’t get her right so i did some more practices focusing on that… i was cooking something at the time and so ahaha i didn’t want to bring my iPad down and lol as you can see on the paper there’s stains of oil fjjfjfjfk. and honestly?! I don’t think im satisfied with this session at all… I mean some of them turned out great but ahhhh so annoyed I can’t reproduce it. i also tried changing her nose a bit here n there and mmmmh don’t know if I like it.

—well after that I just wanted to draw her to see if I got it and just to draw. and welllll. I certainly need to work on sittibg poses cuz wtf this was hard also ahaha I wanted to adjust the pose of ref so she’s leaning on her hand and lollll that was hard like I had a feeling of knowing what I was doing wrong but it was somehow hard to get it down?! I even in the end just took a pic of myself in the pose and tried to doodle it in but ahhhh still haven’t got the pose right but at least I think…? I got the gist of it. one big issue was I think the way her legs was that way that’s why it didn’t feel like she was leaning on her hand…. and I do kinda like how the top initial one turned out even if her pose doesn’t make sense. also man I really shouldn’t use this pencil for sketching in the lines… of pose… yeah I realised that a part of why I didn’t feel like I wasn’t getting her right is cuz I wasn’t using this brush. idk what it is but the roughness of it just seems perfect for her but problem is I can’t use it while doing poses since I have tendency to just scribble or to work over my lines and it’s a bad habit that I don’t like since it makes things harder, I feel like but also cba to go to the other brush… since I was just already using this one lol

—freaking heck…. This one…. alright man the pose the one that freaking drained me of everything ahahahah….. alright…. so I wanted to draw more and found this ref that I changed a bit… and my GOD was the hands so freaking hard to get. just look at my struggle below 💀

—honestly it’s a miracle that i managed that turned out actually good…?! im so surprised tbh that the end result wasn’t so bad… but also lololol i think i did have general idea for what the pose was meant to convey but lmao I didn’t do it in a way at all that conveyed it properly and it just doesn’t make sense now lololol. and man I do feel like not using that pencil brush here would have helped a lot more. also im proud of myself too, the way that yeah it was a struggle and annoying but it… didn’t feel so frustrating to point of quitting? more like wow after this I don’t want to do art for another 100 years. im. TIRED

—i mean yeah also I was sooo disspirited. like I thought I was lil better at this ahhhh. I feel like also I was getting lazy at drawing out structure for pelvis which is dangerous habit to fall on since it’s helps to reinforce what’s that and how the legs and whatever work… I think that’s what happened with my arms like I had general idea of what happens with arms/shoulders but because I just drew it out like whatever. yeahhhh things started to fall apart since I didn’t reinforce shit.

—and well yeah. after that I did draw in another juv but ahahah I was so exhausted by this point I just didn’t want to finish it or whatever and gave up on it lololol. exhausted!!!!

—I didn’t think that I would be doing any more art but I should know myself by now and yeah I did some general figure studies. but wow my heart wasn’t in it. also man…… the arms…… 😔😔😔